Wednesday, December 30, 2009

R2P2: Day 16

Weight: 213.8 lbs
Loss of: .4 lbs
Total Loss: 10 lbs

Morning folks!

I feel like I am going down again! :) I have one more cheat day I am allowing myself, more maybe a cheat lunch. New Years Day dinner.

It's been harder to stay on task. I won't cheat, but the want for cheating is stronger. :P I had something to motivate me like the cruise to get the weight off.

I've been playing around with the idea of putting my kid into a Montessori school and starting to work again. He could use that interaction with other people with his personality. Currently we are homeschooling, though he is only 3.
I am going to polish up on my skills for the next 3-4 months and learn some new programing/scripting languages to put on the resume, and this gives me enough time to slim down. I would like to be pretty much done with the diet before I apply at work, especially since it's a long commute and I can't run home to get something. It would just be easier for me if I can afford to do it.

I do enjoy spending time with my son, but I miss working and I don't mix well with various mommy groups. I don't also want to be a cab company shuttling my little one from one program to another so he can interact with the outside world. I'm such a hermit I perfer to stay at home, so he doesn't get out much. He is still pretty well mannered when we do go out around other kids surprisingly.

So this is a 1/2 motivator to stick the course. I want that to influence the way I keep clean eating. Other then that I really don't have much emotion when I step on the scale. I have been REALLY focusing on 'can I fit into that coat' ... 'what size shirt can I wear now'
I have been able to get into a size 14/12 at Walmart. I had to buy 1 sweater and 3 slong sleeved shirts. I'M SO COLD! That was enough to make me feel good for a good week. :D

okay, Never step away from the computer before plushing your post. You forget what you were saying after a couple hours. :P

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

R2P2: Day 15

Weight: 214.2 lbs
Loss of: ? lbs
Total Loss: 9.6 lbs

So I haven't posted in a couple days. So I went to Seattle with my family and we ate at the Space Needle. Much better then I heard it was from a long time ago review, but helderheid got my hopes up, and delivered.

I had the chicken. It was very good. The sauce. OMG! Ya, I deserved the 1.4 gain I got from that! I'm not upset about any gain I am getting right now because I am er, um... cheating of course! :)

I am doing 'clean' days as much as possible. I think we will have 1 more cheat day coming up on New Years Day! My parents make a special dinner so I will participate in that. So then in January we will be a month of clean eating! :)

Oh, I can see my neck stuff. The stuff that shows on thin people but hides when you have too much fat around the neck and makes it look like a tube, not a series of cords. :) heh. I am LOVING that part!

I hope everyone had a great Winter Holiday Season and got to do what they wished for. Spending time with the family has been a great wish of mine so it was wonderful that both my brothers have been able to come out. Maybe not right at the same time, but that seems to be fine because I can have close time with both sets.

Take care!

Saturday, December 26, 2009

R2P2: Day 12

Weight: 213.6 lbs
Loss of: .6 lbs
Total Loss: 10.2 lbs

My brother is here for Christmas and we had fun. It's been nice to talk to them. I really get along with his wife and his kids really get along with my kid. :) I love how they play together.

I had 2 official 100% cheat days. No weighing and no 'on protocol' foods.

I had for xmas lunch at my mother in laws: Tomatoes with some of that cream cheese/basil/tomato spread (about a tsp), 2 half cookies- homemade. They were also very small, but satisfying. I decided why not, I normally don't try stuff, and some smoked salmon 1x1 inch square.

Then for dinner I had my traditional foods: a Wiener, a deviled egg, red cabbage, a spoonful of potato salad (home made) and the big spender: A small slice of bread (multi grain loaf of hard bread) w/ a thin layer of butter and a bit of bri cheese. MMMMMM.

Yesterday for Christmas Day Dinner/Lunch I had:
Red cabbage
Cabbage salad
Lingenberry sauce

and then we had a small 'dinner' afterwards
Small slice of bread w/ tbl bri
Slice roast

I even allowed an apple at the end of each day. A full apple. mmmmmm. I didn't get as much water in Christmas Eve but I did push myself yesterday. I got in almost 3 liters. :)

Today is going to be a 'clean' day of eating on protocol. Then I plan to go to Seattle with my family tomorrow. That will be another cheat day. I think where ever we go for lunch we can eat clean enough, but my brother has reservations at the Space Needle for dinner. I think I will have some crab cakes and salad. :)

I hope everyone has had a great Holiday Season. We are not done yet, but so far so good! :) I wish everyone a great stablization, a great loss or not so big of gain!

I am waiting for my scale to go UP! :P

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

R2P2: Day 8

Weight: 214.2 lbs
Loss of: .4 lbs
Total Loss: 9.6 lbs

Low loss. But I feel thinner. :) Went through my closet to shed out some of the clothes that always made me feel fat, or I wore all the time when I was fatter.

I just need to release those outfits just as much as the fat! I love saying "When I get thin", and not " "if" I get thin"

My father offered to buy me a dress. I told him that he didn't need to, maybe buy it next year for Xmas, or Birthday, but not to motivate me. I am not motivated, I just am doing it. :)

Yesterday I almost cheated, I saw my husband sit next to me with my favorite cheese. AND the butthead had to say "Oh, you never ate any when you were loading" I could have killed him. :P I told him one bite shouldn't hurt. He didn't believe me and snatched up the piece and ate it. So I'm okay.

Well, hope you have enough time today to finish any last things! Happy Holidays!

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

R2P2: Day 7

Weight: 214.6 lbs
Loss of: 1.2 lbs
Total Loss: 9.2 lbs

Wow. I just saw I lost 1.2. I had buffalow burger w/ onions on a bed of lettuce then chicken with tomatoes at night.

I also ate stuff late. It's been REALLY nice to have MY schedule then my mom's schedule. heh. I don't worry about going to work out with her in the mornings. I am going to yoga twice a week if I can before the hubby comes home from work. It will be a nice break up to the day. We go to bed so late, and so hubby and kid can spend time together. I like it. Then I get to sleep in.

When I Was growing up I baby sat my brother's kids from time to time and they woke up like at 5-7am. :P I thought all kids did this. I thought that was the kids internal clock. I dreaded that part of parent hood, to my surprise, kids will sleep in if they go to bed later, and they don't seem to suffer any negative effects, he does get his sleep! I'm very relaxed about it. I feel kids shouldn't be woken up, they should wake up naturally.

also- with the protocol. I'm going to be happy of course if I lose weight, but this time I want to reprogram my brain to just accept it as a number to record for my log. It's going to be a number I will use to correct if things go bad, but as long as I am sticking to protocol, even any gain is going to be in the helpful department. Like I said, I'm going to be more relaxed about the weight drop. I'm going to take a 1 week break around 180. I am going to let my doctor know that I would like this as a mini goal. Then from 180-130 will be the 3rd and final round. If I get below that it's all good. :) I just want to see what my thighs feel like when they are not squished together, I want to be able to say "Honey I wear a size 6" and he gets me a size 6 and it fits!

I want to take a pillow case and make it into a dress!
I want to be able to use this woman's website for real! :P heh.

I'm moving slowly into uncharted terrority, or rather, long forgotten territory. I remember myself being around the 220 range or way above for the last 10 years. I did dip into the 190's at the start for a bit, but then just went up. So this body is like meeting a long forgotten friend.

I am also excited because one of my brother's will see me tomorrow and it will be 'surprise' :) Then on the 28th I will see another brother and sis in law who don't know what I am doing (though my dad did say weight loss, but I dont' think he said how much) and "SURPRISE!" again.

Then I will start to post updated pictures of me on Facebook. :)

I have gotten several compliments from my christmas picture too! My doctor said that both my husband and I are looking much healthier (she has our last 4 pictures) and my aunt and cousin in Germany both agree that I am looking prettier. I was always said to have a 'pretty face' and it's a shame I let the fat catch on. But they have always loved me regardless.

It's intersting. I think it was Mary or Christy's blog that mentioned something about the iky of fat. Sorry if it was neither of you. But anyways. I am starting to see people in a different light. I see all these thin people out there 'entangled' in their fat. I don't see fat people. I just see a bunch of thin people trapped in the fat suit. The fat is seperating from the people and making me grossed out. I look at old pictures and I go "HOW COULD I let myself go"???? How is it that I couldn't have woken up one day and Said "ENOUGH"... oh wait. I did. And then I joined a gym, stopped eating or went on the next best diet plan just to gain 30 more lbs after I stopped because it wasn't working well, or got harder and harder, not easier.

I WISH that HCG would become such an accepted form of Diet and that everyone in the world was given a bottle to either share with friends or use for themselves. We don't have to suffer. I am sorry, but I think people who are 300 or more lbs do suffer, they are not 'fat beauties!" Yes, love yourself, but that doesn't mean you have to love the fat. You can love or hate a shirt, so you can love or hate your fat, and it doesn't mean it's you. I have said before, I have seen my fat as the abuse I put on myself. I will not lose health if I lose fat, really the opposite. So it's obviously not something I HAVE to live with. I love that people see me thinner, and want to try the hcg. It's a wild fire! I love it! I want to see people become healthier and do it right. I just want people to do it right!

Heh. I have a friend who has had the stomach surgery who is going on hcg, and she said that her doctor told her that it will fail, she will be unhappy and will come back to him for the next 15k surgery! :P POOP on HIM! First- don't be so hurtful to your patience, and I would never have my friend do something that would hurt her. In fact, I think she will be 100000x's more happy with hcg. She has sagging skin that she will have to go get ANOTHER surgery for. :P poop! Hcg, you can drop 300 lbs and still not have tremendous sagging skin! anywho.

I'm soup, no soap boxing now. :P So I will let your eyes rest! :) take care, and we are so much close to the eve of christmas! Hope it's a merry one for all. See you tomrrow!

Monday, December 21, 2009

question: Why no mixing of veggies?

Why do you think that the good Dr. has said 'No Mixing' of veggies?

I sometimes like to mix veggies like today: Buffalo burger with some (2oz) of onions mixed in and wrapped in like 2oz of lettuce.

Do you think this will hurt me. No, but why did the doctor say "no mixing' for the most part?

I see people mix lettuce around, but I don't see that in the manual. If you see it, let me know what page.

R2P2: Day 6

Weight: 215.8 lbs
Loss of: .4 lbs
Total Loss: 8 lbs

I asked for 8 lbs in the week, and my body gave me NO more. :P LOL at least I got it right.

I stayed up WAY to late last night but had LOTS of fun playing with friends online. I missed playing with these people and it got me to stay up way too late. But fun.

Like I said earlier, I'm going to take it a bit easy this round, as in not worry what the scale gives me, stay on protocol, include lean steak to get a variety. I know that steak gives me lower results, but at the same time it mixes the food up and I enjoy it more. It got sort of tiring of just eating chicken, but since I had a goal, I really didn't care.

