P4: UPdate from a while

Hello Everyone,

I fell of the radar for a while. I have been just doing real life stuff. But I hope to be more updating.

I got off HCG at 193.8 lbs. I'm very happy with that. I feel sexy and look good. I still have a big butt, but hello! :)
So I did my 3 weeks of p3. My last week of p3 was in Mexico. I did eat Tortilla's and Margarittas and some wine. I came home at 194.8, which was .2 higher then I left for Mexico. :) YEAY!

I have been eating p4 stuff. I have enjoyed either an egg and toast in the morning, or a bowl of Kashi Cereal. Less crap in my food. I have been careful with what I put in my mouth. I much rather have an apple and peanut butter then a bad snack.

I find I eat healthier, but have allowed some popcorn, but not in the amount I used to eat every night pre-hcg. I did enjoy a costco pizza last night, plus 2 pieces of bread. I did know it was wrong, and I gained this morning. But honestly I feel okay. I'm at 193.6, I went down to 192.2 after I came back from vacation.

I will take a break for at least 2-3 more weeks. I enjoy trying to eat normal and manage my weight in p4. Then I plan on buying the homeopathic stuff and doing a round on my own. I just can't afford going to my doctor every 2 weeks. I really feel I don't have to buy the 100 dollar stuff and just do the 20 dollar stuff that works for my 2 friends who hover around the low 200's and my husband who lost 30 lbs.

I only have about 60 more lbs. I am not going to force myself to 120 lbs like I was thinking. If I get into a size 8 or lower and LOOK and FEEL healthy I will be okay. It's been nice just to eat normal. I feel like food has no real power over me and I just eat to nourish and move on. It's been nice to feel so free. I still will go back to HCG. Just don't feel so hurried to 'get it done'.

SOrry I have been so out of touch with my internet friends! I do appreciate you all. Just have been doing 'real life' stuff. :P hehe.

R2P2: Day 53

Weight: 193.8 lbs
Loss of: 1 lb today
Total Loss: 30 lb
Total over all 90

Sorry I have been gone. Numbers since I wasn't posting:
VLCD DAY, DAy, DAy, weight, Loss/gain
46 Fri 29-Jan 196.2 1.6
47 Sat 30-Jan 195.8 0.4
48 Sun 31-Jan 195.2 0.6
49 Mon 1-Feb 195.2 0
50 Tue 2-Feb 193.6 1.6
51 Wed 3-Feb 194.4 -0.8
52 Thur 4-Feb 194.8 -0.4
53 Fri 5-Feb 193.8 1


So, I have had some trouble around 200.6 but finally have gotten away from that slump. WOOT!

I have been busy with a clients website that I am trying to finish. It is harder than thought, plus I have a kid who has been pretty needy because we have a lot going on around the house. I have also been doing a lot of calling to daycare facilities and apartments. We are thinking of moving if I get work up North.

Feb is my clean out month. I will try to dump as much stuff as possible and have a cleaner home if we don't move, but also less stuff to pack if we do move.

Just a LOT going on. I haven't focused too much on the diet but it's been turned into a 'regular' thing in my life now too. Which is good so I focus less on it.

Okay. So my friends who are doing the diet have told me some stuff: 1. Hebrew Nation 97% fat free hotdogs work on this diet. they are whole beef franks. They work. It's nice to microwave them and eat them w/ some mustard.

I have also tried a mushroom. mmmmmm. my husband makes a mushroom soup to die for. Yes, not protocol food, but some have included it, I wanted a change.

I think it would be easier to stick to this diet if it was 40 days and then regular stuff. I think people should do no more then 40 days honestly. But since my doctor is having me go all the way I tend to get a bit tired of things over all. So I will add a slice of cheese once in a while because it's like I want my body to remember it has a gall bladder!! heh.

I go on vacation at the end of the month. WHich will give me a break. I will start p3 just as soon as my meds run out. :) yeay! I am looking foward to it, though I have enjoyed being smaller.

I can fit into a size 16 jean but I just stand there. heh. Can't move, but I can zip it up! I'm getting there. I am 1/2 way through this round that I was last round. I did 110 days. I'm at 53 now. It feels the same length. I guess it's that I'm thinner and i feel SO GREAT! I feel like I look so great! Now I understand why I had sat at 180 for so long, it wasn't like I was a balloon, just very curvy! :)hehe. I did have a flatish stomach at 180. But I plan to go to 123!

anyways. I need to get back to work! Talk more later, hope to post more frequently and get back into things. :P Good luck on that right? Give me till next week actually! :)

R2P2: Day 46

Weight: 196.2 lbs
Loss of: 1.6 lb today
Total Loss: 27.6 lb
Total over all 87.6

Morning Folks!

So I'm releasing fat at an amazing rate this week. I think my body is apologizing for the stall by these amazing losses. :) YEAY!

I have about 5-6 bags I put on my front porch of fat clothes and some baby clothes (from my son) that ARC picked up today. Purging is good! I have a bathtub we do not use up stairs. I have decided to use it as my 'get rid of' place so I can close the doors and Not look at it, but then just grab bags and fill them up. I put towels, clothes, books, anything that will 'get OUT of my house'. Also one less bathtub to use and have to have cleaned. :) heh. I have started using this bathroom as my bathroom and let my husband have his own. We have two full bathrooms upstairs. We just don't need that. We have one downstairs (but a guest bath). Anywho.

So last night I had cod smothered in a mustard with cauliflower. Pretty good. I would rather bake it with tomatoes and basil like my brother in law did. He is on the diet and already fits into pants that have been aluding him! :) YEAY HIM! He has 30 lbs he wants to lose. One observation he has made- this diet he is not losing in his face right away. All I can tell him is that in past diets he must have been losing structural fat or something. My face didn't get 'BAM" thinner... but it was in stages. I do see my face now and feel it's weird and too thin. NOt ghost thin, but you can see my cheak bones. I will need a picture to show you. I don't like it totally. I never minded a slightly plumper face. LOL. My face looks so long now. Which makes haircuts nicer.

This diet sure takes its time with problem areas, but it's an equal opportunity protocol. It takes all over the place giving us an even look. Makes the whole process look very natural. It's nice. My thighs are going down nicely! :) I haven't worn my jeans in a week. (Buming around the house in baggier pants) I'm curious how they will look on me, in the past pre-diet I was scared on not trying on pants for a week, normally I would outgrow them a little. :P Always hated the washer/dryer. Now I put them in to get more wear out of the pants! :) LOL

anywho. Have a wonderful day in your phase doing what you need to do! :)

R2P2: Day 45

Weight: 197.8 lbs
Loss of: 1 lb today
Total Loss: 26 lb
Total over all 86

Hello Ladies,

I think I am out of my slump. I was losing inches but not pounds and now I am losing pounds! YEay!

This last week has been a bit stressful. Our house feels a bit more in order so I can deal. I have some things I need done on my plate. I just need to finish things and take the time. I just lake motivation lately. No clue why, but I do.

I sewed a bunch of dice bags this week for the win! :) heh. I now I have to update a clients website. I need time for that, and I haven't found it as much as I wanted. But I need to get it done!

I have 'explored' a bit more with my food. I have done a quick dish of tuna or chicken in a can with tomatoes and mustard. Oh my that is good. Fast and easy and tasty! :) A winning combo.

I have wonderful arms again. I loved my arms. they always got so thin but I look at them from the side and I see the droop. Toning will take that away I know, but It is still there to observe. heh.

Off to take some time working on the website. Talk to you gals later. Thanks for being here with me. Sorry I haven't read much of other blogs lately. My ipod app is broken and doesn't let me read your blogs. It is much harder for me to sit at my computer and read them. :( But I will make the effort. I"m sorry I'm so far behind lately! :P

R2P2: Day 43

Weight: 199.2 lbs
Loss of: 1.4 lb today
Total Loss: 24.6 lb
Total over all 84.6

So I broke into Onderland!!

now everyone be really quiet. Lets not scare that away!

I've been stuck at 200.6 for forever! okay, maybe a week, but it felt forever!

So we will see. I've been putting my head in the sand lately. I've been unmovitated in various areas, but I have dumped several bags of size 26 clothes to the curb for ARC organization to pick up! :) I'm trying to empty the house.

I need to sew bags though.

I hope my mood picks up now that I am hopefully on a downward loss! :)

R2P2: Day 39

Weight: 200.6 lbs
Loss of: 0 lb today
Total Loss: 23.2 lb
Total over all 83.2

4th verse same as the first? heh.

So ya, Same wait for the 4th day! :P I think I am sitting here for a while. This has to be a past set point. Only down point of the diet it seems. HEHE.

I'm almost done with my drops, but I have another bottle that I will be taking up till my vacation. I think I will be off HCG for 2 weeks this time. I can deal with that.

I am noticing that my body is shrinking, though the numbers are not. Did you notice this too when you hit a past weight?

We cleaned the rooms yesterday. The couch is moved in the corner w/ the tv. It's very cute. There is a lot of junk stuff, but the furniture it moved, now I can go in and declutter.

Lavender- I'm happy you mentioned it. I think It came to me when you wrote that post! :) I got too scared to get rid of it, we might move in the next year, and I could use that couch in the family room. I want a living room and family if possible! :)

I was sewing like a mad woman yesterday as well. I got my 2 special orders finished, and then I have a bunch of 1/2 finished bags that just need the lip hemmed over.

I have a friend who's wife needs a dress. I'm looking forward to making a dress for her, and bonding with her. I play online video games with my husband and a bunch of friends. I want to get to know the wifes as well!! They don't geek out like I do. SIGH. I wish more would, we do have a couple wifes that play, but not enough! heh.

I didn't want to be bummed about my lack of loss but this is ridiculous. I think what is going on is that I wonder "What am I doing wrong?" but I'm not, so it's the weight that is currently stuck. But I feel like it's my fault somehow. Maybe I shouldn't eat burger. Maybe I should ... I don't know. hehe. I said I would enjoy burger this time because it started to get a bit chicken chicken chicken for me. Heh.

anyways. It will happen soon! It will. Wish me luck!

quick update: Take care of yourselves

Hey guys,

I was sitting and thinking. My mom got a huge health scare this week, but the check up found out that she is fine.

It made me think today, what if she was sick? What if she was going to die soon? I would miss her and I don't want her to die.

Which got me thinking. We don't really take good care of ourselves do we? Many of us on the diet are taking control and finally getting healthier, but I'm a daughter who will lose their mother one day. She takes fairly good care of herself for the most part. She has made it a goal to see my son graduate. So that motivates her.

I think of myself and what I put in my body and I go, my son will feel the same fears of losing a mother one day. I want to be there as long as possible for him.

