R2P2: Day 46

Weight: 196.2 lbs
Loss of: 1.6 lb today
Total Loss: 27.6 lb
Total over all 87.6

Morning Folks!

So I'm releasing fat at an amazing rate this week. I think my body is apologizing for the stall by these amazing losses. :) YEAY!

I have about 5-6 bags I put on my front porch of fat clothes and some baby clothes (from my son) that ARC picked up today. Purging is good! I have a bathtub we do not use up stairs. I have decided to use it as my 'get rid of' place so I can close the doors and Not look at it, but then just grab bags and fill them up. I put towels, clothes, books, anything that will 'get OUT of my house'. Also one less bathtub to use and have to have cleaned. :) heh. I have started using this bathroom as my bathroom and let my husband have his own. We have two full bathrooms upstairs. We just don't need that. We have one downstairs (but a guest bath). Anywho.

So last night I had cod smothered in a mustard with cauliflower. Pretty good. I would rather bake it with tomatoes and basil like my brother in law did. He is on the diet and already fits into pants that have been aluding him! :) YEAY HIM! He has 30 lbs he wants to lose. One observation he has made- this diet he is not losing in his face right away. All I can tell him is that in past diets he must have been losing structural fat or something. My face didn't get 'BAM" thinner... but it was in stages. I do see my face now and feel it's weird and too thin. NOt ghost thin, but you can see my cheak bones. I will need a picture to show you. I don't like it totally. I never minded a slightly plumper face. LOL. My face looks so long now. Which makes haircuts nicer.

This diet sure takes its time with problem areas, but it's an equal opportunity protocol. It takes all over the place giving us an even look. Makes the whole process look very natural. It's nice. My thighs are going down nicely! :) I haven't worn my jeans in a week. (Buming around the house in baggier pants) I'm curious how they will look on me, in the past pre-diet I was scared on not trying on pants for a week, normally I would outgrow them a little. :P Always hated the washer/dryer. Now I put them in to get more wear out of the pants! :) LOL

anywho. Have a wonderful day in your phase doing what you need to do! :)

R2P2: Day 45

Weight: 197.8 lbs
Loss of: 1 lb today
Total Loss: 26 lb
Total over all 86

Hello Ladies,

I think I am out of my slump. I was losing inches but not pounds and now I am losing pounds! YEay!

This last week has been a bit stressful. Our house feels a bit more in order so I can deal. I have some things I need done on my plate. I just need to finish things and take the time. I just lake motivation lately. No clue why, but I do.

I sewed a bunch of dice bags this week for the win! :) heh. I now I have to update a clients website. I need time for that, and I haven't found it as much as I wanted. But I need to get it done!

I have 'explored' a bit more with my food. I have done a quick dish of tuna or chicken in a can with tomatoes and mustard. Oh my that is good. Fast and easy and tasty! :) A winning combo.

I have wonderful arms again. I loved my arms. they always got so thin but I look at them from the side and I see the droop. Toning will take that away I know, but It is still there to observe. heh.

Off to take some time working on the website. Talk to you gals later. Thanks for being here with me. Sorry I haven't read much of other blogs lately. My ipod app is broken and doesn't let me read your blogs. It is much harder for me to sit at my computer and read them. :( But I will make the effort. I"m sorry I'm so far behind lately! :P

R2P2: Day 43

Weight: 199.2 lbs
Loss of: 1.4 lb today
Total Loss: 24.6 lb
Total over all 84.6

So I broke into Onderland!!

now everyone be really quiet. Lets not scare that away!

I've been stuck at 200.6 for forever! okay, maybe a week, but it felt forever!

So we will see. I've been putting my head in the sand lately. I've been unmovitated in various areas, but I have dumped several bags of size 26 clothes to the curb for ARC organization to pick up! :) I'm trying to empty the house.

I need to sew bags though.

I hope my mood picks up now that I am hopefully on a downward loss! :)

R2P2: Day 39

Weight: 200.6 lbs
Loss of: 0 lb today
Total Loss: 23.2 lb
Total over all 83.2

4th verse same as the first? heh.

So ya, Same wait for the 4th day! :P I think I am sitting here for a while. This has to be a past set point. Only down point of the diet it seems. HEHE.

I'm almost done with my drops, but I have another bottle that I will be taking up till my vacation. I think I will be off HCG for 2 weeks this time. I can deal with that.