I think I am going to throw another goal. I already mentioned it, I wonder what my doctor things. I hit 180 and I get a 1 week break. :) I'm feeling pretty thin, though I know I am still fat. The pictures just don't give me the feeling I feel. I'm like.. my butt isn't that big is it? My mirror upstairs is being kind to me. When you lose a lot of weight you realize how much thinner you are and you get into that happy mind set. Then you see a picture and your like 'still have a ways to go'

Happy Solstice to those who celebrate! :) Have a wonderful day sliding and maintaining. Thanks for all the warm and wonderful comments! :)

Wow, this week is also Xmas! I'm almost done with all the gifts I need to get. I still need to do some things to be totally ready for Xmas Eve.

Sunday, December 20, 2009

R2P2: Day 6

Weight: 216.2 lbs
Loss of: .8 lbs
Total Loss: 7.6 lbs

MOrning! I hope all are doing well.

I'm dropping and I'm going to take what comes this round. I thought it would be interesting to put up a little goal for myself. I can take a 1 week break when I hit the 180 range. Gives me something to look forward to. Then I can replenish my body with stuff and go on a serious Vitamin D binge. My mother in law found out from her natural doctor that Vitamin D can help fight against the Swine Flu. Vitamin D is a super vitamin right now and I am totally too low, but higher then I was before!

I got a size 12/14 shirt and size 18 pants from Walmart yesterday (can't spend money on clothes, but it was cheep enough) I'm feeling more and more normal! :) I can't wait to get into size 14. Only 2 sizes to go. I can just fit into those 18's and DON'T ask me to sit down. :) LOL.

We put on the tree lights. I need to get into the Holiday Spirit. I forgot, but my other friend reminded me tomorrow is Winter Solstice. I need to think how I will celebrate with the family. I want my son to fell the Holiday Spirit when he can. As he gets older I hope I will do a better job. We plan on home schooling him so he won't have it from school. But as I hear, they are scrubbing that stuff from public school anyways. So much for 'tolerance' The last I heard, tolerance was putting up with, embracing, not cutting it out.

I ate steak last night. I am going to include steak back into this round. I miss it. I want more verity in the stuff we are allowed. heh. So I take a lower loss, but you know what, I need to be happy with the food I am allowed.

anywho. I'm going to find me a 1/2 grapefruit. :) Enjoy the day! It's 4th Advent today isn't it? I need to call my mom. She celebrates the Advents. :)

Saturday, December 19, 2009

R2P2: Day 5

Weight: 217 lbs
Loss of: .6 lbs
Total Loss: 6.8 lbs

There begins my low losses. THough .6 is respectable if I get that daily. :) I did only drink 2 liters of water. I DO NO MORE then 4liters because that is 1/2 my body weight in oz. No more. Um, I just did the calculations. I should drink a little more then 3. Okay. :) heh. I don't want to do more then 1/2 my body weight because I also want to make sure I keep electrolytes in order.

Thanks for all your supportive words!! Spending the day with the husband. Finished up most of my Xmas shopping. I have some gift cards for those coming by Airplanes, or small sized gifts that I still need to get, but then I am done. :) yeay! Done!

I do not suggest going on a cruise right before Xmas, it really throws you off. And you can't go to any cold destinations right now. You might as well stay home, unless of course you come from sun! :P I just can't get into the Xmas season yet. :( Next year lets all just go cruise with our loved ones as a xmas thing! :) Cha Cha Cha! I would love to be in sun. I used to love dreary, I used to love Rain, now I'm just plain cold. I hate being cold all the time. I put on stuff to make me warm but I am just COLD! :P

anywho! Take care all! KEep warm!

Friday, December 18, 2009

R2P2: Day 4

Weight: 217.6 lbs
Loss of: 2 lbs
Total Loss: 6.2 lbs

Morning. I'm feeling pretty good. I have had a bit harder resolve this time but I won't cheat. I promised myself I wouldn't. I just realized how much I want more food.

I am VERY happy with the loss that I have gotten. It's nice to be below my R1 LDWeight by the 3rd day. Who would have thunk that a week of enjoying food would only take 3 days to get it off. I was scared I would have slowed down to .6 by now. :P

I've been behind on many things. My husband just went back to work and so I am adjusting to that, spending time doing things with my son so I haven't been an internet hog. I have been playing solitare in my bathtub instead of updating myself on blogs. I've wanted to just veg out and not process information. :P I'm starting to not feel so tired.

We are going to bed late but then we sleep in later and then the husband doesn't take so long to get home. LOL. Perspective.
I am going to look into sleeping in late, but then going to work out late too. I hate mornings and I hate waking up so early. I rather stay up with my husband late then wake up early w/o my husband. makes the Day longer! :P It's hard because I have parents that love to wake up early. Oh well. I'm not living w/ my parents! :P

My hunger has been spectacularly low once I mixed up the new hcg drops. I had some old stuff, and it wasn't as potent. Now I feel full. I eat 1/2 an apple and I feel full. :) YEAY! Loading properly and eating your 500 calories does help!

I have a winter jacket that is a Large size and I still feel a bit tight in it. I can zip it up if I breath in, so that is my item of clothes I will use as my 'am I getting physically smaller?" mark. I have out grown... under grown? I've gotten too small for the other clothes that I was trying to get into. Now they can be given away. LOL. Nice.

okay. Off to do some stuff. I want to clean the kitchen and most of downstairs, and now I plan to start reading again. I, in January, had decided to read 1 book per week. Didn't make it, but have read 26 books this year. Sigh. My goal for next year is to read 25 books as well. That is about 1 book every 2 weeks. If I do read mroe books per week I will just go over my goal. Or simply have more weeks for another book or not read. I miss sitting and reading while my son plays around me. :) I couldn't do it realistically when the husband was home. LOL. I wanted to spend time w/ him because I knew he would eventually be back at work. :)

anywho. Happy trails folks. I will be reading your posts soon enough. I really apologize for not getting caught up this week. I really feel like we have become a family and I like that. I love hearing what you guys are doing and have to say, it makes me internalize what I am doing, like going to Resturants and their evil ways!

Thursday, December 17, 2009

R2P2: Day 3

Weight: 219.6 lbs
Loss of: 2.6lbs
Total Loss: 4.2 lbs

That's more like it! :) I know that over a lb is nice, but for a 'after load vlcd' day I want more like 3 lbs off right away!! I didn't want to be screwed up with extra lbs if I didn't need to load, though it felt good to eat. I miss eating whatever I want.

I'm having a mentally hard time, but today, honestly waking up to the bigger loss made me happy. Gave me real resolve for today.

I had the food dreams: I ate real buttery popcorn. mmmmmm. And of course I was like "oh no, what if I eat this, I won't lose" :P Why couldn't I just be in dream land and enjoy the popcorn I never got on loading. :P

I got new hcg and it tastes much better, and I think that caused a low weight loss- old hcg. I know that stuff can last, but it also doesn't last forever, or that long really. anyways. I got new stuff and am using that now.

I do not miss the drinking of a ton of water. On the cruise I drank a lot, always finding a bathroom, but I think I got 1-2 liters of water in. Now I am aiming for 4 liters. Much more. :P

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Mexico Trip

Cruise Pictures

I haven't labeled all the pictures with captions, but you can still enjoy! :)

We did have a lot of fun! :)

R2P2: Day 2

Weight: 222.2 lbs
Loss of: 1.6lbs
Total Loss: 1.6 lbs

Hrmph. I was expecting more honestly. Does anyone know if loading was not a good idea after a week. My doctor adviced me to do so. I wanted more loss. Honestly the hcg doesn't taste as fresh either, so I wonder if the hcg is fairly weak, though I do not feel horribly hungry, so it has to be working.

Any clue for the weak loss?

Over all I'm ok. I'm just tired right now. Yeay, Winter in Washington!

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

R2P2: Day 1

Weight: 223.8 lbs
Loss of: Starting
Total Loss: 0 lbs

I took 1 week off, but I'm going to call this Round 2 anyways.

I gained about 5-6 lbs for this loading, I think I done good. I hope. I had the most horrid gall bladder attack yesteday night right as it was ready for bed. My hubby drove to the store at midnight to get me lemon juice, but it didn't really help. :(
I had 2 sandwhiches which might have been the problem. THANK GOODNESS I didn't have this on the cruise, but I also wasn't pigging out!

I'm tired today. I've been pretty tired since I got off the boat. heh. I am in the middle of TOM. I also went to my doctor yesterday. She told me to enjoy myself through the holidays where I want to, and that we will stay on target when we can. I see her after the Christmas Holidays.

I felt a little jipped yesterday. I still wanted to eat some things to get it out of my system, but today is VLCD day! I am looking forward to seeing a drop. I'm curious how the drop will be, if I lose .5 average it will take me over a month to get to 200, and I was hoping to be there by the end of the year. BUt that is like 23 lbs worth of weight, but I was thinking, much of that should come off at the start right? sigh. I hope.

I'm in a weird mood. I don't want to be on protocol right now but I do. I want to lose the weight, fit into size 14 pants asap and feel more 'normal' in the realms of bigness. I lost over 60 lbs and I am still fat. People still see a fat girl who should do something. :P Does that make sense?

I want the weight to be gone, and I love this protocol. I just need to rev the engine and get my butt in gear. I will do this, I will be dedicated and I will make it. I'm just right now sort of 'bleh' because I do enjoy eating, I enjoy eating on my time table and not thinking about food. I just go make something when I am hungry. Sigh. I have no limited food I can eat, and that always gets me a little uptight for a bit. But the weight coming off will become my motivator, and reading all your blogs will help me too. We are all in this together!! :)

Take care all!

Sunday, December 13, 2009

R2: Loading Day 1

Hello All,

I'm back from my trip. I still feel like I am on the boat. It was SO nice to see the child and husband again! I went with my parents and it was very nice. I stuck to p3 most of the week, then tapered off by the end of the week. Amazing food and I got to read Christy in Seattles' post about restaurant food. If I wasn't loading by the end of the week I think it would have been too hard to find 'good' things over all. Everything was so yummy, but I bet it wasn't so healthy.

I also got used to going to bed by 9:30pm and waking up at 7am to rush upstairs to weigh. Don't try to weigh yourself on a ship. It's dumb. I did because of doctors orders. One day the ship was swaying enough that I couldn't get a reading at all. The little needle on the kg scale kept going 10 kg in each direction at least depending on which way the boat leaned. LOL.

My parents have the pictures and yes, it's 6:54am here so you will have to wait. I just wanted to reach out to everywone. I missed you guys so much!!

Well. I got on the scale this early morning and it said 222.2, last night it was 221.4. Sigh. I am starting to pre-load. I also didn't get in much water, I was on the plane, or waiting to leave the ship. Last thing I wanted was to have to run to the bathroom every 3 seconds. I will do better today! I did okay on the ship w/ water. Though room service sucked. I called for water every day and it took over an hour to get us a thing of water, and by then we wanted to leave the room or go to sleep. Sigh.

I am going to be a bit behind on other people's posts, I was able to catch up on 1 or two of some of your blogs!! It's good to be back. I hope to stuff myself some more to get totally sick of food!! :D Wish me luck! THis time I am doing it right! Last time I didn't do it so right I think. I have a list this time! :)

anywho. Take care everyone!