I think we should all realize, it's not just ourselves that we need to be healthy for, but those people who love us, children or mates. Good friends. The neighbor who enjoys meeting you at the mailbox. Your death will leave a hole in this world.

If you don't take care of yourself for you, then think of those around you. Let that motivate you to live one more year longer.

Go to the your doctor, may it be a naturalpath or western typical. Maybe it be blood work, or mammogram. Make sure you keep your mental wellness in check as well. It's not fun to just have a body sitting in a wheel chair when you can't communicate with the person! So it's the whole package deal folks!

Please, keep yourself aware of your body, mind and soul! :)

R2P2: Day 38

Weight: 200.6 lbs
Loss of: .8 lb today
Total Loss: 23.2 lb
Total over all 83.2

3rd verse, same as the 2nd and 1st. :P GAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW

I'm going to be stuck here for the rest of my life!!!!! Okay, for the next week. I am SERIOUSLY being teased! I mean. this is a monumental moment to get under. To be in ... ONEDERLAND! (I LOVE that) But NOoooooo. My body says "Wait for it.... Wait for it...." I"m waiting!!!

I forgot to eat yesterday for the most part. heh. I noticed I hadn't consumed anything at 2pm, then I realized with a start "oh crap, I forgot the hcg" So I took a day off from the hcg to see if I can kick start this diet again. :P
I ate late, drank late and went to bed pretty late.

So today is hcg again and a small cheat. I realize that small cheats are getting me to get lower. :P but I won't make that a habit. hehe.

btw: I got a hair cut! :) I Feel 100000X's better. It's 3 inches shorter from long to medium long. I love it. I got it layered and frames my face. Very nice. I'm happy with it.

Though I am not changing on the scale, I do notice that my body is getting smaller. My clothes are fitting better. I look thinner. So I know I am losing inches.

Off to eat and drink! I can't forget. and I won't because I woke up a bit peckish.

R2P2: Day 36

Weight: 200.6 lbs
Loss of: .8 lb today
Total Loss: 23.2 lb
Total over all 83.2

Hey Folks,

I wasn't going to let the scale get me down, but it is. This has been a hard week for me. I hate being sick. I hate feeling drained. I hate feeling overwhelmed.

The house has gotten to be a total mess. When we redid the floors we moved some furniture upstairs. It is still upstairs taking space. It seems like I live in a total mess, and any time I get headway, the next 'big thing' happens to make my house a mess.

I don't need Martha steward, but I just need organized and clean. I hate that my kid gets popcorn and he feels this need to dump it allllll over. SIGH! Then I get to clean it up.
I hate that I clean up the kitchen till it sparkles, and then it gets messed up by the next morning.

I'm tired. I'm just drained and tired right now. The cold has wiped me. I'm drained when I see the house a mess, and I know I need to get it picked up to feel better. I'm going to look for another cleaning lady. They always 'reset' the house so I feel less overwhelmed and can move forward.
I have a couch that my mom gave me. Expensive nice couch. But it's not fitting into our livestyle anymore. It's a little worn from years of use, and a child. It's not a bad couch, but nothing I would 'sell' because it's not in mint condition. So I want to give it away. But I am so hung up on my mom spending so much money on that stupid couch. It would be a shame just to give it away, but it's taking up 1/2 a bedroom because it doesn't fit in the living room anymore.

Okay- I am just overwhelmed, tired and drained. I'm taking things one at a time. I have a laundry list of things i need to do. Today its cut my fabric to sew bags for a store that buys my bags for dice bags. I need to do that. It's not only some money for me, but it is also inventory they need. Tomorrow I will sew them. I need to write a list of all the 'todo's and get a plan. Just too much to do!

quick OMG moment! - I've got his pants!

So, I thought for Shoot's and Giggles I would try on my husbands size 38 pants. We wanted to give them away so who cares right. Let me try them on. He is now sitting at a size 34.

THEY FIT! THEY REALLY FIT!
Those freaking pants actually fit me. Normally I would have had to sewn both pant holes together to fit one of my thighs. I was totally freaked out by this. In a good way.

I'm trying to clean up his "PILE" of clothes. We found a shirt he gave me for Xmas but I didn't fit into anymore. Size XXL t-shirt with Foamy the Squirrel logo. Well, that thing can now become a tent for me!

I miss out on having a piece of outfit to 'try' to fit into every 2-3 weeks. Everything fits me now. I had gotten rid of all my under size 18. Dresses, pants, my high school clothes I finally gave up on. Sigh. They were SO freaking awesome! You know the kind- the cool tights with the BIG sweaters. :D I'm a early 90's girl.
anywho. New clothes! :) MOve on!

But it's nice to have those little jewels. I even grabbed a shirt my mother had given me to cut up. It was a size 12. I can fit into that. I just need to go to goodwill and spend a hard earned 4 dollars on a few things I can 'fit into' before I just give it back to them. ;) I even fit in my my mom's size 2 Chico's shirt she gave me. FREEDOM!

anyways. I was so freaking blown away by the pants I had to share: Size 38 x 34. That is what I wear in a Mans pant! :)

R2P2: Day 36

Weight: 200.6 lbs
Loss of: .8 lb today
Total Loss: 23.2 lb
Total over all 83.2


MOrning folks.

I think I have finished the path of ick. I go to the doctors today. I feel better today, just a bit tired from waking up earlier then I want.

My son gets to go on a train with oma and opa today. Their way of doing something with him and babysitting while I go to the doctor.

So I was frustrated with losing nothing on the antibiotics so I decided to take 2 proboitics yesterday and a slice of cheese. I couldn't take it anymore. I was like "If I won't lose being so good, I'm eating cheese!"

It's a cheat, but at the same time I'm doing good with eating a bit of cheese to get some real fat into my body. Sounds weird I bet, but I am so scared of the gall bladder attacking me again I think I do the cheats for that purpose.
It doesn't help that these cheats seem to get me lower on the scale. I am, though, definatly, losing inches. I fit better in my clothes, especially the shirts.

By far, the 2nd round has been the hardest. I crave things more then I did the first round. I also realize around the 40th day I go bonkers for food on top of it.

I ate 2 apples yesterday because I got hungry in the afternoon and I have stopped eating fruit in the morning. Sigh. No clue why, just don't. I realized in the after noon being so freaking hungry that I should eat something and I had an extra fruit. I think 2 apples is a bit much, but they are cheap and easy to deal with. I don't like frozen strawberries as much. I don't like frozen fruit for that matter I realized. I will tolerate and have a smoothy from time to time, but honestly- fresh is where it is at! They taste 100 times better. All my grape fruit is sitting in the garage getting over ripe. :P I hate that. I hate wasting food so I will find the best ones. :)

Well, the kid wants to play on 'mommy's computer' so I will stop blabbing and get some work done around the house till I need to leave. :) I always get in trouble with the time when I blog. :) heh.

R2P2: Day 33
Weight: 201.4 lbs
Loss of: .2 lb today
Total Loss: 22.4 lb
Total over all 82.4

Second Verse, Same as the first.

So two days sitting at 201.8, now the 2nd day of sitting at 201.4. SiGH!

I blame the antibiotics. :P But I do feel a lot better!

So, I will be taking 1 mroe day of the antibiotics and then its off for a dose of probotics. :D YEAY! My tummy will feel MUCH better! :)

My cold is waning. I'm feeling better than craptastic now! :) My son has been really good for a 3year old through this process.

It's funny, I bought some more costco underware in size Large 2 weeks ago, now I seem to be ready for Medium!

Another cool thing- my mom is thin. She wears a size 14 bathing suit. She is much taller than me, so it's expected. By the Mexico trip I should be just fine for my size 14 bathing suit! WOOT! I can put it on, but it's a Tiny bit too small. 20 lbs will do wonders! If I can ever get there. SIgh. I will. We will see how it goes after I get probotics in my system.

anywho. Did I tell you my asparagus recipe? I normally would take a powered packet of asparagus soup out of my cupboard and heat it in water, but not for p2. So I was sad because you can't get the soup in America, so we always get them from Mexico or Germany.
Now I take a serving of asparagus, a serving of chicken, cut it all up in a mixing bowl, fill it up with water and microwave it. (Read: Lazy) Then after about 7 to 8 minutes I try the asparagus to see if it is done. Then blend it (careful! hot stuff!) and EAT! mmmmmmmm. It was a little watery tonight, but just put less water, but I usee the stuff I boil the asparagus in. :) enjoy!

okay. :) Take care folks!

R2P2: Day 31

Weight: 201.8 lbs
Loss of: 1.2 lb today
Total Loss: 22 lb
Total over all 82

I'm feeling craptastic! :)

Antibotics. Neti pot 2x a day. Sleeping while laying up. Not comfy but at least it gives my ears a chance to drain.

My right ear seems less clogged, thus doing better. My left ear feels more clogged and thus is doing worse. SIGH!

I will be trying some vinegar in the ears, and doing the oil thing as suggested. I would rather do these things, but with ears I get so sensitive and head for antibotics though new studies show you shoulnd't. :P Old habits die hard!

I had a movement today and the scale went UP! :P Someone needs to train that scale that that is NOT the way it works! If you eliminate you go DOWN! heh.

anywho.

R2P2: Day 30

Weight: 201.8 lbs
Loss of: 1.2 lb today
Total Loss: 22 lb
Total over all 82

My cold has moved from my brain into my face. :( I have been gifted with infection in both ears. My doctor is prescribing, blech, antibiotics. :( I will have my pro-botic on hand!

I've been using the neti pot today, plus took a claritin D to help decongest me a bit. My ears are a mess, my drain pipes don't work. I need to, after I get better, really pursue this. My chiropractor has worked on opening me up, as has my doctor. Nothing seems to work. I think they are tiny and don't work. My ears always feel plugged.

any ideas for home remedies for unplugging ears?

I hate being sick! :( But on the bright side, I did lose some today.
I took 1 day off from the hcg, but continue to eat the 500. Then the next day you go back onto the hcg and have a decent 'cheat'. So I had .88 ounces of cheese and a small teaspoon of peanut butter at the end of the day with my apples. Mmmmm. Happy Steffi! :)

Take care all! Please keep yourselves healthy or on the way to recovery if you got this bad cold!

R2P2: Day 30

Weight: 203 lbs
Loss of: .2 lb today
Total Loss: 20.8 lb
Total over all 80.8

The same. Sigh. I did eat some extra chicken last night because I was WAY hungry. I only took 1 day off from hcg. I'm sticking with it till the end of February for my 2nd 'one week off' for Mexico.