I am noticing that my body is shrinking, though the numbers are not. Did you notice this too when you hit a past weight?

We cleaned the rooms yesterday. The couch is moved in the corner w/ the tv. It's very cute. There is a lot of junk stuff, but the furniture it moved, now I can go in and declutter.

Lavender- I'm happy you mentioned it. I think It came to me when you wrote that post! :) I got too scared to get rid of it, we might move in the next year, and I could use that couch in the family room. I want a living room and family if possible! :)

I was sewing like a mad woman yesterday as well. I got my 2 special orders finished, and then I have a bunch of 1/2 finished bags that just need the lip hemmed over.

I have a friend who's wife needs a dress. I'm looking forward to making a dress for her, and bonding with her. I play online video games with my husband and a bunch of friends. I want to get to know the wifes as well!! They don't geek out like I do. SIGH. I wish more would, we do have a couple wifes that play, but not enough! heh.

I didn't want to be bummed about my lack of loss but this is ridiculous. I think what is going on is that I wonder "What am I doing wrong?" but I'm not, so it's the weight that is currently stuck. But I feel like it's my fault somehow. Maybe I shouldn't eat burger. Maybe I should ... I don't know. hehe. I said I would enjoy burger this time because it started to get a bit chicken chicken chicken for me. Heh.

anyways. It will happen soon! It will. Wish me luck!

quick update: Take care of yourselves

Hey guys,

I was sitting and thinking. My mom got a huge health scare this week, but the check up found out that she is fine.

It made me think today, what if she was sick? What if she was going to die soon? I would miss her and I don't want her to die.

Which got me thinking. We don't really take good care of ourselves do we? Many of us on the diet are taking control and finally getting healthier, but I'm a daughter who will lose their mother one day. She takes fairly good care of herself for the most part. She has made it a goal to see my son graduate. So that motivates her.

I think of myself and what I put in my body and I go, my son will feel the same fears of losing a mother one day. I want to be there as long as possible for him.

I think we should all realize, it's not just ourselves that we need to be healthy for, but those people who love us, children or mates. Good friends. The neighbor who enjoys meeting you at the mailbox. Your death will leave a hole in this world.

If you don't take care of yourself for you, then think of those around you. Let that motivate you to live one more year longer.

Go to the your doctor, may it be a naturalpath or western typical. Maybe it be blood work, or mammogram. Make sure you keep your mental wellness in check as well. It's not fun to just have a body sitting in a wheel chair when you can't communicate with the person! So it's the whole package deal folks!

Please, keep yourself aware of your body, mind and soul! :)

R2P2: Day 38

Weight: 200.6 lbs
Loss of: .8 lb today
Total Loss: 23.2 lb
Total over all 83.2

3rd verse, same as the 2nd and 1st. :P GAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW

I'm going to be stuck here for the rest of my life!!!!! Okay, for the next week. I am SERIOUSLY being teased! I mean. this is a monumental moment to get under. To be in ... ONEDERLAND! (I LOVE that) But NOoooooo. My body says "Wait for it.... Wait for it...." I"m waiting!!!

I forgot to eat yesterday for the most part. heh. I noticed I hadn't consumed anything at 2pm, then I realized with a start "oh crap, I forgot the hcg" So I took a day off from the hcg to see if I can kick start this diet again. :P
I ate late, drank late and went to bed pretty late.

So today is hcg again and a small cheat. I realize that small cheats are getting me to get lower. :P but I won't make that a habit. hehe.

btw: I got a hair cut! :) I Feel 100000X's better. It's 3 inches shorter from long to medium long. I love it. I got it layered and frames my face. Very nice. I'm happy with it.

Though I am not changing on the scale, I do notice that my body is getting smaller. My clothes are fitting better. I look thinner. So I know I am losing inches.

Off to eat and drink! I can't forget. and I won't because I woke up a bit peckish.

R2P2: Day 36

Weight: 200.6 lbs
Loss of: .8 lb today
Total Loss: 23.2 lb
Total over all 83.2

Hey Folks,

I wasn't going to let the scale get me down, but it is. This has been a hard week for me. I hate being sick. I hate feeling drained. I hate feeling overwhelmed.

The house has gotten to be a total mess. When we redid the floors we moved some furniture upstairs. It is still upstairs taking space. It seems like I live in a total mess, and any time I get headway, the next 'big thing' happens to make my house a mess.