Friday, December 4, 2009

R1P3: Day 2

Weight: 216.8 lbs
Last Drop Weight: 218.4
Loss of: Gain .4
Above/Below LDW: -1.6

Well, this should be my last post for a while, unless I lick more cows. ;) Sorry Autumn, I couldn't resist. You made me laugh equally as hard when I read your comment!

I am outta here, wish me luck with keeping my weight down! I go up to the airport area today, I stay over night at the airport (hotel) so that for a morning flight I am not fighting traffic! :) Works well. You can also sleep in a little longer.

I ate:
Breakfast: 1 mushroom, sausage omelet with cheese

Lunch: Cauliflower Pizza (amazing) with 2 tomatoes cooked,reduced. Fresh tomatoes, cheese and chicken

Dinner: Taco salad: Lettuce, ground beef, hot sauce, cheese

Snack: Apple with 3 teaspoons peanut butter (no sugar), and 2 slices of cheese, It might have been 3. hmmm.

Small gain. I'll take it. I do like this bit of leaway going onto a feeding machine. Er Cruise. I do plan on working out. We will see if that happens. :P Heh. I do plan to walk a lot though. That should help!

Oh, I will take a LOT of pictures and some video as well!! :) I will share when I get back!

Bon Voyage! Have wonderful time stabilizing and maintaining, or sliding! Much luck to you all!

Thursday, December 3, 2009

quick update - milk

OMG!! I tried some more milk! NASTY! Tastes like I licked the cow first! :P blech.

R1P3: Day 1

Weight: 216.4 lbs
Last Drop Weight: 218.4
Loss of: 1
Total Loss: 67.4 lbs

Morning!!! It's cold outside. We got frost all over the place. It's beginning to look a lot like winter! :)

I feel so much better, but scared out of my mind to each anything with fat. LOL. I am going to try a sausage omelet this morning!

I am 2 lbs below my LDW (last drop weight) and I won't do a steak day. This honestly gives me a little lea way to figure out how to eat. I'm happy this is happening this way, though I know it has to be at the expense of structural fat. It will come back. :) Trust me! :) I couldn't eat much last night.

I had:
Omelet w/ mushrooms and 1 ounce of cheese
Small swig of milk (I swear I tasted the farm it came from, :P)

Chicken and broccoli w/ a small spoon of sour cream

SICK- got rid of most of lunch

Dinner: Tomato and ground beef

Snack- 2 slices of apple (Put slice of cheese back in fridge)

Today I hope for better. It does get better right? I won't be like this? Reading the hcg board I see that someone had posted if you do get extreme pain like that it's an alergy to some food. I dont' know. I think it's the prolonged withdraw of this food. Plain and simple at this point, though I say to all: Be careful adding stuff back and don't do a round more then 45 days! Take a probotic if you can! Ease into it. That pain is not worth a long round! :P

I hope I can finish resewing my brown linen pants today. Was going to do that yesterday. But ya. Today I finish packing and get my clothes nailed down. Wish me luck!

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

update - Tummy distress

lavenderdiva said it so well!! When going into p3 after having no fat for AGES you will feel the burn! The pain, the agony!

I sent for a jolly walk today and felt all of a sudden stomach pain! My gall bladder was screaming at me "WHAT THE HELL!?!?!" and then my stomach followed with "oh no, what is this, we haven't seen this in 110 days!!" and it was like 2 oz of cheese and 1 tablespoon of sour cream. I don't concider that a LOT. :P But my stomach did! OH GOSH!

I threw up lunch a couple times. I did find some releif in the bathtub w/ hot water.

So I took a probotic after I felt human again. I do feel a little better again, but I think p2 sounds just fine to me now! :) hehe.

My plan: I have about 90-80 more lbs to lose. Either I will take probotics on the diet, or I will take mini breaks after every 40 days to re acclimate my body. I suggest others do the same!! Doing long rounds might not be a happy option. I was so looking forward to the peanutbutter coconut bark I made this early afternoon to eat tonight!! Thank you Autumn's Rose for the recipe. I forgot you can add peanut butter mmmmm.

I was going to make a cauliflower pizza tonight. Forget it. I ate some apple sauce unsweetend kind and letting the husband make me a p2 chili! At least it won't be measured. That's the tipping point into p3 for me! :P

Take care all!

R1P2: T Minus 11 hours

Weight: 217.4 lbs
Loss of: .8
Total Loss: 66.4 lbs

Okay, I lost .8 last night. I know that I will go down a tiny bit if I do good. But I am starting to go for the p3 stuff already. I sort of mentally stuck myself to 48 hours and then slowly do the p3 stuff. Having an omelet today. Bad me, but you know what. I can't wait and I am STARVING!

I will do p2 mostly today w/ some p3 stuff included on a very low scale. I had an ounce of cheese last night and still lost. That was our little test to see if I am done. BING!

Yesterday I resewed my size 24 pants to fit me. Creame colored linen pants that I just love. They look good for a beginner hemmer! :) I am doing my brown ones today. So I will have 3 comfortable pants total in a Mexican cruise. YEAY!

I'm just moving forward with getting into p3. I'm scared but not. I don't want to balloon to 10 lbs more, but then you ask why am I playing w/ fire today. :P because.

Do people find that exercise helps correct any p3 mistakes? I am thinking about the cruise. I will be very active, and plan to do an 8am class every morning when at sea. I will be good on the cruise, but come on.. a cruise. you can only be so good! :P I won't over eat and I won't cheat where I know. I can't be too careful w/ stuff because then I end up eating nothing only because everything could be tainted with sugar. I will let my waiter know it's not okay for me to have sugar. Not even artificial stuff.

anyways. Off to eat some breakfast. My egg w/ mushrooms and onions! :) mmmmmm.

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

R1P2: T Minus 36 hours

Weight: 218.2 lbs
Loss of: .2
Total Loss: 65.6 lbs

Woke up to 219, went back to bed for a while. I woke up way too early on my own, was very sleepy still. So I laid down for a bit and woke up to 218.2. I feel like such a cheater.

I did good yesterday, but I didn't get my 4liters in though. I was short 1 liter. I didn't think it was going to effect me as much. Oh well. I was hoping for a bigger loss.

So HELP! I calculate my 'last weigh in' which would be: 9pm took hcg, went to bed. Woke up, weighed in at 218.4 right? That is my stamp?

Then I can't eat anything untill 9pm Wednesday Night? I will most likely introduce an ounce of cheese or nonsugar peanut butter w/ my apples then. :)

I plan not to measure everything and do a Nikki. ;) What is a Nikki- Calm and collected. LIstening to our bodies to do the right thing! :) Sorry Nikki I am so impressed with how you managed well listening to your body. I think I would drive myself crazy trying to get in the right calories. Plus every website has a different calculation. site: You need 2182.9 calories per day w/o exercise. You need 2,445 calories to maintain your current weight You need 2223 calories.

So I guess they are not all over the board but still, they don't all use the same calculator. Wasn't it Christy who said, through the body bugg, that if you simply get an extra 100 calories a day, that can mean an extra pound a week or month?

My over all goal actually is not stuff my face, but to eat untill almost full. To eat slowly and take it one step at a time. That is my fat problem. I got fat not because I ate McDonalds or something, but because I would make meals for my husband and me, and if I made too much I didn't put 1/2 of it away, I wanted to clean our pot so I would take the food and split it into 2 parts. Eat up! I would take a WHOLE steak from the packaging and cut it in 1/2 for both of us to enjoy, then maybe a side of onions and a potato. My favorite meal. After I went on the diet I realized I ate 3 to 4 x's the amount of meat I should have. I had bad eating habits. I would eat so many carbs, maybe 1 to 2 proteins a week, and rarely a veggie would touch my plate, Funny thing- I LOVE veggies. I loved eating at my parents because my mom would serve 3 types of veggies. I just had a hard time making them, and they would rot in the fridge and I hated wasting money.

So my plan: To make sure to eat 1 to 2 veggie serving, 1 protein (4-6 oz?) serving per meal. No starch right now, but I want to have that as the smallest serving when I do include it. I need to find how much meat is a serving. Isn't it 4-6 oz per serving? OH. I will eat 100g of protein. Double what I am doing now.

anywho. PLEASE, ifyou have any more p3 tips let me know! I Wanna hear them all. Links are perfectly fine too!

btw: Lavendar- I go on my cruise at the end of the week. I'm not going w/ the family so I get a mini-vacation from them. I love them yes, but it's nice to get a little break. heh. A woman's week off. I don't get those. It's a gift from my parents. I go to Mexico. What is awesome is that one stop is in Mazaltan and our friends are down there that my father got to know like 10 years ago. We love them dearly. They help me improve my Spanish (they are a Mexican family, not a relocated American family) and I have learned so much about the Mexican Culture through them. Better then any history channel. I feel more in touch with mexico. I would rather go to Mexico then Canada any day if I had to 'leave the USA' hehe. :P


Monday, November 30, 2009

quick update - doctor trip

Well, I am off hcg as of last night at 9pm. I eat for 72 hours the 500 calories.

I get to eat various things of course on the cruise. I get 5 'tickets' to cheat on good items. So I have to choose well what I cheat on. Either the cake or the drink. hehe. I have a couple meals that I will want to extend myself on a little bit, but it looks like over all it should be fine!

I got blood work done several weeks ago, and I got my results. My blood sugar has come down a bit, my vit D has gone up. My cholestorol has gone down! I'm healthier!! :) YEAY! In 110 days I was able to go from a crap machine to a fairly healthy blood work! :) YEAY! I can't believe my Vit D went up though.

So then I went to my mom's house, she gave me one of her shirts. It fit. Yeay! Went to costco to get medium cami's :D Now to sew the crotch of all my underware to get some more milage out of them. :P Sorry TMI but I need to make some things last so I am not buying underwear every month. No one sees them! LOL. I am going to try to sew my pricy linen pants that my mom bought for me for next year (before my diet) and now I am too small for them. So off I go to sew!! :)

R1P2: Day 111 (72 hour count down)

Weight: 218.4 lbs
Loss of: .8
Total Loss: 65.4 lbs

So I have been on this protocol for 110 days. Today I am starting my 72 hours. I took it last night at around 9pm. I know it was before then, but I wasn't aware I wasn't going to take some this morning. I did the math. I can start eating p3 on Thur. I leave on Friday. So I wanted more time, but it snuck up on me.

I go to the doctor today and find out my plan for the cruise. I'm going to ask for 1 drink at least. And some 'fun' dishes that will definatly be a cheat. I want to try Foie Gras and some dishes I actually wouldn't buy myself. ANd doesn't Foie Gras in resturant go for like 25-50 bucks per plate? I mean the good stuff? Maybe more? heh.

So there are some things I want to take advantage of, and I will work my butt off to make the weight deal. I know I am setting the hypothalamus but come on. Sunday after the cruise I am loading on junk and going back on the protocol!

WEll, gotta go. We drive from Oly to Kirkland. And those who know this area know that it is like 50 miles. :P But I'm so in love w/ my doctor I will go to the ends of the earth to be w/ her! :) She is AWESOME!

anywho. Have a great day folks!