Good news: My husband can come to Mexico. Now to buy him a ticket with our mileage! :D yeay me! Yeay my husband! :)

I'm feeling like crap still. I tried the warm wet socks and warm dry socks under warm blankets, but my blankets wouldn't be nice to me. Every time I moved the socks would feel so COLD! I think it worked a little, I took them off at 5am after going to bed at around 1am. I was SO HUNGRY and miserable that I ate 5 oz of grapefruit and a cup of warm tea water. I think that is why I also didn't lose.

I'm developing a pregnancy bump in front because my sides have gone down so much. I LOOK fatter because my tummy in front is all by it's self. No side fat to make it look thinner! :)

Thank you new posters. I appreciate your feedback and that I can help or inspire or pass along something you might not have heard. I also love my old posters too! I have grown to enjoy you guys as a family! I look forward to seeing encouraging words. I look forward to finding out what you all are up to! I might be the lazy niece/aunt in the back but I do get off my butt once in a while!

okay- I'm off to drink more tea and take a couple asprin. Maybe some more resting on couch will help!

R2P2: Day 29

Weight: 203 lbs
Loss of: .2 lb today
Total Loss: 20.8 lb
Total over all 80.8

My head cold is worse. I can breath, but I plan on using christy's advice w/ the socks tonight. I totally forgot last night after I was already snug in bed.

I took my vitamins. I will take a b-12 again and maybe a cranberry pill.

I am not taking hcg today because low losses for the last 3 days. Then tomorrow a small cheat. Should help speed things up again.

Laters!

R2P2: Day 28

Weight: 203.2 lbs
Loss of: .4 lb today
Total Loss: 20.6 lb
Total over all 80.6


You know what sort of sucks. Losing 80 lbs and having a candid 'on an event' picture taken of you and you still look fatter then you feel. heh. :P

I got a headcold and today is the big 'ikcy' feeling day. I took: 1 asprin, my 2 multi-vitamin, potassium, and a B-12. I will take some cayenne pepper pills later to help. I also used the Neti-pot to clear out my nose a little. Still feel pretty miserable. :P But will manage.

I was spending too much time over at Christy in Seattle's blog. ;) hehe JUST JOKING! I think I got it either from my mother or running errands. I blame my period and low immune system. I also wasn't good at taking my vitamines. :P Sigh.

I made some chicken broth soup. The chicken tastes very broken apart, but the broth is most excellent!

I'm going to get maxiumum rest and pump myself reasonably with vitamins and b-12.
Any other symtom drowning ideas/advice would be welcome! I know we can't get rid of the cold, but I don't mind getting rid of the crappy feeling. :)

Tomorrow if I don't lose more then .5 I will be taking a day off per my doctors request. She said if I loss less then .5 for 3 days that I take a day off from hcg, do the 500 VLCD, then go back onto hcg the day after and have a cheat. Not a whole pie cheat, but eat a piece of cheese sort of cheat. Maybe add a boiled egg. mmmmm. I think this will kick start me.
I know that I can do this once a week if need be. I don't think I care about the loss so much as being able to cheat. :P THis round has been really focused on the 'don't cheat now steff'. This round has been harder in my willpower. My first round wasn't this tough. I mean cheats like - oh, I would love a hot dog like i used to have.

We used to do that in the house, and my husband did it this weekend. Got hot dog buns, and would make a hot dog with ketchup. I would cover it with mustard. I never liked ketchup for it's sugar. And then a side of Frito's. I miss that, and I didn't even know it. It was so trivial at the time. A food to make when we were having a family lazy day at home. mmmmmmmmmm. I miss that. I will have that on my next break. Maybe have hot dogs for lunch in Mexico. mmmmmm. heh.

We are still working on getting the husband along. His boss is out today. :S When he is wanted the most. heh.

My brother in law is going to start the diet. He is on a medication. I have to find out if he talked to his doctor, but has anyone known of medication messing with hcg, or vis versa? I adviced him to go to this doctor, we will see what the doctor said, if the guy even knew about hcg. I don't want to set up my brother in law for something bad. I am not on meds, nor was my husband. I have friends that are not on meds either so it's easy to say 'read the manual and learn' We did a lot of talking and we talked often till it was old hat for us all. I'm still learning things.

anyways. Talk later. Off to go finish my soup and hide under a blanket reading a good book. :) or doze. heh

R2P2: Day 27

Weight: 203.6 lbs
Loss of: 1 lb today
Total Loss: 20.2 lb
Total over all 80.2

No movement on the scale. I did take a smallllll bite of my husbands pizza yesterday because I was dying w/o food. I had a serious sugar crash. Tiny bite did help. SO I attribute it to that. Yes, a cheat, but we were no where around for good food. I should have gotten a salad with chicken while at Costco, but thought I could make it home. heh.

THough I bet I wouldn't have lost even if I did eat that. I didn't get all my water in and no losses are bound to happen.

I've been so focused on moving forward and adding to my total weight, that I forget to look at how I am really doing this time. Wow. 20 lbs so far. That is pretty impressive over all to me and I am totally seeing my body become thinner. It's nice.

I don't feel so ROUND anymore. I'm short so I become more round. heh.

We watched a movie, my husband and I. I ate before hand this time, I also brought in a grape fruit, but I wasn't going to bring in my water bottle nor was I going to pay 3 dollars for water. I was thirsty but had a good dose of water before I went in. All in all we saved ourselves 100 bucks ;) LOL. We didn't buy soda or popcorn. We had been getting use to buying water for 2.50 and the kids popcorn and candy box. I get the popcorn and the hubby gets the candy. I don't really enjoy candy as I do popcorn. I LOVE popcorn. Sigh. No popcorn for me. We even moved to an air popper because I started eating micro-popcorn every night. Expensive after a while in both wallet and health. There is crap in the popcorn stuff, and you can control butter/salt ratio yourself on air popped. I miss it. Sigh. My favorite nightly snack. HUGE bowl of popping corn w/ a little butter on top. Maybe some salt.

It's funny, I never know what I will write in these blogs, and I amuse myself where they end up. It's like, wow. I wrote a lot about popcorn.

Wish our household a little luck that my husband will be able to go on vacation!

I am hoping to reach 180 before that vacation! My stupid arbitrary goal. It will just keep me on the strait and narrow though. I will totally take whatever comes. I just want to fit better in the size 14 swimsuit and all.

Well, off to my mother's for dinner of roasted cauliflower and chicken. OH I will share my REAL asparagus and chicken soup. Mmmmm

R2P2: Day 26

Weight: 203.6 lbs
Loss of: 1 lb today
Total Loss: 20.2 lb
Total over all 80.2

Hello All,

So I bought a size 14 swimsuit at Costco. :D I can fit into it!! I am too big for it, but in 30 lbs I should be good. They won't have the suits in a couple months so I thought i would.

I have lost 80 lbs so far! YEAY!

I'm tired and grouchy and I stood up for myself a bit too much at the store today. We were in the self check out. A lady cut in line, I got a bit loud on it, and she and her husband gave us a look. I was like, um your rude to cut in line, please get back into your line. She said it was too slow. Then I told her that she choose to cut in front of us on the slow line and needs to not cut in front of me again!

One of those self check out lanes at Walmart, 2 on one side, and 2 on the other side. You stand in the middle and wait. She and her husband just cut on the right side. We made slightly elevated "I can't believe that" remarks to each other (me and the 2 other people she cut in front) then when that line was too slow she moved over to the left side. We were agast. I said something, I got nasty looks from her. :P I had people behind me actually talk loudly about 'Oh my god, what is that lady doing' and when I turned around and apologized they were like "No, good for you, we are talking about the line cutter" heh. I was so upset that i had to walk out and let my husband finish the purchase. The lady wouldn't even leave after the clerk asked her to get back on her side.

I realized, I am tired of being taken advantage of, or have people do the 'wrong thing' and then get upset when I call it out. Like my friend saying things about my son and if I tell him to be more reserved, he would get upset at me standing up for myself. WHY WHY WHY do people get upset when others stand up for themsevles? What is wrong witht he world?

Ya, maybe I should have kept my mouth shut, but it was so infurating. I'm not having a good week am I? hehe.

But my losses make up for it!

I did stay up till 3am watching movies though. It was fun. I started Bleak HOuse. WOW that is a cool show. realized it was long at around 2:30, I would have stayed up later if it wasn't for my son waking up. I went up there to check on him, and I fell asleep. heh. anywho.

Sorry I have been posting such bitchy posts lately. I'm doing okay over all. Like any sane person I need sleep and food. (Oh, it was 3:30 at the time and I hadn't eaten all day except for 3 slices of grapefruit and a bite of chicken at home around 11am. :P Not good on this diet to go out on errands when you haven't had lunch. :P

But I'm totally stoked for the swimsuit AND my husband is going to try to get the time off if possible. I told him It wouldn't be a family vacation with out him. I would miss him too much. I want him to be a part of this whole adventure! Also a wife in a sexy swimsuit! hehe.

R2P2: Day 25

Weight: 204.6 lbs
Loss of: 1.4 lb today
Total Loss: 19.2 lb
Total over all 79.2


Morning,
I've been bored of eating. I would love a pill that just makes me satisfied. heh. My husband has gone back to work and is gone a good portion of the day (12 hours) and our son isn't dealing well over all with that. He won't go to bed easily. Serious Seperation Anxiety. I don't know what is the best gentle way to dealing with this. Do we just give him a lot of daddy time when he is home or try to limit it even further to get him to calm out? Should daddy put him to bed or should I?

This morning was really good, last night putting little guy to bed was not. It didn't help that I had a friend over that was all "He's three right..." and sort of tried to imply a lot. He has called my son a brat in the past and it really gets my blood boiling. I try to explain but it doesn't get through. Our son has some bratty attitudes, but I'm sorry, our kid won't turn off like some robot nor does our child get put into a box like a yappy dog. He is a freaking kid. I know my friend is upset in a way that we had a kid because it disrupts his way of life with us. :S Oh well. He is though, complicated enough that it's not just cut and dry. He has moments where he really interacts well with our son and for the most part, our son gets sad when he leaves.
It's just a stress for me because everyone has a strong opinion (read into that- a serious 'you better do this for me' ) of what we should be doing with our son. Dont give him that, do give him that, oh, he should have this skill already, oh he should be doing that. Leave me and my son alone, and let my family - daddy, mommy and child - deal with how we are going to deal with this. If you don't like what we are doing, your more then welcome not to come over, your more then welcome to not have him at your home. I respect that. But he is such a good kid. He is polite, he says thank you, and please. He is very curious and detailed. He is already a bit OC, granted. He plays SO amazing with stranger kids in play areas. He is very gentle with kids he see's as younger than him. If reminded to share he will gladly give his toy to the younger kids, though he does get a bit defensive about older kids. I don't blame him, every time we are in the children's museum the older kids try to grab all the trains from him. No one really plays with him at the playground, but he tries. God that breaks my heart. To have two older kids ignore my son, yet this little guy chases them and tries to partake. He is NOT a bad kid and I wish people would just BACK OFF! Yes, he gets a LOT of love from us, and that sometimes means he gets a little more from us. he gets to stay up later because it works for all of us in the family. No he is not poddy trained because I haven't figured it out. Yes he uses the poddy when asked, he actually can sit on the big poddy by himself.