I don't need Martha steward, but I just need organized and clean. I hate that my kid gets popcorn and he feels this need to dump it allllll over. SIGH! Then I get to clean it up.
I hate that I clean up the kitchen till it sparkles, and then it gets messed up by the next morning.

I'm tired. I'm just drained and tired right now. The cold has wiped me. I'm drained when I see the house a mess, and I know I need to get it picked up to feel better. I'm going to look for another cleaning lady. They always 'reset' the house so I feel less overwhelmed and can move forward.
I have a couch that my mom gave me. Expensive nice couch. But it's not fitting into our livestyle anymore. It's a little worn from years of use, and a child. It's not a bad couch, but nothing I would 'sell' because it's not in mint condition. So I want to give it away. But I am so hung up on my mom spending so much money on that stupid couch. It would be a shame just to give it away, but it's taking up 1/2 a bedroom because it doesn't fit in the living room anymore.

Okay- I am just overwhelmed, tired and drained. I'm taking things one at a time. I have a laundry list of things i need to do. Today its cut my fabric to sew bags for a store that buys my bags for dice bags. I need to do that. It's not only some money for me, but it is also inventory they need. Tomorrow I will sew them. I need to write a list of all the 'todo's and get a plan. Just too much to do!

quick OMG moment! - I've got his pants!

So, I thought for Shoot's and Giggles I would try on my husbands size 38 pants. We wanted to give them away so who cares right. Let me try them on. He is now sitting at a size 34.

THEY FIT! THEY REALLY FIT!
Those freaking pants actually fit me. Normally I would have had to sewn both pant holes together to fit one of my thighs. I was totally freaked out by this. In a good way.

I'm trying to clean up his "PILE" of clothes. We found a shirt he gave me for Xmas but I didn't fit into anymore. Size XXL t-shirt with Foamy the Squirrel logo. Well, that thing can now become a tent for me!

I miss out on having a piece of outfit to 'try' to fit into every 2-3 weeks. Everything fits me now. I had gotten rid of all my under size 18. Dresses, pants, my high school clothes I finally gave up on. Sigh. They were SO freaking awesome! You know the kind- the cool tights with the BIG sweaters. :D I'm a early 90's girl.
anywho. New clothes! :) MOve on!

But it's nice to have those little jewels. I even grabbed a shirt my mother had given me to cut up. It was a size 12. I can fit into that. I just need to go to goodwill and spend a hard earned 4 dollars on a few things I can 'fit into' before I just give it back to them. ;) I even fit in my my mom's size 2 Chico's shirt she gave me. FREEDOM!

anyways. I was so freaking blown away by the pants I had to share: Size 38 x 34. That is what I wear in a Mans pant! :)

R2P2: Day 36

Weight: 200.6 lbs
Loss of: .8 lb today
Total Loss: 23.2 lb
Total over all 83.2


MOrning folks.

I think I have finished the path of ick. I go to the doctors today. I feel better today, just a bit tired from waking up earlier then I want.

My son gets to go on a train with oma and opa today. Their way of doing something with him and babysitting while I go to the doctor.

So I was frustrated with losing nothing on the antibiotics so I decided to take 2 proboitics yesterday and a slice of cheese. I couldn't take it anymore. I was like "If I won't lose being so good, I'm eating cheese!"

It's a cheat, but at the same time I'm doing good with eating a bit of cheese to get some real fat into my body. Sounds weird I bet, but I am so scared of the gall bladder attacking me again I think I do the cheats for that purpose.
It doesn't help that these cheats seem to get me lower on the scale. I am, though, definatly, losing inches. I fit better in my clothes, especially the shirts.

By far, the 2nd round has been the hardest. I crave things more then I did the first round. I also realize around the 40th day I go bonkers for food on top of it.

I ate 2 apples yesterday because I got hungry in the afternoon and I have stopped eating fruit in the morning. Sigh. No clue why, just don't. I realized in the after noon being so freaking hungry that I should eat something and I had an extra fruit. I think 2 apples is a bit much, but they are cheap and easy to deal with. I don't like frozen strawberries as much. I don't like frozen fruit for that matter I realized. I will tolerate and have a smoothy from time to time, but honestly- fresh is where it is at! They taste 100 times better. All my grape fruit is sitting in the garage getting over ripe. :P I hate that. I hate wasting food so I will find the best ones. :)

Well, the kid wants to play on 'mommy's computer' so I will stop blabbing and get some work done around the house till I need to leave. :) I always get in trouble with the time when I blog. :) heh.