Sunday, November 29, 2009

R1P2: Day 110

Weight: 219.2 lbs
Loss of: 1.2
Total Loss: 64.6 lbs

Check out my weight. No seriously, go look. Guess what. HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. :) I'm under the 220 mark! :D HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

We will see how it goes tomorrow since it seems these big things always creep up for a few days before I really get to hold onto such a landmark.

Yes, it's 19.2 lbs from a real big milemarker, but to see my self in the teens. Something like being 119. But a lot heavier. ;)

I did normal yesterday. I did an excellent Asparagus soup. Take your serving of asparagus, and chicken and blend it after you cook it. It's really good. My husband Mr P3, said that adding sour cream to it brings it to a WHOLE new level. :)

I drank my 4 liters of water and had my 6oz of apple at the end of the day. I actually slept earlier. I was so tired and I took the opportunity to go to bed, instead of trying to wake myself up to watch tv w/ the husband. I told him we should just go cuddle.

Have a wonderful day! Enjoy the last day before the week starts again!

Saturday, November 28, 2009

R1P2: Day 109

Weight: 220.4 lbs
Loss of: .8
Total Loss: 63.4 lbs

No one breath! You, over there, I see you breathing!

If we don't spook the scale till I go on my cruise we should all be fine! ;) So I hit my 30 lbs for the cruise mark. I got it, even after I said "screw it" :) YEAY! I am still going to rejoice in a goal I threw away! Because I am human!

It's all gravy now, fat free, p2 gravy if I continue to slide! Which I hope I do. I got my water in pretty late last night, ate an apple pretty late as well, and I still lost. I feel proud. I also was expecting the 'after thanksgiving weight' to show up the day after. Sometimes I see people lose, then gain again couple days after the cheat. So I was prepareing myself for that.

So we went to costco yesterday to pick up Chicken Tenders. No clue why, but same brand chicken, different cut (tenders vs breast) seem to provide me w/ better losses. Or it could just be incidental. But my husband firmly believes that it's the chicken tenders that show better weight loss.

Then I got new undies.. AT COSTCO! I can shop clothes at costco! I could do socks, but that's cheating. I bought undies in a size Large. They are cozy. heh. I bought 2 Large camis, they are actually going to be too big for me! I need MEDIUM! The only thing I had that was a medium was a drink at the local resturant! Happy Happy!!

My husband got me a winter coat. Not the big puffy kind, but a SMALL slender (okay L size but still) looking white coat. I can just wear it, and zip it up. It should fit just fine by Xmas. It's... cozy.. right now.

I go to my doctors on Monday to find out what the plan is. I love losing weight. I remember Mary's Rant and Rave... Oh, she has changed it. But anyways, Mary talks about the feeling of loosing then eating. I share that feeling right now.
I want to get off of the hcg on Monday to try to stablize a little at home before the cruise, but what if I could be 5 more lbs lighter? Though honestly I would go off of hcg for less. heh. I would rather try stabilization for 3 lbs trade. Not going up 3 lbs mind you. heh. I'm scared of stabilization. Some people have mentioned that being on p2 for a LONG time will make stabilization harder.

I think after Xmas I will see if the doctor could have me take 1 week breaks till I get to my goal weight, just to practice stabilization!

Btw: GO CAITLIN! YOU CAN DO IT! She is back onto P2. I know Nikki will be joining us soon as well! :)

Here is to good losing women! We can do it!

Friday, November 27, 2009

R1P2: Day 108

Weight: 221.2 lbs
Loss of: 1
Total Loss: 62.6 lbs

I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving. I hope everything happened as planned, and those unexpected things that did happen came with a relaxed smile! I hope everyone stuck to their plan, even if it was to enjoy eating! Enjoy friends! Enjoy the moment of the Holiday. :)

So I lost a lb for today. As my husband said- we will see tomorrow!

I cheated!!! I cheated for the first time on this diet. I mean a real cheat.

I had my rosemary chicken, I had 5 oz of roasted cauliflower, THEN I added a tablespoon of cranberry sauce I made (no sugar), A spoonful of p3 green bean casserole, 3 pumpkin seeds, a tiny tiny bite of a yam (first time actually), red cabbage and then p3 pumpkin pie, one square inch of it w/ a little unsweetened self made whipped cream! mmmmmm. I was satisfied.

Then I ate 1/2 of all that and kept it for later and ate 2 apple slices before bedtime. I even went to bed late because I couldn't sleep. I lost a whole pound. I excepted a 5 lb gain. I had to mentally prepare myself. Then I was like, okay maybe a 1.6 gain would be good. I will see what happens tomorrow!

I feel pretty good. We don't normally do Black Friday. I just sit home and wish I was in the chaos but I'm happy I'm not after seeing the shopping on the news. I need to go check the news. I love watching all the excitement, but not the tragedy that normally can happen with crazy shoppers. :( I am hoping for good times today for the shoppers and employees that have to manage this chaos!!

Thursday, November 26, 2009

R1P2: Day 107

Weight: 222.2 lbs
Loss of: 1.2
Total Loss: 61.6 lbs


I gotta love that number. 222222's :) heh. I dropped weight, yeay! Now I will gain all that back eating today. :P It's a little scary.

I stayed up late last night preparing mini p3 pumkpin pies. I got a p3 bean casserole ready for the oven and I made the hubby a little apple pie, p3. We got eggs ready to devil today. House is clean except for my desk - which is in the living room, Which I'm suppose to be working on right now. But I wanted to shout out to my peeps! :)

Thanks for all your warm wonderful comments! So encouraging. It's nice to write, but it's even nicer when you know others are reading and encouraging!

I bought me some sexy shoes that I am wearing tonight. HEELS! But w/ a chunky heel. I'm wearing a skirt that looks awesome w/ a cute top that actually looks better on me now then when I was heavier. But it was a 'fat shirt' when I bought it. :P Go figure. I bought cute earings to go with my outfit. I feel all set for today! It's T minus 2.5 hours till people come and I'm oddly calm. Hmmmmmmmm. What am I missing that I forgot?? :)

Well, have lots of fun, Look the sexiest you ever have! (We are all thinner now then last year I bet!!) And really enjoy yourself. Listen to your body and enjoy nibbles of foods and eat quality and not quantity! :) Really enjoy EVERY bite you take!!


Wednesday, November 25, 2009

quick update - Rant

I'm done w/ goal setting. As in "I want to lose 15 lbs in a month."

The hcg is working for me, I have been at my thinnest in 8 years. Almost to my thinnest in 10 years. THis works! I will not fight it by setting goals.

As I said to my husband. If we let the energy come into our body and lead us, we will find success, but if we start taking that energy and directing it we will only mess ourselves up.

I'm letting the energy of the hcg come into my body and trust it to do the right thing. I will become thin! I AM focused. I haven't cheated on this diet and I am 60 lbs lighter. I'm doing VERY well. It will happen at the speed in which it was intended to work.

I wanted to lose 30 lbs before the cruise. I have lost so much body size it's ridiculous. I'm happy, but the only thing that makes me unhappy is when I get onto the scale and see "I am not close to my arbitrary goal"

I think these weight goals are for non-hcg'ers who need to focus and force themselves to be good. I'm lucky. I don't have to work as hard on this diet. It will come to me as long as I follow the directions, which I have done!

I just had to say that because I was so caught up in the stupid "I'm not reaching my goals, should I even bother eating tomorrow?" YES! I am going to relax, listen to my body (Thank you Nikki) and enjoy tomorrow. I won't go overboard, but I will enjoy myself with little nibbles here and there just see what 'real food' ;) tastes like! Darned be the scale, a day of supervised nibbling won't set me back into a size 26!! Or even a size 22! So there!!


R1P2: Day 106

Weight: 223.4 lbs
Loss of: GAIN .4
Total Loss: 60.4 lbs

THE H#((!!! What in the world. Down .8, up .4, stay, stay, down .8, up .4 :P I'm done with this teeter totter scale! :P

I have no clue what exactly what is going on. I'm scared about "cheating" tomorrow but screw it! I'm doing it. If I am so good I'm going forward as planned! I was hoping to get my cruise goal. That goal is still in the back of my head, but I"m giving it up at this point. STupid goal! I am losing weight and I will continue to lose weight on a regular basis w/ hcg. No doubt about it, so I am not going to push it for better results since it's been going down down down! :)

OKay, I am fitting into clothes so I am LOSING INCHES! I fit into the clothes, and I won't grow out of it in the wrong direction either. If anything, some things are getting better fitting and some I'm outgrowing. So I'm not totally upset.

Okay, I got a satisfactory amount of bags sewn yesterday, hubby got a lot of stuff done like arrange the garage to put more crap in! YEAY! So now, blaring the Xmas toons (what do turkey day songs sound like?) and really scrubbing the downstairs for guest! :)


Tuesday, November 24, 2009

R1P2: Day 105

Weight: 223 lbs
Loss of: .8
Total Loss: 60.8 lbs

Really a lost of .4 from my previous lowest weight. :) Wow. WOW.. I just saw that I am 3 lbs away from being out of the 220's forever. That will be almost to my 10 year low! :D

I actually feel the size 2 chico shirt I bought a while back is getting a little loose on me, but it's okay. My parents are always "baggy is good" I think they are so used to be being so fat that tight means gross. :P lol

My husband informed me I lost my glasier slide over my knees are disappearing. :D He said that the fat above my knees started to slide over my knees. I just wanted to vomit. That is SO FREAKING gross. I hate my thighs so much. They are GROSS! But the rest of me I can deal with, especially 60 lbs lighter. ;)

Only 90 more lbs to go. :D

So, I made a cranberry sauce and it's easy my HCG folks!!

Thank you: Fresh cranberry sauce recipe

4 cups fresh or frozen cranberries
2 Tbsp stevia powder (more or less to taste)
1-1/2 cups water

Mix all ingredients in a 4 quart saucepan on the stove. Cook over medium heat, stirring constantly, until all sweetener is dissolved. Bring to a boil and cook until skins burst, about 5 minutes. Serve warm or refrigerate.

Makes 8, approx. 1/2 cup servings.

We used about 15 drops of stevia liquid plain. It was okay, you do taste a bit of the stevia aftertaste, but come on. P3 cranberries that are made from your stove and not a can w/ high frutose Syrup! :) YEAY!

I have finished roasting pumpkin seeds. YEAY!

I am going to make a p3 bean casserole, and I think at this point to make it easier I will make some nice caramelized onion to mix into the mix. I'm using real sour cream with other stuff, I don't have it around me right now. :P

I have a friend who is trying to lose weight. She lost 250 from the stomach surgery, but it is slowly not working as well as she wants it to for the last X lbs. I think she wants to lose another 100. So she was going to do the lap band. I told her to think about HCG. She knows 3 people on it, me and my other 2 friends. I think she will like it more, then take the money to do some cosmetic surgery for the extra skin she already has. I think she will be so much happier doing hcg then going through another surgery. I really hope she has the support and goes forward with it. They are seriously concidering it, but have to talk to some more support people. I need to find out how she would do it since she has had the stomach surgery. The Gastric Bypass. I know I have read about a bunch of others doing it.