I guess I am protective of me and my family and I get grumpy when people want something for my son that I really don't think he needs. He has so many amazing qualities and it's my right to mess him up! I don't need help! heh.

I'm doing okay over all. The pms has worn off. I just have been tired. We are dealing with some MAJOR seperation anxiety by my son and husband. He wants 100% of my husband attention and that is wearing us all a bit thin because it's right now so extreme. We have never had this. He is good when we drop him off at grandparents. Though Today has been good. he hasn't woken up in the middle of the night screaming for daddy.(Okay he did at 10pm ) but not after we all went to bed. He even said, as we both came downstairs "Daddy's at work" and moved on to his computer. Lets hope this works! :) Lets hope whatever happened stays this way!

Ya, I know I posted a lot about my kid, but I guess I always get this way after a night that doesn't go perfect smooth for my friend and he has to start degrading my child. I tried to explain and I said "forget it" and ignored him. But unfortunately I still carry around the upset.

anywho. I'm proud of my progress with weight loss. I had some smaller losses and then BAM! :) I like these big losses. With such progress as I am doing right now I can be to 180 by the time I step onto the airplane at the end of Feb.

Wishing everyone a good day!

R2P2: Day 24

Weight: 206 lbs
Loss of: .4 lb today
Total Loss: 17.8 lb
Total over all 77.8

Morning Folks!
I'm catching up on many of your blogs! I just need to respond to several of them. I read them in the tub, then email certain entries I want to comment on. I can't comment to them on the ipod. :(

I'm a tiny, tiny bit disappointed on the recent slow down. But at the same time I told myself I wouldn't so by the time I finish writing this I will be okay! :) heh. I have thinner thighs. OH I forgot to mention I didn't have to walk sideways through the plane when I went to San Diego for the cruise. I didn't bump into people and have to say "excuse me... pardon me" (THUNDER THIGHS COMING THROUGH)

I find little things I am grateful for. It's fun to see how many little things come into our lives to make us grateful to be alive, even when a big piece of turd gets dropped into our laps. Regardless of what it is.
Is'nt life, in the end, about the little things? So many little things. There are more tiny bugs in this world than there are large creatures. ya. Think about that.

I see Christy In Seattle is GOING RED! and making a statement about many things in her life she wants to change or bring HUGE awareness of. I so agree. I am willing to promote her GOING RED but I think it really has motivated me to go Pink for breast cancer (both my aunt and grandmother dealt with it, my grandmother twice) and something that is near and dear to me is my mom's Rheumatoid arthritis. This horrible disease does not allow her to do all the things she used to love. She loved to Run and be very mobile. She is doing her best now, but she does medicate. She is in pain.

I do hate that there are so many things out there that hurt people. So many diseases that have causes behind them to help find a cure, bring awareness and get rid of it. Sometimes I wonder if we look at what causes these things, it seem it's enviroment, what we put in our body, yet there are so many people out there that are apathetic to what they put into their bodies. where they choose to live that if they thought about it for 2 seconds they would realize it's killing them.

I think, us on hcg, are learning the food aspect of the 'it's killing me' syndrome. That these industries allow for such things. They are killing off their user base? But "We'll make more" mentality is out there. We are in the fast lane! We are speed! We need it today or it's too late! Who cares if it kills us! Oh, the big companies take our health into consideration, why would they want to hurt us? Because it's cheaper, someone elses lively hood is at stake. It's about the MOney! Not the health. That's why our health care sucks in the USA. More doctors go to specific fields because it pays off the loans and makes them money. We have a shortage of general practitioners. We need more doctors in our area, yet when two clinics opened up in the same area, there was a squabble of 'this is my turf' F@(#& OFF people! It's about the people, not about your bottom line. Okay, to stay open it's about the bottom line but come on. There is enough sick people in need of general doctors!

Wow I am rambling all over the place. I'm just opening up and letting it out. And of course I need to leave in 15 minutes for a doctors appointment. LOL. I've done nothing. gaw. hehe. I see the 'crack your bones' doctor. I love him. He is so awesome. One of the only doctors office that doesn't look like one, more like a meditation facility. My son doesn't mind either. he is afraid of doc offices.
anywho. I better go and get something to eat. :P

The tickets are bought

I'm going to Mexico!

My father misunderstood the buying process online and I found out from a rep that they save 30% of seating for people like me with young kids. So they will make sure that we get a seat next to each other!! :D :D :D

So Here I come Sunny Mexico! Hopefully 30 lbs lighter. You better believe I am going to use it as a goal to see how much I lose! :D I will do no cheating so I can maximize my loss and enjoy another week of interuption! This won't happen till the start of March. :D

I could be 180 by march! :D I'm feeling very happy about this. Pulled me out of my funk. :) I will stay with my parents, and I am bringing my kid. My husband can't go because of his job situation. Otherwise we would have bought 3 tickets. But he wants this, I told him I wouldn't go, but he wants our son to have a week with out daddy to see if he will start looking to me more and not relying on daddy all the time. My week away from our child did a lot of good for him to understand people being gone yet coming back.

I'm going to the Beach! :D My son LOVES the beach. He cries sometimes when he sees the video of the beach and asks to go. We have to tell him next year. anyways. Enough chatter. Just had to share the good news!

R2P2: Day 23

Weight: 206.4 lbs
Loss of: .8 lb today
Total Loss: 17.4 lb
Total over all 77.4

So I was a bit long winded yesterday. I blame it on the PMS.

I do want to clarify something. I used to go into black out rages. I don't anymore. I have come a long way after getting married. Husband working through some of my issues with me. I am just a frustrated person trying to be perfect and it bothers me and makes me very upset. I have been really good in the last several months, I haven't raised my voice much at all. I'm actually tired of my son saying "Mommy calm down" lol.

I'm doing okay over all. I am just having a bad bought of pms this week for some reason. Everything is just ticking me off and I went and took a long bath last night and watched 2 movies by myself. It was very refreshing. I feel a lot better this morning, but the pms bug is still nagging at me to be in a lousy mood. Didn't help that my kid is waking up at 4am going "Where is daddy!" I'm like "Kid, he is at work please go back to bed!" Luckly the then let me sleep till 11:30, though I'm so Freaking tired still.

Went to my doctors, and she told me not to take cheat days unless I am losing less then .5 for 3 days. Then take one day off the meds and still do the 500, then the next day enjoy a cheat. Normally this has upped my losses afterwards, so it's not so much cheating as it's helping the diet. :) I'm losing so well this round (though I lost a week due to big cheats for holidays) that I want to keep it going.

We decided to give me a special cheat day after I hit 199, but I said 190 or else I will be doing that every day! 200, then 199. then 200, then 199. LOL Endless cycle of cheating. I told my husband I would rather not eat to celebrate a loss, but maybe give my parents some money when they go to Mexico and have them pick up a nice necklace for me. To celebrate my 200 mark. Or rather its the 199 mark. No more 2 at the start of my weight!
Oh, we are not finding any seats on the 4 hour flight to Mexico in the month of February so I won't be going with my son down there. :( I will call to find out if the web is just being weird or if that is really the true number. My husband just started working, he is the only man on his team and they really need him so the idea of him leaving after he started working is nto going to work well for him. But he thinks that our son taking a week off from daddy might get him to refocus on me a bit more. It's depressing when your son wakes you up at 4am going "Where is daddy" and you tell him "He is at work" and he throws a tantrum and you try to comfort him but he just gets louder. I did manage to cuddle with him after 1/2 hour of being rejected. He is NOT a cuddler. I'm very sad because of it. I grew up with not that much display of affection. Our house is very.. German. And so hugs were not the order of the day. So I grew up not showing affection to others as much, but I craved it. A good hug is sometimes the only thing someone wants. Not a candy bar, not a cookie, or a stuffed animal. Just a freaking hug. So My husband got me into hugs and physical affection. So I try to smother my son with it, but he always pushes away. NOt a cuddler. A player, a dooer, an action kid who does love us, but just isn't into all that stupid phsyical affection. :P heh.

Okay, what is in the water. I'm just blathering around. I'm not really a crazy person. I promise! I'm really okay, just having a hard pms week!

R2P2: Day 22

Weight: 207.2 lbs
Loss of: .4 lb today
Total Loss: 16.6 lb

warning: Long post- didn't mean it to be, but there it is!

Morning Ladies!
I had an evening. We tried to totally change our son's bed time and it didn't work (surprise) and then I decided to take a bath, and when I come downstairs after a long bath that took me to 10pm I see the guys on the couch. :S I fell off the bandwagon and went on a tyraid. Folks... I have tried so hard in the last couple months to keep my temper and blow up's in check. When I was hit puberty I would go into these weird blankouts of blowups. I even threw a huge tyraid in the middle of my school about how a friend closed her locker. I didn't remember it. I would literally go into blind rage. I was later told by my high school councilor I was a 1%'er of the PMS extreme. Like PMS = Bikers, and I was part of the hells Angels.
It's something I am not proud of, but it's there. I have, for some reason, a HUGE freaking ball of pure rage right in the middle of my chest. If left unchecked I can sometimes feel the swirling ball.

I have worked to deal with, especially when I had my son 3.4 years ago. I know I passed it onto him because in the first year I had a hard time being in control. My husband has helped me a lot though... to a point.
I felt bad after a good month of keeping it totally in check, I blew up. I told myself I wouldn't scream, but I just snapped and 'dragged' my kid upstairs (more like grabbed him and carried him while he was upset 'no bedtime mommy') and plopped him into bed and told him 'go to sleep!' I did temper myself with my kid because I don't want to directly scare him. But I let loose on the husband. Not good, but he did shovel it back at me.

Once he left the room and I put our little guy to sleep and thought about my actions, I realized I was wrong in what I Did, but wasn't about to tell ol hubby that. I come downstairs and my husband was holding an olive branch. WOW. He did the right thing for me to calm down with him enough that I could admit to him that I didn't handle that situation well, and we proceeded to talk it out.

We co-sleep with our son. He has learned the bad habit of falling asleep next to daddy, then daddy sneak out of the room. I don't like it, the falling asleep part. He needs to learn that he doesnt need us to fall asleep. It's funny, my son, if I put him to sleep, goes down in like 10 minutes. He knows that I don't cater to him as much as daddy. I love that my husband is SO involved. I didn't get that growing up. My dad always had to work or he would find something to work on. It was only later he told me (after I cornered him about my son and his weirdness) he wasn't that comfortable around children. He didn't know what to do. He freaking has 3 kids! But he was a 'traditional' man, and Vietnam kept him away for a bit with my two brothers. I'm the youngest by 8 years.