R2P2: Day 33
Weight: 201.4 lbs
Loss of: .2 lb today
Total Loss: 22.4 lb
Total over all 82.4

Second Verse, Same as the first.

So two days sitting at 201.8, now the 2nd day of sitting at 201.4. SiGH!

I blame the antibiotics. :P But I do feel a lot better!

So, I will be taking 1 mroe day of the antibiotics and then its off for a dose of probotics. :D YEAY! My tummy will feel MUCH better! :)

My cold is waning. I'm feeling better than craptastic now! :) My son has been really good for a 3year old through this process.

It's funny, I bought some more costco underware in size Large 2 weeks ago, now I seem to be ready for Medium!

Another cool thing- my mom is thin. She wears a size 14 bathing suit. She is much taller than me, so it's expected. By the Mexico trip I should be just fine for my size 14 bathing suit! WOOT! I can put it on, but it's a Tiny bit too small. 20 lbs will do wonders! If I can ever get there. SIgh. I will. We will see how it goes after I get probotics in my system.

anywho. Did I tell you my asparagus recipe? I normally would take a powered packet of asparagus soup out of my cupboard and heat it in water, but not for p2. So I was sad because you can't get the soup in America, so we always get them from Mexico or Germany.
Now I take a serving of asparagus, a serving of chicken, cut it all up in a mixing bowl, fill it up with water and microwave it. (Read: Lazy) Then after about 7 to 8 minutes I try the asparagus to see if it is done. Then blend it (careful! hot stuff!) and EAT! mmmmmmmm. It was a little watery tonight, but just put less water, but I usee the stuff I boil the asparagus in. :) enjoy!

okay. :) Take care folks!

R2P2: Day 31

Weight: 201.8 lbs
Loss of: 1.2 lb today
Total Loss: 22 lb
Total over all 82

I'm feeling craptastic! :)

Antibotics. Neti pot 2x a day. Sleeping while laying up. Not comfy but at least it gives my ears a chance to drain.

My right ear seems less clogged, thus doing better. My left ear feels more clogged and thus is doing worse. SIGH!

I will be trying some vinegar in the ears, and doing the oil thing as suggested. I would rather do these things, but with ears I get so sensitive and head for antibotics though new studies show you shoulnd't. :P Old habits die hard!

I had a movement today and the scale went UP! :P Someone needs to train that scale that that is NOT the way it works! If you eliminate you go DOWN! heh.

anywho.

R2P2: Day 30

Weight: 201.8 lbs
Loss of: 1.2 lb today
Total Loss: 22 lb
Total over all 82

My cold has moved from my brain into my face. :( I have been gifted with infection in both ears. My doctor is prescribing, blech, antibiotics. :( I will have my pro-botic on hand!

I've been using the neti pot today, plus took a claritin D to help decongest me a bit. My ears are a mess, my drain pipes don't work. I need to, after I get better, really pursue this. My chiropractor has worked on opening me up, as has my doctor. Nothing seems to work. I think they are tiny and don't work. My ears always feel plugged.

any ideas for home remedies for unplugging ears?

I hate being sick! :( But on the bright side, I did lose some today.
I took 1 day off from the hcg, but continue to eat the 500. Then the next day you go back onto the hcg and have a decent 'cheat'. So I had .88 ounces of cheese and a small teaspoon of peanut butter at the end of the day with my apples. Mmmmm. Happy Steffi! :)

Take care all! Please keep yourselves healthy or on the way to recovery if you got this bad cold!

R2P2: Day 30

Weight: 203 lbs
Loss of: .2 lb today
Total Loss: 20.8 lb
Total over all 80.8

The same. Sigh. I did eat some extra chicken last night because I was WAY hungry. I only took 1 day off from hcg. I'm sticking with it till the end of February for my 2nd 'one week off' for Mexico.

Good news: My husband can come to Mexico. Now to buy him a ticket with our mileage! :D yeay me! Yeay my husband! :)

I'm feeling like crap still. I tried the warm wet socks and warm dry socks under warm blankets, but my blankets wouldn't be nice to me. Every time I moved the socks would feel so COLD! I think it worked a little, I took them off at 5am after going to bed at around 1am. I was SO HUNGRY and miserable that I ate 5 oz of grapefruit and a cup of warm tea water. I think that is why I also didn't lose.