Today I am sewing like a mad woman. I forgot that Friday is "Black Friday" and so I am trying to make a gob of dice bags in Regular, Small and TINY size. :) Wish me luck. I have about 11 small bags in black velvet (panne- a bitch to work with at times. Sorry about the language, but sewers will understand) and I hope to get about 40 of the regular sized bags out. 20 of the black and 20 of the other mixed colors.

Dice bags are like dresses, you need one in every color, and you always need the little black dice bag! :) LIke you always need the perfect little black bag! :)

anywho, Enough goofing off for me, Back to work. I solicited my husband to help me get ready to host the TUrkey Day event! :P He has put in so much work. But I'm still wipping him! I told him he gets a back rub for his efforts tonight! If he puts in a real GOOD effort I will get more creative. ;) Teeheehee.

Later! Good losing or maintaing! wishing everyone a sucessful day in every endeavor.

Monday, November 23, 2009

R1P2: Day 104

Weight: 223.8 lbs
Loss of: Gain of .4
Total Loss: 60 lbs

Grumble grumble. I gained. I did good yesterday. I did go to bed VERY late last night trying to figure out some excel spreadsheet formulas. I woke up a little earlier today. I am so taking a nap when I can! :)

I took a lick from the cranberry p3 sauce. It wasn't enough to make it worth ANYTHING. That couldn't be it could it? Sigh.

W/ the way things are going it just might be my body dealing. I want to take a day off from the hcg, but I haven't decided yet if I am going to go w/o on Wed. I think I will, just enjoy some extra foods and say PHTHTHTHTh to the scale right now. Screw it. I'm thinner then I was 2 months ago by a LOT and so I am proud of that. I WILL lose the weight at some point if I stick on task. I know I will. So I need to stop stressing about the numbers.
I did that to myself. THe whole "lose 30 lbs before the cruise' crap. I have the clothes I am taking on the cruise, and i fit into it, and in 2 weeks I will fit into it better. I'm already sort of small for the nice shirt I bought. :P I wonder if I can take it back for a smaller size. snicker. It's the funniest thing. I got into a Chico's size 2 shirt, now the darned thing is too big. I think it's a 'big' size 2 because my mom is a size 2 and she is NOT fat at all. She is near my goal weight.

I'm a bit bummed because I gained and didn't drop, but at the same time I am physically doing fab! :) My size 22 jeans are lose on me and I can now fit into the size 20. I'm good in that area. I also got to fit into a tight skirt I had. Just to find out it's not a flattering look on me, which is totally fine, I just was happy to fit into it. Last week I was sucking in to almost close it. :P LOL.

Sunday, November 22, 2009

R1P2: Day 103

Weight: 223.4 lbs
Loss of: .6
Total Loss: 60.4 lbs

Morning ladies! I reached my 60 lb mark. :D yeay! It does seem like I am fighting for each lb. I don't know it seems that I only get 1 great week per month. heh. :P when my body aligns itself and the hormones stay at bay. Grumble. But hey, I'm thinner! I fit into things that are smaller, I managed to get myself into an XL pant at Marshalls. and I know i can now wear the L/XL shirts in stores! :) yeay!

I slept in today a bit, but still tired. I got Makeup and pants yesterday. Very happy about that. Now it's time to really get ready for Thanksgiving this week. I dreampt that I went to a Halloween party right before Turkey Day and I was going to cheat and keep it clean for Turkey Day.

I'm too scared to cheat on TD and want to keep it clean, but at the same time if I do cheat I could kick start my body. I don't know. I'm scared. I've been on this diet so long that I feel like it just would be too wrong to eat normal food. I'm terrified of the cruise, but my doctor has a plan, but it does include 2 weigh in's a day. :P I weigh more at the end of the day and then do okay when I wake up. Like yesterday. Last night I weighed in at 226 at bed time, and now I'm 223.4 so I think it's going to be added stress and I won't sleep well. I will need to discuss this with her next week when I see her. Yes, I'm a worry wort.

anywho. I got fresh cranberries, I'm going to try to make a cranberry sauce that is p3! :)

Saturday, November 21, 2009

quick update - clothes and makeup

I got a pair of active pants at marshalls. 8 bucks for XL pants!! :) I shopped in XL! :) PANTS! :D :D They look so sexy on me, (for a fat person) and my husband noticed that I have a butt cheek, and not just a butt that tapers into my thighs. LOL. YEAY SEXY FEELINGS!

I also did the E.L.F. Makeup. I feel so freaking sexy. I got some lip gloss. I look good in the browns, even brown'ish lip gloss. mmmmm sexy! :) I got their little 5 dollar makeup eye shadow pack. So many of the colors are PERFECT for all occations. Mostly the browns, looks awesome on me! :) I put on the eye liner and it makes me look SO Different. I will have to get a picture of w/o and w/ makeup! I also tried an eye curler- or what I would like to call a torture device.. Why do we use that one women?? My husband used one LONG before I did, he played w/ his mom's calling it an 'eye ball extractor' :P hehe. But seriously- that was the first time I used one. Not a great experience. I will have to work with it.

Have a wonderful weekend everyone! :)

R1P2: Day 102

Weight: 224 lbs
Loss of: .4
Total Loss: 59.8 lbs

Morning. I slept in good today. Only lost all my gained weight. I am at the point I was a couple days ago. Sigh. I just want to break through this thing. I hate that I have been teetering. Hopefully I will see new ground tomorrow! :)

I've been doing everything right. I don't mix my veggies, stick to Protocol food. I do eat a little bit more protein. I find I do MUCH better on 4oz vs 3.5 oz of meat. So there you go. My body is working through stuff, so it's okay, but it's starting to down me a little.

But I did do toning and stretching yesterday. OUTCH! I didn't know I had butt muscles! I didn't know how much we worked them yesterday. My shoulder blades hurt too! outch outch outch! I am so going to look good if I keep this up! LOL.

Today I really want to go buy some makeup I found out about. My last 'set' of makeup was from 1999 and I know it's bad. I haven't worn it in years. I don't do makeup, but I feel like doing some eye shadow and lip gloss. Some eye liner would be fun! I hope I can wear some of that stuff on p2?? It's just the foundation I think we are not allowed right? What have other people found w/ makeup and p2?

I also want to buy a black workout pant. I am wearing a grey stretch pant and they look aweful on me now. :) too big and I want something a bit sexier. Oh, in class yesterday I was able to for the first time grab each of my feet with their respective hand. So your standing like a flamingo. I haven't been able to do that before with all the weight!! :) When I was in high school I used to be able to put my feet behind my ears, both at the same time. I am very flexible, but the fat just stops me do that stuff. Even when I was at my fattest I could touch my toes, but it was hard w/ the fat in the way. Now it's going away and I get back my flexiblity! :) My husband just loves it! ;) TeeHeeHee

Well. have a great day!

Friday, November 20, 2009

R1P2: Day 101

Weight: 224.4 lbs
Loss of: NOTHING
Total Loss: 59.4 lbs

So close! So So Close! I think I am going to fight for every pound right now. :P Jinxed it. I did wake up early again today after going to be fairly late, but I SO wanted to go to the 'Toning and SHaping' class. She used weights and I guess other stuff that don't get used in Pilaties. :P oh well, But it was toning. I was 1/2 ass kicked by the end of it.

There were a couple things I couldn't do on my back. Wow, My butt had shrinked enough that my bone on my back hurts on the floor. I had a really bad injury about 10 years ago that I still struggle with. My sacrum got badly injured. I was in bed for about a month. I got pretty much better but I have to keep an eye on various exercises using the back part of the body. But believe me, there is still a LOT I can do! :) I did pretty good for my first day, plus 500 calorie diet. :D

I just LOVE my arms right now. Its the part of my body that I can look at. I am determined though to work off my woman droop. I will get those sagging under arms to GO away! It's fine though because it IS shrinking!

I got fresh cranberries yesterday. Okay, unprocessed cranberries. I am going to make a p3 cranberry sauce! I am determined to make good food, yet healthy enough that people can have a serving and not feel like they have to go to the gym to work off 20 lbs of Thanksgiving feast!

Have fun losing everyone! Thanks for being on this journey with me! It's been fun getting to know all you! :)

Thursday, November 19, 2009

R1P2: Day 100!!

Weight: 224.4 lbs
Loss of: Gained .4 Grumble
Total Loss: 59.4 lbs

What the ??!!?!. Heh. I'm in shock that on my 100'th day I didn't hit the 60 lb mark. I knew that If I celebrated a day early I would get this. :P Superstitious much? YES!

I woke up 1.5 hours earlier, that seriously could have made the difference. Also the power went out yesterday and we got up after it came on to turn off lights. Around 11:20pm and I had to go back to bed. So didn't get to sleep till midnight. I think that has a lot to do with it. Ate my apples a bit late. I've been trying not to do that. I want to try to go to bed 3 hours after my last snack. I've been doing great with my food though. No mixing of veggies, and keeping it very much on plan. No beef. Right now though I have simply done chicken, but it's showing losses. I'm tired of fish right now. I didn't make some appealing dishes with fish so that sort of turned me off.

Tomorrow I am going to try to get to a Pilate class my gym offers for free. It's too early for me, yes 9:30 is too early. We have more of a night lifestyle. I wake up at 9:30 normally. Will try to change that though. If I can. I'm excited to work out. I have done stuff at home.

Well, I got bloodwork down this morning. We will see how I'm doing health wise. I bet we will see some changes. I have blood sugar issues where my Pancreas was overworked, so we will see! I should know by next visit, in a couple weeks!

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

R1P2: Day 99

Weight: 224 lbs
Loss of: 1.2!!
Total Loss: 59.8 lbs

So close to losing 60 total pounds!! I also passed the 225 mark! :) YEAY! And tomorrow I will have been on VLCD for 100 days! heh. Lots of little, er okay, big milestones! :)

I had my first hcg nightmare in a while. I drempt that I went to visit family in Germany, but we hadn't gone anywhere. Then I kept taking hcg every several minutes. I started to eat almond cookies while waiting. I realized afterwards and gave the cookies to someone and told them to keep them from me since I was mindlessly eating. I realized about the hcg that I was actually thristy. :P go figure. I was upset that I was in Germany to see family with all the coffee time and I couldn't eat anything, why did I still take it, I should have taken a break before I went. Sigh. :P Go Figure.

But it was only a dream and I'm awake and good. I'm having the last hurrah of hormones leave my body. When I am less toxic in my body w/ crap I feel everything about my TOM. Major cramps normally and dizzyness. I went to bed early but kept waking up. :( So I'm a little tired/woozy this morning but my spirits are high.

I have a long todo list of stuff I want to finish today, or rather, start! :P It should be a good day!