Anyways. This is why my resolution has 'meditate and relax' as well as doing yoga 2 x a week. My sister in law has seen a HUGE difference in my brother's attitude as well. I would love to get my mom involved. She has HUGE anxiety. She and helderheid should talk to each other. Sounds like you both have a similar issue and if I don't start doing something I am going to exasperate the situation I'm already in. I need to learn from my mom. I have a lot of fears. I sometimes feel like a big bottle of fear and anger. They both seem to feed into each other. We hate what we fear.

I go to the doctors today to get my check up. I take my son up since the husband is at work and everyone has their own doctors appointments. Sigh. It gets me into the carpool lane at least (WHich I don't agree with but I will use it because it's lawful and I don't want to leave 2 hours before my appointment)

Our life used to be up in the Bellevue area, we live now in the South Sound area. My doctor is in Kirkland. A 1.5 hour drive if your doing the average. My husband's job is up there in Redmond. He takes a vanpool. If I get a job, it would be in the same company as him. My old company I loved to work for previously, the job I want to get.

My husband and I sat down and had a serious talk. He is feeling a bit trepidation about me going back to work. I have had this gut feeling too for the last couple days after I started thinking it through. We don't feel good leaving our 3 year old in some daycare, then in Sep2010 in a school for 12 hours. Okay, it would be school then grandparents. But 12 hours a day w/o parents, then come home for a couple hours of play then bed. I don't now if I can do that. I don't know if we can do that. Well, actually we could, but we know our son, he won't adjust to that very well until he is maybe 5.
We are thinking of postponing my job till then. It sucks because I was looking forward to working, but at the same time it doesn't suck because I started getting a bit weepy for homeschooling him. I got a great book yesterday that gave me some great outlines. We are a family of planners. Okay.. I'm a planner.

We planned our child. We took a week at the start of November 05 when I was ovulating and had each night be romantic with candles and all. I wanted that for our child, to be conceived in that type of romance. Then I got pregnant my first try. We told ourselves that someone would be home with our child. We didn't personally want someone else to raise our child. I have nothing against daycare, it just wasn't for us and our emotional state. We co-sleep with our child and love every minute of it. Er almost every minute. We have to make woopie elsewhere now, and just having a kid in our lives makes woopie hard to find.

I enjoy waking up to my child in the morning. I had some very serious health issues as a child, and being German you also put a child in a crib at night and didn't go in till morning. So needless to say, I have some serious abandonment issues to deal with. I put these on my son like any good person. I can't stop thinking if my child cries in the bedroom that he feels like we left him. That is me crying up there for affection and some love. So I break down and make it as gentle as possible for him. I don't do this all the time because I get into the 'this is not good for our child' so I'm not totally consistant, but I have my own issues to work through, but don't want to get to stiff upper lip with my child. I don't know.

I'm feeling pretty anxious about writing such a long post. :P If you read it all, thank you. Even if you skimmed it! I just have a lot to say today.

OH! I can fit into my size 18 jeans enough to wear them to the doctors!

R2P2: Day 21

Weight: 20876 lbs
Loss of: 1 lb today
Total Loss: 16.2 lb

Good Morning Folks,
I'm trying to get my head into the game of life and stop playing Solitare on my Ipod. So it's my lack of connecting that is bothering me, but I get so hermitized for a while.
I do care about others, but sometimes I go through these moods where I am good at connecting and socializing and making meaningful relationship with people. But then I just 'stop' for a period of time and go into my own life and just live. Do what I want to but not connect. I let those I have connected with down and I feel horrible.

I also haven't been reading blogs, and then I get behind and then it starts looking like a mound of work. :P I hate that. I do things for fun, then I get a tiny bit behind or I try to do too much and it becomes work. Like reading. I did it last year. I started to try to read 1 book a week. Then I fell a little ahead and a little behind and I felt like it was work, Read read read. It stopped being a pleasure thing for the heck of it, and it became an assignment, though I did enjoy reading. I got a bit burned out so I only got to read about 26 books last year.

My plan is to read 25 books this year. That is 1 book every 2 weeks. I should allow myself though to fall no lower then 12 books and still feel good.

Some things for 2010 that I would like to see done: (inspired by Autumn Rose)

1. Catch up on work no more then 3 days after I let it slide!

2. Read 25 books (of any sort) this year. 50% at least novels.

3. Relax. Take it easy. Don't let the little things bug me as much. Decrease my Drama Queeness. How? By meditating and going to Yoga 2 x a week.

4. Keep up with Yoga every Tue/Thur.

5. Learn 3 new computer programing languages that would help get me hired again at my old company as a contractor.

6. Get a contract job and put my little one in the Montessori school.

7. Pay down debt. Get rid of 1/2 debt this year. Or at least get my credit card down to 20% debt.

8. Potty Train my kid (any help would be appreciated!) by school start. :)

Okay that is enough for now. I think it's a good list of things I really want to do.

I will try to catch up with stuff sooon! I will really work on it. I've just been lazy, but it's something I feel strongly about because I love connecting and learning from my fellow bloggers!

Be Strong and take care!

Taco Salad

This has become a favorite of mine.

Take 3.5 ground beef
1.5 oz of onions (or as you desire or don't add if you don't mix veggies)
Spices: Mustard, smoked paprika, onion and garlic powder
Serving of Lettuce

I microwave the chopped onions for 2 minutes. I put the ground beef in a pan. I add seasonings and brown the meat. You can use a lot or a little seasoning so I don't like actually listing an amount. It feels a bit arbitrary. How ever your mood hits you.

I chop my lettuce into little bits and put it in a big bowl, then add the browned meat over it.

I put the stove to high, put my pan back on the stove and add several tablespoons of mustard on high heat. Then I add a little water and scrap off the seared on meat and mix the mustard. Makes a little sauce that reduces. I turn off the stove and pour the mixture onto the salad. Mix and enjoy!

Ryan's not so famous Tomato Soup

This is a recipe my husband came up with that we want to put in a future HCG Cookbook. We try to make our own stuff so we can put our own book together.

Take a serving of Tomatoes
3.5 oz of chicken
Vinegar
Mustard
Water
2 tsp garlic powder
1 tsp onion powder
pinch of salt
1 tsp Paprika
(add spice: pinch cayenne pepper.)

So you chop up your tomatoes and brown the chicken. Use the cooking utensil to chop up the chicken as you go. I will sometimes just microwave the chicken for 1 min 30 seconds (or untill your micro makes it done) and remove the chicken.

Pour the tomatoes into the pan (we use a small wok where we cooked the chicken) and fill with water to the top of the tomatoes. Add your spices. You can use more or less then we denoted. We sort of wing it now on our feelings. Sometimes I add oregano to the mix. Bring to a boil. Add chicken. Reduce water to desired thickness of soup. I take my cooking utensil and break up the tomatoes. YOu can put in a blender if you desire not to have any chunks of tomato, or keep cooking at a lower temp till the tomatoes dissolve. I enjoy the chunks.

I sometimes just cook the tomatoes so they are barely dissolved and eat it with the fresh warmed tomatoes. You can do a bunch of things. Add a different meat to it. But this is what we do.

R2P2: Day 20

Weight: 208.6 lbs
Loss of: .4 lbs today
Total Loss: 15.2 lb

Guess I asked for too big of a loss, or I just got the whole loss but didn't sleep enough. Our kid seems to have a cough and bothersome throat so no one was getting much sleep last night until we dosed him with some Tylenol. That seemed to help him sleep, still didn't get a whole lot of sleep though since I wanted some awake quiet time w/ the husband.

Morning everyone! I hope you are all doing well. We went to the Train Festival yesterday with the grandparents, and opa. Oma said behind to get some down time after all the visits she just had. My father has a train collection collecting dust that I hope he will bring out some time soon. He has, I guess, a bigger LBG collection that he said in a couple years he would open up for my son and him to play with. I realized how much I love miniture, and I would love to do scenery.

We are going to take it easy, I'm making the tomato soup for my parents tonight to share with them what I eat and make it easy on my mom since she is doing a bunch of cleaning and then inventory of her business (she makes applique towels). She is the reason I got into sewing at a young age. I just haven't taken the opportunity to expand my skill.

I think I might have my next 'motivation' so I don't have to just 'let it be' LOL. Ya, so much for zen. Though I want to keep the 'oh, look I lost .4 ... groovy.. '
We take a trip to Mexico every year. We get miles from a credit card, a companion pass and then we end up paying 1 full price fare. Not bad at all for the 3 of us. Though my husband just got a job, I can try to make more dice bags and help contribute to the cost. We will see. Wish him luck that he can take a week off while my parents are down there. We get free room and food as long as we eat at the apartment. Last year we split the duty. My mom made lunch (I hate making lunch) and I made dinner (my mom hates cooking at night) so it worked out PERFECTLY! I felt like I was contributing and not leaving my mom to cook. It's her vacation too! I think that is why she has latched onto cruising... she doesn't have to do anything. She gets a true vacation on a cruise! No bed making nor cooking! A true wifes/mothers vacation.

So, I don't care what weight I am at, once I buy the tickets to go to Mexico I am on a serious course of 'no cheating allowed' and then I will take a week off from the protocol in February, or March some time. Let's hope the price is right because we still need to have a surplus of money in our account. I hope to make it work. :) I get a lot of walking down there because I love walking everywhere and taking the public bus.

anywho! My mind is bustling! :)

R2P2: Day 19

Weight: 209 lbs
Loss of: 1.2 lbs today
Total Loss: 14.8 lbs

I made it so far! I have been eating clean today. I did take hcg late, but oh well. And 4:40pm I am finishing off my 1st liter.

We had a lot of fun today. We went to a train festival. My son and father totally LOVED it. I forgot how much I LOVE miniature.

I did cheat yesterday, but it was interesting. It was so filling that I didn't need dinner. I had a piece of well cooked prime rib select and a heaping mound of red cabbage. So I think I did good over all. Even enjoyed an apple at the end of the day.
Oh, and I enjoyed two little pieces of chocolates that were something I always had a child in Germany. They are little chocolate circles with the mini sprinkle balls. My sister in law bought them for me for Xmas. YUM! I had two little ones, then I also tried some of the peanut brittle someone gave my mom. Too sugary for my taste, but good. I love peanut butter. I could eat a peanut butter sandwich every day. My mom made them for my lunches all the time, though it always got squished by the apple, though I guess I wouldn't have it any other way now a days. :) Made the bread all soggy which was good so it wasn't dry. LOL. anywho

Lavendar- you were right! I hit under 210- in fact 209. Lets see if it holds up. So far this round I haven't lost a TON of weight, but I did a LOT of cheat days, and when I ate clean I did lose a bit of weight! I'm really happy, though my resolve is a bit shakier. I will have to find milestones where I can enjoy something naughty!

I go to the doctors on Monday, I am curious what she has to say. I think I did well, I have this support group of bloggers to help me, and I totally don't feel alone in the journey. I have gotten great support from my doctor and also other forums where there is a flow of information. I think we have become experts in our own right about hcg! :)

Take care hcg blogger friends! See you tomorrow and I hope all has gone well for everyone!

R2P2: Day 18

Weight: 210.2 lbs
Loss of: 1.4 lbs today
Total Loss: 13.6 lbs

HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYONE!

I'm happy to see that I am losing well. I love that I am almost out of the 10's. To be 210.2 for 2010 LOL Works for me!

I hope everyone had a safe and wonderful night last night and did what you wanted! I hope that all your cheats or food plans came out succesful!

I'm off to my parents for a nice New Years Dinner. CHEATING! :) My possible last cheat till I hit 180. I want to take a 1 week break then. But I will decide that in 30 freaking lbs!!!! :D I love it. SO CLOSE to the 199 mark! There will be NO cheating when I get THAT close! ;) LOL

anywho. Have a wonderful day! May it not be as dreary as the weather is outside!

R2P2: Day 16

Weight: 213.8 lbs
Loss of: .4 lbs
Total Loss: 10 lbs

Morning folks!

I feel like I am going down again! :) I have one more cheat day I am allowing myself, more maybe a cheat lunch. New Years Day dinner.

It's been harder to stay on task. I won't cheat, but the want for cheating is stronger. :P I had something to motivate me like the cruise to get the weight off.

I've been playing around with the idea of putting my kid into a Montessori school and starting to work again. He could use that interaction with other people with his personality. Currently we are homeschooling, though he is only 3.
I am going to polish up on my skills for the next 3-4 months and learn some new programing/scripting languages to put on the resume, and this gives me enough time to slim down. I would like to be pretty much done with the diet before I apply at work, especially since it's a long commute and I can't run home to get something. It would just be easier for me if I can afford to do it.

I do enjoy spending time with my son, but I miss working and I don't mix well with various mommy groups. I don't also want to be a cab company shuttling my little one from one program to another so he can interact with the outside world. I'm such a hermit I perfer to stay at home, so he doesn't get out much. He is still pretty well mannered when we do go out around other kids surprisingly.

So this is a 1/2 motivator to stick the course. I want that to influence the way I keep clean eating. Other then that I really don't have much emotion when I step on the scale. I have been REALLY focusing on 'can I fit into that coat' ... 'what size shirt can I wear now'
I have been able to get into a size 14/12 at Walmart. I had to buy 1 sweater and 3 slong sleeved shirts. I'M SO COLD! That was enough to make me feel good for a good week. :D

okay, Never step away from the computer before plushing your post. You forget what you were saying after a couple hours. :P

R2P2: Day 15

Weight: 214.2 lbs
Loss of: ? lbs
Total Loss: 9.6 lbs

So I haven't posted in a couple days. So I went to Seattle with my family and we ate at the Space Needle. Much better then I heard it was from a long time ago review, but helderheid got my hopes up, and delivered.

I had the chicken. It was very good. The sauce. OMG! Ya, I deserved the 1.4 gain I got from that! I'm not upset about any gain I am getting right now because I am er, um... cheating of course! :)

I am doing 'clean' days as much as possible. I think we will have 1 more cheat day coming up on New Years Day! My parents make a special dinner so I will participate in that. So then in January we will be a month of clean eating! :)

Oh, I can see my neck stuff. The stuff that shows on thin people but hides when you have too much fat around the neck and makes it look like a tube, not a series of cords. :) heh. I am LOVING that part!


I hope everyone had a great Winter Holiday Season and got to do what they wished for. Spending time with the family has been a great wish of mine so it was wonderful that both my brothers have been able to come out. Maybe not right at the same time, but that seems to be fine because I can have close time with both sets.



Take care!

R2P2: Day 12

Weight: 213.6 lbs
Loss of: .6 lbs
Total Loss: 10.2 lbs

Morning!
My brother is here for Christmas and we had fun. It's been nice to talk to them. I really get along with his wife and his kids really get along with my kid. :) I love how they play together.

I had 2 official 100% cheat days. No weighing and no 'on protocol' foods.

I had for xmas lunch at my mother in laws: Tomatoes with some of that cream cheese/basil/tomato spread (about a tsp), 2 half cookies- homemade. They were also very small, but satisfying. I decided why not, I normally don't try stuff, and some smoked salmon 1x1 inch square.

Then for dinner I had my traditional foods: a Wiener, a deviled egg, red cabbage, a spoonful of potato salad (home made) and the big spender: A small slice of bread (multi grain loaf of hard bread) w/ a thin layer of butter and a bit of bri cheese. MMMMMM.


Yesterday for Christmas Day Dinner/Lunch I had:
Roast
Red cabbage
Cabbage salad
Lingenberry sauce

and then we had a small 'dinner' afterwards
Small slice of bread w/ tbl bri
Slice roast


I even allowed an apple at the end of each day. A full apple. mmmmmm. I didn't get as much water in Christmas Eve but I did push myself yesterday. I got in almost 3 liters. :)

Today is going to be a 'clean' day of eating on protocol. Then I plan to go to Seattle with my family tomorrow. That will be another cheat day. I think where ever we go for lunch we can eat clean enough, but my brother has reservations at the Space Needle for dinner. I think I will have some crab cakes and salad. :)

I hope everyone has had a great Holiday Season. We are not done yet, but so far so good! :) I wish everyone a great stablization, a great loss or not so big of gain!

I am waiting for my scale to go UP! :P

R2P2: Day 8

Weight: 214.2 lbs
Loss of: .4 lbs
Total Loss: 9.6 lbs

Low loss. But I feel thinner. :) Went through my closet to shed out some of the clothes that always made me feel fat, or I wore all the time when I was fatter.

I just need to release those outfits just as much as the fat! I love saying "When I get thin", and not " "if" I get thin"

My father offered to buy me a dress. I told him that he didn't need to, maybe buy it next year for Xmas, or Birthday, but not to motivate me. I am not motivated, I just am doing it. :)

Yesterday I almost cheated, I saw my husband sit next to me with my favorite cheese. AND the butthead had to say "Oh, you never ate any when you were loading" I could have killed him. :P I told him one bite shouldn't hurt. He didn't believe me and snatched up the piece and ate it. So I'm okay.

Well, hope you have enough time today to finish any last things! Happy Holidays!

R2P2: Day 7

Weight: 214.6 lbs
Loss of: 1.2 lbs
Total Loss: 9.2 lbs


Wow. I just saw I lost 1.2. I had buffalow burger w/ onions on a bed of lettuce then chicken with tomatoes at night.

I also ate stuff late. It's been REALLY nice to have MY schedule then my mom's schedule. heh. I don't worry about going to work out with her in the mornings. I am going to yoga twice a week if I can before the hubby comes home from work. It will be a nice break up to the day. We go to bed so late, and so hubby and kid can spend time together. I like it. Then I get to sleep in.

When I Was growing up I baby sat my brother's kids from time to time and they woke up like at 5-7am. :P I thought all kids did this. I thought that was the kids internal clock. I dreaded that part of parent hood, to my surprise, kids will sleep in if they go to bed later, and they don't seem to suffer any negative effects, he does get his sleep! I'm very relaxed about it. I feel kids shouldn't be woken up, they should wake up naturally.

also- with the protocol. I'm going to be happy of course if I lose weight, but this time I want to reprogram my brain to just accept it as a number to record for my log. It's going to be a number I will use to correct if things go bad, but as long as I am sticking to protocol, even any gain is going to be in the helpful department. Like I said, I'm going to be more relaxed about the weight drop. I'm going to take a 1 week break around 180. I am going to let my doctor know that I would like this as a mini goal. Then from 180-130 will be the 3rd and final round. If I get below that it's all good. :) I just want to see what my thighs feel like when they are not squished together, I want to be able to say "Honey I wear a size 6" and he gets me a size 6 and it fits!

I want to take a pillow case and make it into a dress!
I want to be able to use this woman's website for real! :P heh.

I'm moving slowly into uncharted terrority, or rather, long forgotten territory. I remember myself being around the 220 range or way above for the last 10 years. I did dip into the 190's at the start for a bit, but then just went up. So this body is like meeting a long forgotten friend.

I am also excited because one of my brother's will see me tomorrow and it will be 'surprise' :) Then on the 28th I will see another brother and sis in law who don't know what I am doing (though my dad did say weight loss, but I dont' think he said how much) and "SURPRISE!" again.

Then I will start to post updated pictures of me on Facebook. :)

I have gotten several compliments from my christmas picture too! My doctor said that both my husband and I are looking much healthier (she has our last 4 pictures) and my aunt and cousin in Germany both agree that I am looking prettier. I was always said to have a 'pretty face' and it's a shame I let the fat catch on. But they have always loved me regardless.

It's intersting. I think it was Mary or Christy's blog that mentioned something about the iky of fat. Sorry if it was neither of you. But anyways. I am starting to see people in a different light. I see all these thin people out there 'entangled' in their fat. I don't see fat people. I just see a bunch of thin people trapped in the fat suit. The fat is seperating from the people and making me grossed out. I look at old pictures and I go "HOW COULD I let myself go"???? How is it that I couldn't have woken up one day and Said "ENOUGH"... oh wait. I did. And then I joined a gym, stopped eating or went on the next best diet plan just to gain 30 more lbs after I stopped because it wasn't working well, or got harder and harder, not easier.

I WISH that HCG would become such an accepted form of Diet and that everyone in the world was given a bottle to either share with friends or use for themselves. We don't have to suffer. I am sorry, but I think people who are 300 or more lbs do suffer, they are not 'fat beauties!" Yes, love yourself, but that doesn't mean you have to love the fat. You can love or hate a shirt, so you can love or hate your fat, and it doesn't mean it's you. I have said before, I have seen my fat as the abuse I put on myself. I will not lose health if I lose fat, really the opposite. So it's obviously not something I HAVE to live with. I love that people see me thinner, and want to try the hcg. It's a wild fire! I love it! I want to see people become healthier and do it right. I just want people to do it right!

Heh. I have a friend who has had the stomach surgery who is going on hcg, and she said that her doctor told her that it will fail, she will be unhappy and will come back to him for the next 15k surgery! :P POOP on HIM! First- don't be so hurtful to your patience, and I would never have my friend do something that would hurt her. In fact, I think she will be 100000x's more happy with hcg. She has sagging skin that she will have to go get ANOTHER surgery for. :P poop! Hcg, you can drop 300 lbs and still not have tremendous sagging skin! anywho.