I hope I am at the start of another steep slide down the sliding scale! heh. I have 3.4 lbs left before the cruise that I want to lose. I think it will be REALLY hard.. You here that universe I said HARD to take off! (Last time I said "only 5 lbs in 14 days I can do it' and I ended up fighting for every ounce! :P I'm actually a little scared I won't lose that 3 lbs. heh. Honestly- I would like to lose 10 more lbs to get to my 'goal tracking' weight. If I lose average .6 every day I should get there. We will see, CAN NOT put my hopes up.

I'm fitting into clothes better, I feel ribs, I feel and look sexier! I'm loving it. Oh! What I find weird actually, anyone can explain. Maybe it's my height?? But I'm 224 and I can fit into clothes of thinner people. My mom hovers around the 145 range and I almost fit into her clothes on top. ???? I'm 75 lbs more then here, most of it admittedly is in my hips/thighs. Could that be it? My top is matching her more and more, but my thighs are just not there for a LONG time. heh.

Oh, and my father wants them to go on it, We hope it will lessen the pain of my mom as well (She has R. arthritis) and maybe get rid of her gut that she always complains about. I think she has lost various structrual fat trying to get rid of a tummy that won't go. But my dad has planned on the cruise to type in a bunch of our recipes! :) I made a 'creamy' (no cream added) asparagus soup yesterday that I love! So he will help me write this stuff down for htem, then I will get a copy and make a little cookbook! It would be nice to help off set some of the cost of the hcg. :) My doctor wants me to sell one at her office.

Well, Here's to good days ladies! Thanks for going down this journey with me! I really appreciate it! Happy Losing and maintaining! :)

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

R1P2: Day 98

Weight: 225.2 lbs
Loss of: .8
Total Loss: 58.6 lbs

I'm feeling good about the loss. I feel on track for the most part. I am trying to drink my water earlier in the day.

I went to my mom's house with a bunch of clothes, and she noticed some larger sized items looked really good on me still. :P Silly mom. I think she likes baggy things on me, but they are very happy with my loss.

I'm a bit dehydrated when I woke up this morning. I just didn't want to get my behind outta bed. :P I felt puffy but it seems to go away after 15 minutes of laying there. heh

I'm starting to stress about Thanksgiving, I want it a certain way that is just too much for me right now. I am going to lay out a menu plan w/ all the things I want to serve. Find out who will bring what and then make a grocery list.

I'm finishing up my hormonal flush of TOM. I can feel my weepiness laying below the surface. :P
OH, I resewed a pair of pants, Wasn't too hard. I did break a sewing needle. :P Too much fabric to sew. but over all I am happy w/ the size 24 pants being taken in. I have another pair I think I want to 'donate' to the circle if I can find someone who is larger then me. Seems all you woman are smaller! :P

I'm also short but I haven't been so luckly in buying stuff for Petite though. I do have mostly pants in 'short' or they are regular capri's. heh. Almost pants on me.

I'm going to have to have to find a way to take all of helderheid's old clothes that don't fit. ;) heh.

I think I might start a yahoo group for us to start joining, it would be maybe easier for people to post: Size 10 - 2 shirts. Or Size 20 - Pile o' stuff.

Would people spread the word? Would people join? What if we were to have the reciever pay for the shipping? Would you be willing to pass your clothes onto a fellow Hcg'er? please let me know. I would love for this to work! I would rather pay for shipping than pay for new clothes! heh. Then we can just pass them on to the next hcg'er. :) We can have posts also for "I'm going to be size 18 soon" or something. Any advice, input or suggestions really appreciated! :)

Monday, November 16, 2009

R1P2: Day 97

Weight: 226 lbs
Loss of: .4 (.2 from .2 gain yesterday)
Total Loss: 57.8 lbs

okay folks. I hope everyone is doing well during this Fall Season. This week I plan to organize and really clean the downstairs. We got sloppy after we were done putting furniture back after putting new floors down. Sigh. It's coming together though.

I gained a little yesterday. I had a sit still this morning so I went back to bed. :) I love that. Had a good'ish BM and was actually at a loss today. :)

I am semi-floating in my 22's right now. I tried on size 20W and they fit TIGHTLY. My thighs. Perfect everywhere else but the thighs. Sigh. So I am washing my size 22's a bit to see if they would shrink a little. :) LOVE IT!

I am going to ask for a dress form for Xmas. I think it would be easier to refit things. I need to get my mom to help me resize some items. I have a pretty top that Is TOO big, but it's a really nice tank top I bought 2 weeks before I found out about HCG. Sort of my 'lets start getting nice fat person clothes so I feel better" :P I seem to always do that to myself, but this time for the good. I buy a really quality shirt/pants and I gain/lose weight. :P So I give up and sit in 4 shirts for 3 years, then take the plunge to buy something nicer. :P go figure.

I am frustrated right now. I wish we had a clothes circle. I will box up all my clothes sizes 22 and higher and give them to an HCG person so they don't have to buy clothes while they slide. I wish we had a circle. Is there a way to set something up? Is there another hcg person out there that is starting out that I can give size 22's to? I will give you my shirts and I have some coats that are pretty but are now too big. Nice stuff too.

Then I would love someone who is getting rid of their hcg too big clothes that are in the size 18 range and send them to me! :) please! :D heh. Is there a cloths circle that I am un aware of? I know there is the Traveling Pants, but it sounds like they do 1 pant per month.

I know these clothes will find their way to charities eventually, but it would be fun to have a circle. Ya, I'm yammering about it. I need to find a clothes circle. I am so eager to fit into more clothes as I go down, but I don't want to buy a bunch just to give it away 2 weeks later. :P heh. I don't have that kind of money for a charity right now. :P

My husband is cooking eggs right now. Mmmmmmmmm. Eggs. mmmmmmm. He is on p3, Gained a little this morning, but is still a bit below his LWW. (Last Weigh-in Weight)
He has had an omelet w/ sausage and cheese for breakfast, and a 1/2 grapefruit later on. He was full. Then he had Chicken, Tomatoes and cheese. Then for dinner he had Chicken, Broccoli w/ sourcream. As a snack later on he had apples w/ cheese.

I felt he was still doing p2 w/ some p3 foods added. I was proud of him because I was expecting him to stop eating the good stuff that we should eat for life. heh.

Well, I'm off to clean. I am going to open myself up and nab onto some of the energies that helderheid has over there w/ her massive cleaning spree and see if it will be fruitful over here! :) I like the idea of cleaning out, but it doesn't seem to actually get out of our house sometimes. :P heh.

Well, have a fruitful, productive, happy day. Even if that means taking care of yourself and your well being! :)

Sunday, November 15, 2009

R1P2: Day 96

Weight: 226.4 lbs
Loss of: Gain .2
Total Loss: 57.4 lbs

Bah, I gained. I actually woke up with a .6 gain but I went back to bed. It honestly was too early. I did good on my food/water yesterday so it has to be bloating. I do feel a bit bloaty. Not sure why exactly, could be weather and TOM ending.

I look to fabulous in clothes to feel down about it. Okay, I feel a little down about it, but I am starting to give more concern to trends, and the numbers WILL go down, if not right now, tomorrow or next week. I do hate that I have a goal so it puts bits of stress if I don't make it but COME ON! :P anyways.

I went to my mother in laws for her b-day party w/ the family. It was really nice. They create a comfortable environment to hang out. More people to play with our kid and we can get out of the house and talk. I wasn't sure what to get my mother in law. What do you get someone who has everything? Exactly. She just bought herself an airstream so I decided to get the official magazine that goes with airstream. I think magazines are awesome gifts. Always have. Not harsh on the pocket book yet a year of giving information! :) Can't really go wrong w/ that.

Then after people left my MIL asked if I wanted to go upstairs and try on some clothes. :D I was like "Oh, the suffering, the humanity." and rushed upstairs. :D

I could fit in her clothes!!! :D My Mother and MIL both love Chico's and wear Chico's clothing. I honestly had associated w/ older sophistication and beauty. But god, those things are trendy on younger folk. I can now fit into the top end of Chico's dresses.

I think, I did some checking, if I can get as small as size 4 or 6, which I don't see as being a huge issue since I was thin, yet full figure in HS and I was 145, in size 8. Maybe larger for pants? I think I can get into their Chico's size 1 after I am totally done with weight loss.

Which is weird, because in the back of my mind I'm like, but I want to stop at Chico's size 2. This offers me a WIDE variety of clothing that I can 'borrow' from my mom. ;) hehe. LIke she would let me. That woman seems to have her clothes under lock and key!

Well, I do know for now, I will look absolutely fabulous for the cruise w/ all these clothes options from the mothers. I do have a tank top I do want to take in because it's too awesome! Easy take in I think. Sigh. I have linen pants my mom bought me before the weight loss. Nice, slightly pricy pants that I want to do something with because they were actually semi-pricy. But now they are so BAGGY! They were going to fit for Mexico, but um, I'm just too thin. Boohoo. ;) Never thought I would complain about pants being too big. Sigh.

I need to talk to AutumnRose323 about taking in clothes. I bet she has some neat tricks! Oh, AutumnRose323 you would be proud of me- I'm going to recreate a cool little throw over in different colors. I have a proto type from my MIL that is black. Then I have a skirt that I want to try to recreate. It's a great pattern for thick thighed women! :) The skirt w/ 'wedges' sewn in on the bottom. I need to find a pattern or something. I would eventually like to get a dummy model thing. What are they called? Can I get one cheap?

Saturday, November 14, 2009

update- my history of weight

Grew up normally thin.
Then in high school sat at a nice curvy weight of 145
Met my husband 2 years later around 175-180, still wore fly away skirts and thigh high garters. I was feeling really sexy still.

Got married at 198 lbs in March of 1998.

October 17th 98 - 221 lbs (started weight waters)

April 17th 99 - 190.5 lbs (last weight watchers weigh-in)

July 31st 2001- 229.5 (started nutritionist)

November 20th 2001 - 236.5 (didn't do well huh?)

March 12 2002 - 232 lbs (hmm, is this plan really working? Though I almost got into a size 16 on the plan from a size 20) Maybe I built muscle?

January 13th 2004 - 271 (started Curves, did lose maybe 5-10 lbs)

August 6th 2006 - 257 - Son was born and I had actually lost 20 lbs during the pregnancy.

August 16th 2009 - 283.3 (started HCG)

November 14th 2009 - 226.6 (current)

I am lower now then when I started the food doctor! And I KNOW I will be doing better very soon. I should hit 200 in around January 2010. :D

Love the milestones on the way down! :D

R1P2: Day 95

Weight: 226.2 lbs
Loss of: .4
Total Loss: 57.6 lbs

Do Do Do... Well. I always feel a bit bummed on a smaller loss after a big loss. But I feel too sexy to keep a bummed feeling though. I am going to a family thing today and see my brother in law and his husband after a long time of no seeing. I'm a bit giddy about showing off my hot bod to them! :) My BIL's husband wants to do this diet as he has seen the results for himself. This diet is wild fire.

(OMG- My 3 yr old son is still working on his language loves Elmo and will ask for stuff. He just asked for "Elmo ???" But the ??? Sounded like F#$@. LOL! I had to get him to repeat it on camera. LOL!!! I'm aweful. OH, we just found out- it's TALK. :P )

So I had a yummy onion soup w/ chicken, vitamins and then for lunch I had chicken with fresh tomatoes. I shredded the chicken and mixed it w/ the tomatoes. Mmmmmmmmm.