I'm soup, no soap boxing now. :P So I will let your eyes rest! :) take care, and we are so much close to the eve of christmas! Hope it's a merry one for all. See you tomrrow!

question: Why no mixing of veggies?

Why do you think that the good Dr. has said 'No Mixing' of veggies?

I sometimes like to mix veggies like today: Buffalo burger with some (2oz) of onions mixed in and wrapped in like 2oz of lettuce.

Do you think this will hurt me. No, but why did the doctor say "no mixing' for the most part?

I see people mix lettuce around, but I don't see that in the manual. If you see it, let me know what page.

R2P2: Day 6

Weight: 215.8 lbs
Loss of: .4 lbs
Total Loss: 8 lbs

I asked for 8 lbs in the week, and my body gave me NO more. :P LOL at least I got it right.

I stayed up WAY to late last night but had LOTS of fun playing with friends online. I missed playing with these people and it got me to stay up way too late. But fun.

Like I said earlier, I'm going to take it a bit easy this round, as in not worry what the scale gives me, stay on protocol, include lean steak to get a variety. I know that steak gives me lower results, but at the same time it mixes the food up and I enjoy it more. It got sort of tiring of just eating chicken, but since I had a goal, I really didn't care.

I think I am going to throw another goal. I already mentioned it, I wonder what my doctor things. I hit 180 and I get a 1 week break. :) I'm feeling pretty thin, though I know I am still fat. The pictures just don't give me the feeling I feel. I'm like.. my butt isn't that big is it? My mirror upstairs is being kind to me. When you lose a lot of weight you realize how much thinner you are and you get into that happy mind set. Then you see a picture and your like 'still have a ways to go'

Happy Solstice to those who celebrate! :) Have a wonderful day sliding and maintaining. Thanks for all the warm and wonderful comments! :)

Wow, this week is also Xmas! I'm almost done with all the gifts I need to get. I still need to do some things to be totally ready for Xmas Eve.

R2P2: Day 6

Weight: 216.2 lbs
Loss of: .8 lbs
Total Loss: 7.6 lbs

MOrning! I hope all are doing well.

I'm dropping and I'm going to take what comes this round. I thought it would be interesting to put up a little goal for myself. I can take a 1 week break when I hit the 180 range. Gives me something to look forward to. Then I can replenish my body with stuff and go on a serious Vitamin D binge. My mother in law found out from her natural doctor that Vitamin D can help fight against the Swine Flu. Vitamin D is a super vitamin right now and I am totally too low, but higher then I was before!

I got a size 12/14 shirt and size 18 pants from Walmart yesterday (can't spend money on clothes, but it was cheep enough) I'm feeling more and more normal! :) I can't wait to get into size 14. Only 2 sizes to go. I can just fit into those 18's and DON'T ask me to sit down. :) LOL.

We put on the tree lights. I need to get into the Holiday Spirit. I forgot, but my other friend reminded me tomorrow is Winter Solstice. I need to think how I will celebrate with the family. I want my son to fell the Holiday Spirit when he can. As he gets older I hope I will do a better job. We plan on home schooling him so he won't have it from school. But as I hear, they are scrubbing that stuff from public school anyways. So much for 'tolerance' The last I heard, tolerance was putting up with, embracing, not cutting it out.

I ate steak last night. I am going to include steak back into this round. I miss it. I want more verity in the stuff we are allowed. heh. So I take a lower loss, but you know what, I need to be happy with the food I am allowed.

anywho. I'm going to find me a 1/2 grapefruit. :) Enjoy the day! It's 4th Advent today isn't it? I need to call my mom. She celebrates the Advents. :)

R2P2: Day 5

Weight: 217 lbs
Loss of: .6 lbs
Total Loss: 6.8 lbs

There begins my low losses. THough .6 is respectable if I get that daily. :) I did only drink 2 liters of water. I DO NO MORE then 4liters because that is 1/2 my body weight in oz. No more. Um, I just did the calculations. I should drink a little more then 3. Okay. :) heh. I don't want to do more then 1/2 my body weight because I also want to make sure I keep electrolytes in order.

Thanks for all your supportive words!! Spending the day with the husband. Finished up most of my Xmas shopping. I have some gift cards for those coming by Airplanes, or small sized gifts that I still need to get, but then I am done. :) yeay! Done!

I do not suggest going on a cruise right before Xmas, it really throws you off. And you can't go to any cold destinations right now. You might as well stay home, unless of course you come from sun! :P I just can't get into the Xmas season yet. :( Next year lets all just go cruise with our loved ones as a xmas thing! :) Cha Cha Cha! I would love to be in sun. I used to love dreary, I used to love Rain, now I'm just plain cold. I hate being cold all the time. I put on stuff to make me warm but I am just COLD! :P


anywho! Take care all! KEep warm!

R2P2: Day 4

Weight: 217.6 lbs
Loss of: 2 lbs
Total Loss: 6.2 lbs

Morning. I'm feeling pretty good. I have had a bit harder resolve this time but I won't cheat. I promised myself I wouldn't. I just realized how much I want more food.

I am VERY happy with the loss that I have gotten. It's nice to be below my R1 LDWeight by the 3rd day. Who would have thunk that a week of enjoying food would only take 3 days to get it off. I was scared I would have slowed down to .6 by now. :P

I've been behind on many things. My husband just went back to work and so I am adjusting to that, spending time doing things with my son so I haven't been an internet hog. I have been playing solitare in my bathtub instead of updating myself on blogs. I've wanted to just veg out and not process information. :P I'm starting to not feel so tired.

We are going to bed late but then we sleep in later and then the husband doesn't take so long to get home. LOL. Perspective.
I am going to look into sleeping in late, but then going to work out late too. I hate mornings and I hate waking up so early. I rather stay up with my husband late then wake up early w/o my husband. makes the Day longer! :P It's hard because I have parents that love to wake up early. Oh well. I'm not living w/ my parents! :P

My hunger has been spectacularly low once I mixed up the new hcg drops. I had some old stuff, and it wasn't as potent. Now I feel full. I eat 1/2 an apple and I feel full. :) YEAY! Loading properly and eating your 500 calories does help!

I have a winter jacket that is a Large size and I still feel a bit tight in it. I can zip it up if I breath in, so that is my item of clothes I will use as my 'am I getting physically smaller?" mark. I have out grown... under grown? I've gotten too small for the other clothes that I was trying to get into. Now they can be given away. LOL. Nice.

okay. Off to do some stuff. I want to clean the kitchen and most of downstairs, and now I plan to start reading again. I, in January, had decided to read 1 book per week. Didn't make it, but have read 26 books this year. Sigh. My goal for next year is to read 25 books as well. That is about 1 book every 2 weeks. If I do read mroe books per week I will just go over my goal. Or simply have more weeks for another book or not read. I miss sitting and reading while my son plays around me. :) I couldn't do it realistically when the husband was home. LOL. I wanted to spend time w/ him because I knew he would eventually be back at work. :)

anywho. Happy trails folks. I will be reading your posts soon enough. I really apologize for not getting caught up this week. I really feel like we have become a family and I like that. I love hearing what you guys are doing and have to say, it makes me internalize what I am doing, like going to Resturants and their evil ways!

R2P2: Day 3

Weight: 219.6 lbs
Loss of: 2.6lbs
Total Loss: 4.2 lbs


That's more like it! :) I know that over a lb is nice, but for a 'after load vlcd' day I want more like 3 lbs off right away!! I didn't want to be screwed up with extra lbs if I didn't need to load, though it felt good to eat. I miss eating whatever I want.


I'm having a mentally hard time, but today, honestly waking up to the bigger loss made me happy. Gave me real resolve for today.

I had the food dreams: I ate real buttery popcorn. mmmmmm. And of course I was like "oh no, what if I eat this, I won't lose" :P Why couldn't I just be in dream land and enjoy the popcorn I never got on loading. :P

I got new hcg and it tastes much better, and I think that caused a low weight loss- old hcg. I know that stuff can last, but it also doesn't last forever, or that long really. anyways. I got new stuff and am using that now.

I do not miss the drinking of a ton of water. On the cruise I drank a lot, always finding a bathroom, but I think I got 1-2 liters of water in. Now I am aiming for 4 liters. Much more. :P

Mexico Trip

Cruise Pictures


I haven't labeled all the pictures with captions, but you can still enjoy! :)

We did have a lot of fun! :)

R2P2: Day 2

Weight: 222.2 lbs
Loss of: 1.6lbs
Total Loss: 1.6 lbs


Hrmph. I was expecting more honestly. Does anyone know if loading was not a good idea after a week. My doctor adviced me to do so. I wanted more loss. Honestly the hcg doesn't taste as fresh either, so I wonder if the hcg is fairly weak, though I do not feel horribly hungry, so it has to be working.

Any clue for the weak loss?

Over all I'm ok. I'm just tired right now. Yeay, Winter in Washington!

R2P2: Day 1

Weight: 223.8 lbs
Loss of: Starting
Total Loss: 0 lbs

I took 1 week off, but I'm going to call this Round 2 anyways.

I gained about 5-6 lbs for this loading, I think I done good. I hope. I had the most horrid gall bladder attack yesteday night right as it was ready for bed. My hubby drove to the store at midnight to get me lemon juice, but it didn't really help. :(
I had 2 sandwhiches which might have been the problem. THANK GOODNESS I didn't have this on the cruise, but I also wasn't pigging out!

I'm tired today. I've been pretty tired since I got off the boat. heh. I am in the middle of TOM. I also went to my doctor yesterday. She told me to enjoy myself through the holidays where I want to, and that we will stay on target when we can. I see her after the Christmas Holidays.

I felt a little jipped yesterday. I still wanted to eat some things to get it out of my system, but today is VLCD day! I am looking forward to seeing a drop. I'm curious how the drop will be, if I lose .5 average it will take me over a month to get to 200, and I was hoping to be there by the end of the year. BUt that is like 23 lbs worth of weight, but I was thinking, much of that should come off at the start right? sigh. I hope.

I'm in a weird mood. I don't want to be on protocol right now but I do. I want to lose the weight, fit into size 14 pants asap and feel more 'normal' in the realms of bigness. I lost over 60 lbs and I am still fat. People still see a fat girl who should do something. :P Does that make sense?

I want the weight to be gone, and I love this protocol. I just need to rev the engine and get my butt in gear. I will do this, I will be dedicated and I will make it. I'm just right now sort of 'bleh' because I do enjoy eating, I enjoy eating on my time table and not thinking about food. I just go make something when I am hungry. Sigh. I have no limited food I can eat, and that always gets me a little uptight for a bit. But the weight coming off will become my motivator, and reading all your blogs will help me too. We are all in this together!! :)

Take care all!