My husband just informed me after I complained that my shirt came up in back that 'Oh everyone knew what underware you were wearing, even when you were bigger" :P Dork. hehe.

Today I have on a normal XL. Not a big woman's XL. They concider it a size 14/16 shirt. It fits just fine. I think it's a tiny bit too tight but it looks nice. :) I do need to take more pictures.

My husband is done. He is finished w/ his hcg. He is going 48 hours since he is on the Hhcg. He wants almond flour cookies. :) Cookies and MIlk. That is his favorite, and cola, but he won't drink cola... at least not right now. He was down .8 this morning but LWW is 170.0 and that is what he should focus on.

I had a nice long bath last night. I love taking a bath. I have a little bathroom heater that makes the area toasty. mmmmmm.

I hope everyone has a great day! :) No matter what the weather!!

btw: Do you all have your plan for Thanksgiving? Eating plan? HOsting plan?

Friday, November 13, 2009

R1P2: Day 94

Weight: 226.6 lbs
Loss of: 1.4
Total Loss: 57.2 lbs

Well. I lost 1.4 lbs. I wonder... hmmm. We took new vitamins yesterday. Really the 'only' change we really did. When we had great losses we had taken vitamins, but then we had to throw them out, went several days w/o them and got bad losses. We might be coming up with stuff but I won't complain too loudly! No gift horse mouth looking here!

I'm tired today. We woke up early yesterday, went to bed sort of late, the window curtains were open enough that we woke up a little earlier then I would have liked. heh.

I've switched it up to 2 chickens right now. I'm tired of fish for the moment. I just can't seem to make anything intersting. I need to get my juices flowing. When I was at the doctors office I had 2 ladies tell me I should write a cookbook. I would like to take the recipes we have come up with and put them together. I made a p2 mustard in my kitchen from a 'regular recipe' out there. Nothing p2 about wine. heh.

I sprinkled some rosemary and chipole seasoning on top of my chicken. Boy was it heat but wonderful! On a bed of freshly cut tomatoes. Mmmmmmm. Refreshing. I baked the chicken in my toaster oven a little too long so it was a little dry, but you know, it worked for me. I don't mind a little dry when I have another 'wet' ingredient.

I hope all you folks out there successful losses, maintenance and happy day!

Thursday, November 12, 2009

update- doctor visit and clothes shopping

So, I went to the doctor. We made a Thanksgiving plan.

She said if I skip the turkey (she had one client gain 2 lbs on turkey) and eat some cheats I should be good to go. I'm cheating on a table spoon of cranberry p3 sauce and some p3 bean casserole. :) Small but effective cheats! :) She said it might even kick start my loss again. We will see! I would DIE if I saw a whole 2 lb gain. :P Chicken w/ rosemarry is yummier anyways. I'm not a Turkey person. I'll eat it if it's there, and will pick at it like any other bird. So it's not like I'm losing out at all. I wonder if we could get away with making several little chicken birds and calling it Thanksgiving! Save a Turkey! ;)

I made an appointment for a week before my cruise to talk Cruise plan! There will be daily weighing. She even suggests multi-daily weighing. :P BAH!

Went afterwards to get a bra, got seduced by the size '14' LARGE- xLarge shirts. hehe.

I bought some shirts that honestly are a bit too tight for me, but you know, I will 'grow' into them. But they SO flatter my tummy. Some cuts are NOT good for me like empress waist. I need something that says "Yes, I have boobs, but look at my tiny waist' (relative to the rest of me of course. ;) hehe, Sigh, in high school I had a size 28 waist. One day... One day)

So, I am wearing some of the clothes and it feels good. I bought 4 shirts and a 'house' coat. Its cute, something to lounge. I will take some pictures when not so tired and made model show! :)

R1P2: Day 93

Weight: 228 lbs
Loss of: Nothing
Total Loss: 55.8 lbs

The scale is toying with me. I can't make goals. I think we are pretty silly to make goals of 'x lbs to this day' because

1. HCG DOES work. So we will eventually lose the weight if we are on protocol.
2. We will get to our weight at some point, maybe 3 days afterwards.

Because when we put ridged goals on ourselves that are honestly out of our control we set ourselves up for failure.

We can say 'we will work out 3 times a week' and if that is a realistic goal we can do it. We need to learn to set up realistic goals. Things that are workable in our control. We should push ourselves, try for 1 non-cheat day if that is your thing. Take it one day at a time. Challenge yourself to drink a little more water if you need to, or just get to your water. Those things we can ultimately control.

I'm scared now that I won't make it to my goal weight. So I put a goal I looked forward to, but now, I know that I am losing inches like there is no tomorrow, but I put an arbitrary weight goal into effect. Ya, I can fit into clothes I haven't in a long time, yet I'm still bummed by the numbers? Silly.

GOod news- Yesterday was an awesome day. It didn't stop in the afternoon either. So I went and got aligned, the chiropractor told me he knew I was drinking my water because my muscles were all hydrated and that made it easier to adjust me w/ little grunts. Then I tried on a size 3 at Chico's and found the shirt a bit big so I tried on a size 2. This is what my skinny mother wears. I got it on. No way any bottoms would fit. So I went to Lane Bryant. COOL new sizing. I said "I was a size 26 but should be a size 22. She gave me a 'new size 7 and 5' and we would most likely have to hunt for a 6. Well. I found out I fit into a 4. :D These are their new sizes. I wish I could convert it, haven't found an online chart of conversion. But they are also color coded. I am a blue, because my waist is much smaller then my thighs- hence always a wrong fit in pants. Well not this time. I decided to order the slightly pricy pants, but they were on sale!!! So I got away cheap on both items because both was like 50% off.!!!

Then I wore the shirt and went over to my parents to show off. My mom was a bit surprised that her daughter wore the same size shirts as her. We talked about formal wear for the cruise. I fit into several of my mother's things, but if it was button up, it would take losing 2-4 inches in the bust area. Yo, helderheid, I would be happy to give you some of my junk in the front!

So yesterday was a pretty good day, It really was an excellent day. I am bummed that today is no loss, but I'm dealing with TOM. I should hopefully have another great week after my TOM, then deal with ovulation week. Seems I might get 2 good weeks out of this stuff. heh. Normally TOM always produces good losses. But oh well.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

R1P2: Day 92

Weight: 228 lbs
Loss of: .8
Total Loss: 55.8 lbs

Hello All, I hope your all doing good and well in your journey/adventure/goals!

I'm a tiny bit bummed. Okay- A bit worried. IF I lose an average of .2 every day till the cruise I WON'T hit my goal. :( The likely hood of that happening, now that I mention it, greatly. Honestly- in a 'normal' world it would be achievable. Now the stress sets in. I have a goal. I want to meet that goal. I don't want to kill myself eating chicken, fish and onion and tomatoes. Actually I did a double chicken day yesterday because the fish in my meals tasted like poo. There is not much flavor I can right now do with Onion and Fish when you eat it pretty much every day. It gets boring. My husband's chicken and tomato soup is awesome so I eat that every day. Yesterday he made me chicken with cabbage. YUM! Cabbage has never tasted so good.

I don't want to mess up this diet, I don't want to eat the 'wrong' thing, because it seems that if I eat even on protocol things that makes me feel like I stall, but you can stall for 100's of reasons and food not being one of them. :P

Okay- something really funny- apples are 'suppose to make you stall' I hear about people lowering their apples. Yesterday I said screw it to the lowering of apples, and I actually had a decent loss today. heh. :P The two times I lowered my apple intake I got a .2 and a 0 loss. go figure.

anyways. I go get my back adjusted, try on a Chico's Jacket. My mom loves Chico's and I tried one on last night. Her size 2, it ALMOST fit. Top of course. I can fit in their size 3. (THeir personal sizes, not real 'size 2') I'm a XL right now in the top. A 14/16 in Plus sizes. But I'm getting there.

Sometimes I wonder if my bones are plus size so I will never get into anything below a 14. :P But I should be able to. It's my thighs that will determine when. heh.

I love my mom, very protective of her, I felt horrible last night when I told her that I find her personally too thin at 145, she looks so SKINNY!!!! But she recently hit 150, and I was like, " You could lose 5 lbs" to be more comfortable. Okay. The 5 lbs really made her look a lot larger. I think her boobs got bigger and makes her shirts look tighter. It's all about the boobs!! Because her pants look like normal. I love her, and I wouldn't like to say mean things to her. She has done so good watching her wait, to the point of obsession. I think I want her to go on hcg because I hear so many things about lessing the pain in things like arthritis. She has R. arthritis and it's hurting her a lot. She is always in pain. I want that to go away. She is one of the most amazing people I know. She pushes through the pain and does 100's of things per day. Not sure if that feeds her problems, but she manages.


Tuesday, November 10, 2009

R1P2: Day 91

Weight: 228.8 lbs
Loss of: NOTHING
Total Loss: 55 lbs

Gaw! I hate slowing down. I had my TOM yesterday, but it's suspiciously gone today. Hmmm. We will see, I know that I am spotty now that I am on HCG.

I'm taking a HCG day off. I want to see if I can 'jump start' those losses again. I'm sticking to my same ol same ol foods. I didn't eat an apple yesterday because it was late when I got home. I forgot to take one with me as i picked up my parents.

It seemed they noticed a loss. But they were really tired, so I was happy that they noticed something. :)

Apples do not seem to bother me in the weight loss.It seems the last two days I've slowed down on apples are also the days I slowed down on weight. Maybe just a parallel that doesn't go hand in had. No clue now a days.

I hope everyone is having a good day! Take a picture of your Fall in your area and share it on your blog please! I Want to see Fall in your neighborhood. I will do the same. It's so pretty here!!

Monday, November 9, 2009

R1P2: Day 90

Weight: 228.8 lbs
Loss of: 0.2
Total Loss: 55 lbs


Some steam has been let of of my sails. Sigh. .2 loss. Still a loss,yes but not large and big and wonderful. Don't I look a gift horse in the mouth. The only thing I really changed was: I ate onions during the day, and tomatoes at night. I drank most of my water during the evening. I didn't eat much of my apple. Maybe an once? Sigh. I thought I would get more loss if I didn't eat my apple. I should have eaten it, but then I could have gained. Sigh. NO clue.

I have my TOM coming on, but I traditionally lose pretty well during TOM and slow severely down during ovulation.

I'm tired this morning but didn't go to bed too late. Nothing abnormal. I did listen to a guided meditation utube video that is totally awesome. I did this in the bathtub and it was nice, totally relaxed in the tub. Then I decided to do this right at bed time, then switched it over to a nature sound after it was done to finish me off. Did a pretty good job, though my nose got stuffed and I couldn't seem to get in a comfy position. But I feel asleep pretty fast anyways. I normally can take up to 1-2 hours to fall asleep on a good night.

Enjoy: Don't listen to while driving. Though you shouldn't be reading while your driving either.

Sunday, November 8, 2009

R1P2: Day 89

Weight: 229 lbs
Loss of: 1.2
Total Loss: 54.8 lbs

Morning Folks!

I am feeling pretty good right now. I can't help but wonder when the 'bad day' will happen to take a little energy out of my step, but I have to ride the high right now. I can't let a possible bad day ruin my good days. :)

I didn't get a chance to eat my apple last night, though I did use 2 slices in my dinner. I had a lot of onions and then choppped up 2 slices of apple into it and cooked it. Mmmmmm. All over a piece of cod w/ some mustard.

Yesterday was a LOT of fun. Mystery upon Mystery for the game. My friends were happy too. It's nice when everything is just set for fun, and that fun was had. I had a friend that we see only every 2 weeks try my soup. He enjoyed it, but was surprised that a secret ingredient was mustard.

I had to get vitamins yesterday, but got the wrong kind. They had soybean oil in them. :( But I strutted around the store in my boots! :) I can't get over how awesome those boots are.

I am trying to take nightly baths, and so far so good. I read blogs but then I turn on some meditation music and stretch and breath and meditate a little bit. I think I did the whole thing too quickly. I imaged I was washing weight off of me. I realize when I get some good momentum I get superstitious. If X worked, then X will work all the time, and it's responsible for my success. I did do only 10 minutes of exercise yesterday. I didn't want to do any more really. I realized something, when I feel like I "HAVE" to exercise, I start to hate it. I love walking for the sake of walking around, I love playing Wii games because they are fun and oh, I have some exercise.. but the moment my body realizes I "HAVE" to do it or I feel 'forced' to do it, all bets are off. My body drudges through games I used to love. I told the hubby I would rather do tennis w/ him again. But my upper arm did need a break.

I was thinking of Simeones manual and the foods he allows. I wonder why only 3.5, though we do seem to do okay on 4oz. Also- size of fruit. He doesn't have a size alotment for fruit. What were apples sizes in his day? I know it seems we go for a larger fruit if we see it. I feel really good about our current bought apples. They are much smaller and seem more reasonably in line w/ what the Dr. S ordered.

Saturday, November 7, 2009

R1P2: Day 88

Weight: 230.2 lbs
Loss of: .8
Total Loss: 53.6 lbs
Body Fat: 46.3% <--margin of error perhaps?


Okay. After getting FABulous boots, doing the sexy walk in public, getting hit on in my dreams, this day is doing well. I did tell the guy in my dreams that I was married, but that I thanked him for wanting to hit on me. He was nice. heh. I like to see constant losses above the .6 mark. 5.8 lbs in 7 days. YEAY! Best week ever!!

I'm going more strict protocol. I would eat celery at night, nope not now. I eat about 4 oz of protien though. Not sure if I should. Was reading Melissa's blog and saw how she noticed various things. She is very specific about hitting her 500 calorie mark. Here I feel I want to reduce. How many of you folks feel like you lose more weight when you hit the 500 calories? I will work on upping my veggies a bit. OH and I eat a whole apple, I'm going to try to limit it to 3.5 oz as well. I don't think that the Apple is causing weight slow down. I love Strawberries, but this diet sort of put an end to that. I think what happened was I was making smoothies w/ them, and I perfer a nice fresh strawberry, but fresh go bad in a couple days.

I took a bath yesterday and finished reading blogs. I was like.. What.. no more blogs to read. I got caught up? NOooo, what will I ever do? Oh, I could stretch and meditate. I put my ipod to a meditation sound and sat there. I breathed, and I tried some "ommmmm" and Oh MY! That was amazing. I really felt my body relax saying "ommmmm" It totally surprised me. I loved it. Then I took my hands and imagined to wash off pounds from my skin and point it to the drain saying "pounds and ounces I release you from my body, to the drain with you!" Then I stretched my muscles... and then I realized something I haven't done in a while.. My inner parts of my leg were touching. My ankle was touching, my side calfs where touching. If you were fat enough you will know that this was huge! Very HUGE! I could actually 'put the bottom parts of my legs' next to each other. So when the tiny little fitness instructor says 'put your legs together' I CAN! Normally I wasn't able to do this. HA!

I altered my pants this morning so it shows off the boot more. They look a little altered, I think I need to resew a line w/ that yellow thread they use on the pants. I used a brown to not draw attention down there, maybe it should have. anyways. They look awesome because now they aren't so schlepping on the ground!

Today we get together w/ some friends to play a little table top role-playing. It's a modern day mystery with some elements of suspense thrown in. It's been loads of fun! It's like 5pm roles around and I am not ready for the fun to stop! It's great to 'play pretend' as an adult in moderation. I just haven't grown out of it.

I found out from one of my friends, a wife who married one of the guys I game with, that he had come home saying I looked great. That was a boost. He hasn't told that to me yet, and we will see if he does, maybe he feels awkward but he is such a nice guy he might not want to hurt my feelings? No clue. I'm actually surprised that a couple friends I haven't seen since last year didn't mention anything. His wife got the stomach 'taken out' surgery, and she has sagging skin and I'm not sure if she is continuing to lose weight. She looks much better then before but still has simular weight as last year. Same went for another friend I knew who did lose all the weight w/ the surgery, but she lifted her shirt to show me her sagging stomach. I swear, for the 15k they should thrown in a tuck for free if you actually reach your goal weight. I've been luckly- no real saggy skin, though I have to say, now w/ my arms thinner, my 'droops' look more droopy. That will go away as I lose the last of my fat in the arms. I really wish I could put in an order w/ the hcg - "Yo, Hcg, can we focus on losing weight in the thighs this week? please? Just 1 size. Then go back to regular programing!" Sigh.

Today is a real Fall day. I'm actually enjoying it a bit. Well I am off to go clean up the living room. With the new couch/sectionals everyone has their own comfy 38 inches for their butt! :) Mmmmm comfy.

Friday, November 6, 2009

quick update- front picture

This was taken a while ago on the left, today on the right. I was amazed at the difference that I just wanted to share w/ you all!

I am so into boots right now that I decided to buy another pair BUT with HEELS!!!! (Did I get the spelling right?) I wore them into the grocery store. WHOA. Never had heals in YEARS! But it was awesome. The husband said I had a sexy walk and he was turned on by the 'click, click, click.' sound. He said that it was synonymous w/ sexy. I even would walk in front of the cart to show him my sexy! Boy did that make me feel good. I even have a new coat because the previous ones are just TOO big!

I'm loving today! I want a repeat day! I also did 35 minutes of Tennis on the Wii. It was fun to be a team w/ the husband. Not as much of a work out but still worked my arm. It was sore this morning.

okay maybe not so quick update! heh.

quick update: Ref. 71

Ref 71 passed

So it seems that Washington Voters have actually passed the bill! YEAY! Let the champagne pour over and every family be together!

I think it's still a ways away from true equality, but it definably is in the right direction!


We are loud, We are proud and we pass laws that make sense!!

R1P2: Day 87

Weight: 231 lbs
Loss of: 1.4
Total Loss: 52.8 lbs
Body Fat: 46.1%

Today starts out well because I lost 1.4 lbs and personally, that makes me very happy. I have lost 5 lbs this month so far. More at this point then other months.

I want to lose 10.4 more lbs before Dec 5th (the cruise). We do have Thanksgiving in the way.

I played on the Wii for 45 minutes yesterday. I played Tennis (my arm HURTS right now), 3 holes of golf and bowling. I kick ass at bowling! My husband kicks my ass at Tennis. It's nice we both have our games. I think if I do a lower body workout the next day that I can let my arm rest, and get a full body work out over all. Though I know I will play Tennis today because it was SO much fun!

So, A little bit about me. I am a 35 yr old woman who is married, have 1 kid, no plans for a 2nd. We enjoy our small family. I enjoy gaming - Table top like DnD and Shadowrun - and computer games- Sims, World of Warcraft, Lord of the Rings. I love walking, I love sewing. I have made some quilts and have several I want to do. I do some web design. I quit a big corporate company to go back to school to do my first love- Film. I have made some short films for school. I have one about my pregnancy named "Made from Scratch" that I'm very proud of. I sew dice bags (or really to hold any smaller items) to make some money. I live in the same town I grew up since I was 3. My parents live less than a mile away. I was born in Germany and we all immigrated to America. Except for my parents/brothers and my Aunt in California all family lives in Germany still and I don't nearly go over there as often as I would like. I have not seen under 200lbs since 1998. I have the 'thin girl in a fat body' image. I do realize now I'm fat, and have for the last several years. It doesn't bother me as much as it should have. I was told by the doctor that my pancreas was going to stop working if I didn't change my lifestyle. That was my wake up call to thin down.
I have a lot of interests that I can't be nailed down in one stereotype. Very multi-dimensional. I love Sci-fi, action, and chick flicks. In fact I love critiquing movies. I do have fun at a stupid movie saying what problems they have. I love yelling at the tv on a live show and telling the camera men to adjust their camera angles. That does bring me joy. Not the 'being mean part' but finding little glitches. Sort of like a puzzle to figure out. "Where is waldo" thing. I love puzzles. I love finding problems and fixing them. I love making things better. My husband doesn't think I should love that as much when I focus it on him. ;) heh.

I'm an emotional person. I love to talk and be around be just as much as I like to stay home. I love going to Mexico in the Spring. I would move down there in a second! I took a couple classes to speak Spanish, but I do so much better when submerged. I love talking Spanish with the guys at the Mexican Restaurants. So far most don't mind. I'm sure they shake their heads and say "Gringo" under their breath, though I got the BEST compliment when I walked into a Mexican Market nearby. The woman who owns the little Tienda only talked Spanish, so I stumbled through it for the most part. She asked if I was married to a Spanish man. :) Felt good. I love feeling good. I don't seem to give myself enough props that I go looking for it outside of myself.
A day can be made or broken just by the comments I get. If the scale treats me nice, I feel good. If someone says 'hello' I feel good. If I get a negative comment, I feel bad. Even getting a hug or a shrug from my 3yr old can pull my day.

I'm complex like I feel all of us are. We love various things that can't go into a box that people can say "oh, she is this type of person" and I won't fit myself into a box. I've always been a bit 'different' as my mom puts it. heh. She is very traditional, but when you start digging into her mind, you realize a complex person is in there, yet sometimes scared to come out and be zany. She once, in order to show us that she can have a 'good time', pushed all the buttons at a hotel. We told her you had to do that AFTER you got out of the elevator. I got so sick by the time we got to our floor. :P She tries. Her maturing age, I think, is helping her relax. I love my parents. I am VERY protective over my mom though. I never was a 'maternal' person, but for some reason I become a pitbull if I feel my mom is getting bullied by someone. It's who I am.

So, I rambled on about who I am. I'm all over the board w/ who I am. And I know I left out bits. For god sake, I'm 35 years old and have done things in my life! I've traveled many roads to be where I am today. For the most part, I think I am content. Yes I am losing weight and I deal with occational or daily struggles, but that is life. I really think, no, I know I really enjoy where I am today over all.

As in the words of Nikki- Have a wonderful day losing or maintaining! :)