R2: Loading Day 1

Hello All,

I'm back from my trip. I still feel like I am on the boat. It was SO nice to see the child and husband again! I went with my parents and it was very nice. I stuck to p3 most of the week, then tapered off by the end of the week. Amazing food and I got to read Christy in Seattles' post about restaurant food. If I wasn't loading by the end of the week I think it would have been too hard to find 'good' things over all. Everything was so yummy, but I bet it wasn't so healthy.

I also got used to going to bed by 9:30pm and waking up at 7am to rush upstairs to weigh. Don't try to weigh yourself on a ship. It's dumb. I did because of doctors orders. One day the ship was swaying enough that I couldn't get a reading at all. The little needle on the kg scale kept going 10 kg in each direction at least depending on which way the boat leaned. LOL.

My parents have the pictures and yes, it's 6:54am here so you will have to wait. I just wanted to reach out to everywone. I missed you guys so much!!

Well. I got on the scale this early morning and it said 222.2, last night it was 221.4. Sigh. I am starting to pre-load. I also didn't get in much water, I was on the plane, or waiting to leave the ship. Last thing I wanted was to have to run to the bathroom every 3 seconds. I will do better today! I did okay on the ship w/ water. Though room service sucked. I called for water every day and it took over an hour to get us a thing of water, and by then we wanted to leave the room or go to sleep. Sigh.

I am going to be a bit behind on other people's posts, I was able to catch up on 1 or two of some of your blogs!! It's good to be back. I hope to stuff myself some more to get totally sick of food!! :D Wish me luck! THis time I am doing it right! Last time I didn't do it so right I think. I have a list this time! :)

anywho. Take care everyone!

R1P3: Day 2

Weight: 216.8 lbs
Last Drop Weight: 218.4
Loss of: Gain .4
Above/Below LDW: -1.6

Well, this should be my last post for a while, unless I lick more cows. ;) Sorry Autumn, I couldn't resist. You made me laugh equally as hard when I read your comment!

I am outta here, wish me luck with keeping my weight down! I go up to the airport area today, I stay over night at the airport (hotel) so that for a morning flight I am not fighting traffic! :) Works well. You can also sleep in a little longer.

I ate:
Breakfast: 1 mushroom, sausage omelet with cheese

Lunch: Cauliflower Pizza (amazing) with 2 tomatoes cooked,reduced. Fresh tomatoes, cheese and chicken

Dinner: Taco salad: Lettuce, ground beef, hot sauce, cheese

Snack: Apple with 3 teaspoons peanut butter (no sugar), and 2 slices of cheese, It might have been 3. hmmm.

Small gain. I'll take it. I do like this bit of leaway going onto a feeding machine. Er Cruise. I do plan on working out. We will see if that happens. :P Heh. I do plan to walk a lot though. That should help!

Oh, I will take a LOT of pictures and some video as well!! :) I will share when I get back!

Bon Voyage! Have wonderful time stabilizing and maintaining, or sliding! Much luck to you all!

quick update - milk

OMG!! I tried some more milk! NASTY! Tastes like I licked the cow first! :P blech.

R1P3: Day 1

Weight: 216.4 lbs
Last Drop Weight: 218.4
Loss of: 1
Total Loss: 67.4 lbs

Morning!!! It's cold outside. We got frost all over the place. It's beginning to look a lot like winter! :)

I feel so much better, but scared out of my mind to each anything with fat. LOL. I am going to try a sausage omelet this morning!

I am 2 lbs below my LDW (last drop weight) and I won't do a steak day. This honestly gives me a little lea way to figure out how to eat. I'm happy this is happening this way, though I know it has to be at the expense of structural fat. It will come back. :) Trust me! :) I couldn't eat much last night.

I had:
Omelet w/ mushrooms and 1 ounce of cheese
Small swig of milk (I swear I tasted the farm it came from, :P)

Lunch:
Chicken and broccoli w/ a small spoon of sour cream

SICK- got rid of most of lunch

Dinner: Tomato and ground beef

Snack- 2 slices of apple (Put slice of cheese back in fridge)


Today I hope for better. It does get better right? I won't be like this? Reading the hcg board I see that someone had posted if you do get extreme pain like that it's an alergy to some food. I dont' know. I think it's the prolonged withdraw of this food. Plain and simple at this point, though I say to all: Be careful adding stuff back and don't do a round more then 45 days! Take a probotic if you can! Ease into it. That pain is not worth a long round! :P

I hope I can finish resewing my brown linen pants today. Was going to do that yesterday. But ya. Today I finish packing and get my clothes nailed down. Wish me luck!

update - Tummy distress

lavenderdiva said it so well!! When going into p3 after having no fat for AGES you will feel the burn! The pain, the agony!

I sent for a jolly walk today and felt all of a sudden stomach pain! My gall bladder was screaming at me "WHAT THE HELL!?!?!" and then my stomach followed with "oh no, what is this, we haven't seen this in 110 days!!" and it was like 2 oz of cheese and 1 tablespoon of sour cream. I don't concider that a LOT. :P But my stomach did! OH GOSH!

I threw up lunch a couple times. I did find some releif in the bathtub w/ hot water.

So I took a probotic after I felt human again. I do feel a little better again, but I think p2 sounds just fine to me now! :) hehe.

My plan: I have about 90-80 more lbs to lose. Either I will take probotics on the diet, or I will take mini breaks after every 40 days to re acclimate my body. I suggest others do the same!! Doing long rounds might not be a happy option. I was so looking forward to the peanutbutter coconut bark I made this early afternoon to eat tonight!! Thank you Autumn's Rose for the recipe. I forgot you can add peanut butter mmmmm.

I was going to make a cauliflower pizza tonight. Forget it. I ate some apple sauce unsweetend kind and letting the husband make me a p2 chili! At least it won't be measured. That's the tipping point into p3 for me! :P

Take care all!

R1P2: T Minus 11 hours

Weight: 217.4 lbs
Loss of: .8
Total Loss: 66.4 lbs

Okay, I lost .8 last night. I know that I will go down a tiny bit if I do good. But I am starting to go for the p3 stuff already. I sort of mentally stuck myself to 48 hours and then slowly do the p3 stuff. Having an omelet today. Bad me, but you know what. I can't wait and I am STARVING!

I will do p2 mostly today w/ some p3 stuff included on a very low scale. I had an ounce of cheese last night and still lost. That was our little test to see if I am done. BING!

Yesterday I resewed my size 24 pants to fit me. Creame colored linen pants that I just love. They look good for a beginner hemmer! :) I am doing my brown ones today. So I will have 3 comfortable pants total in a Mexican cruise. YEAY!

I'm just moving forward with getting into p3. I'm scared but not. I don't want to balloon to 10 lbs more, but then you ask why am I playing w/ fire today. :P because.

Do people find that exercise helps correct any p3 mistakes? I am thinking about the cruise. I will be very active, and plan to do an 8am class every morning when at sea. I will be good on the cruise, but come on.. a cruise. you can only be so good! :P I won't over eat and I won't cheat where I know. I can't be too careful w/ stuff because then I end up eating nothing only because everything could be tainted with sugar. I will let my waiter know it's not okay for me to have sugar. Not even artificial stuff.

anyways. Off to eat some breakfast. My egg w/ mushrooms and onions! :) mmmmmm.

R1P2: T Minus 36 hours

Weight: 218.2 lbs
Loss of: .2
Total Loss: 65.6 lbs

Woke up to 219, went back to bed for a while. I woke up way too early on my own, was very sleepy still. So I laid down for a bit and woke up to 218.2. I feel like such a cheater.

I did good yesterday, but I didn't get my 4liters in though. I was short 1 liter. I didn't think it was going to effect me as much. Oh well. I was hoping for a bigger loss.

So HELP! I calculate my 'last weigh in' which would be: 9pm took hcg, went to bed. Woke up, weighed in at 218.4 right? That is my stamp?

Then I can't eat anything untill 9pm Wednesday Night? I will most likely introduce an ounce of cheese or nonsugar peanut butter w/ my apples then. :)

I plan not to measure everything and do a Nikki. ;) What is a Nikki- Calm and collected. LIstening to our bodies to do the right thing! :) Sorry Nikki I am so impressed with how you managed well listening to your body. I think I would drive myself crazy trying to get in the right calories. Plus every website has a different calculation.

About.com site: You need 2182.9 calories per day w/o exercise.
ahealthyme.com: You need 2,445 calories to maintain your current weight
active.com: You need 2223 calories.

So I guess they are not all over the board but still, they don't all use the same calculator. Wasn't it Christy who said, through the body bugg, that if you simply get an extra 100 calories a day, that can mean an extra pound a week or month?


My over all goal actually is not stuff my face, but to eat untill almost full. To eat slowly and take it one step at a time. That is my fat problem. I got fat not because I ate McDonalds or something, but because I would make meals for my husband and me, and if I made too much I didn't put 1/2 of it away, I wanted to clean our pot so I would take the food and split it into 2 parts. Eat up! I would take a WHOLE steak from the packaging and cut it in 1/2 for both of us to enjoy, then maybe a side of onions and a potato. My favorite meal. After I went on the diet I realized I ate 3 to 4 x's the amount of meat I should have. I had bad eating habits. I would eat so many carbs, maybe 1 to 2 proteins a week, and rarely a veggie would touch my plate, Funny thing- I LOVE veggies. I loved eating at my parents because my mom would serve 3 types of veggies. I just had a hard time making them, and they would rot in the fridge and I hated wasting money.

So my plan: To make sure to eat 1 to 2 veggie serving, 1 protein (4-6 oz?) serving per meal. No starch right now, but I want to have that as the smallest serving when I do include it. I need to find how much meat is a serving. Isn't it 4-6 oz per serving? OH. I will eat 100g of protein. Double what I am doing now.

anywho. PLEASE, ifyou have any more p3 tips let me know! I Wanna hear them all. Links are perfectly fine too!

btw: Lavendar- I go on my cruise at the end of the week. I'm not going w/ the family so I get a mini-vacation from them. I love them yes, but it's nice to get a little break. heh. A woman's week off. I don't get those. It's a gift from my parents. I go to Mexico. What is awesome is that one stop is in Mazaltan and our friends are down there that my father got to know like 10 years ago. We love them dearly. They help me improve my Spanish (they are a Mexican family, not a relocated American family) and I have learned so much about the Mexican Culture through them. Better then any history channel. I feel more in touch with mexico. I would rather go to Mexico then Canada any day if I had to 'leave the USA' hehe. :P

anywho