I'm developing a pregnancy bump in front because my sides have gone down so much. I LOOK fatter because my tummy in front is all by it's self. No side fat to make it look thinner! :)

Thank you new posters. I appreciate your feedback and that I can help or inspire or pass along something you might not have heard. I also love my old posters too! I have grown to enjoy you guys as a family! I look forward to seeing encouraging words. I look forward to finding out what you all are up to! I might be the lazy niece/aunt in the back but I do get off my butt once in a while!

okay- I'm off to drink more tea and take a couple asprin. Maybe some more resting on couch will help!

R2P2: Day 29

Weight: 203 lbs
Loss of: .2 lb today
Total Loss: 20.8 lb
Total over all 80.8

My head cold is worse. I can breath, but I plan on using christy's advice w/ the socks tonight. I totally forgot last night after I was already snug in bed.

I took my vitamins. I will take a b-12 again and maybe a cranberry pill.

I am not taking hcg today because low losses for the last 3 days. Then tomorrow a small cheat. Should help speed things up again.

Laters!

R2P2: Day 28

Weight: 203.2 lbs
Loss of: .4 lb today
Total Loss: 20.6 lb
Total over all 80.6


You know what sort of sucks. Losing 80 lbs and having a candid 'on an event' picture taken of you and you still look fatter then you feel. heh. :P

I got a headcold and today is the big 'ikcy' feeling day. I took: 1 asprin, my 2 multi-vitamin, potassium, and a B-12. I will take some cayenne pepper pills later to help. I also used the Neti-pot to clear out my nose a little. Still feel pretty miserable. :P But will manage.

I was spending too much time over at Christy in Seattle's blog. ;) hehe JUST JOKING! I think I got it either from my mother or running errands. I blame my period and low immune system. I also wasn't good at taking my vitamines. :P Sigh.

I made some chicken broth soup. The chicken tastes very broken apart, but the broth is most excellent!

I'm going to get maxiumum rest and pump myself reasonably with vitamins and b-12.
Any other symtom drowning ideas/advice would be welcome! I know we can't get rid of the cold, but I don't mind getting rid of the crappy feeling. :)

Tomorrow if I don't lose more then .5 I will be taking a day off per my doctors request. She said if I loss less then .5 for 3 days that I take a day off from hcg, do the 500 VLCD, then go back onto hcg the day after and have a cheat. Not a whole pie cheat, but eat a piece of cheese sort of cheat. Maybe add a boiled egg. mmmmm. I think this will kick start me.
I know that I can do this once a week if need be. I don't think I care about the loss so much as being able to cheat. :P THis round has been really focused on the 'don't cheat now steff'. This round has been harder in my willpower. My first round wasn't this tough. I mean cheats like - oh, I would love a hot dog like i used to have.

We used to do that in the house, and my husband did it this weekend. Got hot dog buns, and would make a hot dog with ketchup. I would cover it with mustard. I never liked ketchup for it's sugar. And then a side of Frito's. I miss that, and I didn't even know it. It was so trivial at the time. A food to make when we were having a family lazy day at home. mmmmmmmmmm. I miss that. I will have that on my next break. Maybe have hot dogs for lunch in Mexico. mmmmmm. heh.

We are still working on getting the husband along. His boss is out today. :S When he is wanted the most. heh.

My brother in law is going to start the diet. He is on a medication. I have to find out if he talked to his doctor, but has anyone known of medication messing with hcg, or vis versa? I adviced him to go to this doctor, we will see what the doctor said, if the guy even knew about hcg. I don't want to set up my brother in law for something bad. I am not on meds, nor was my husband. I have friends that are not on meds either so it's easy to say 'read the manual and learn' We did a lot of talking and we talked often till it was old hat for us all. I'm still learning things.

anyways. Talk later. Off to go finish my soup and hide under a blanket reading a good book. :) or doze. heh

R2P2: Day 27

Weight: 203.6 lbs
Loss of: 1 lb today
Total Loss: 20.2 lb
Total over all 80.2

No movement on the scale. I did take a smallllll bite of my husbands pizza yesterday because I was dying w/o food. I had a serious sugar crash. Tiny bite did help. SO I attribute it to that. Yes, a cheat, but we were no where around for good food. I should have gotten a salad with chicken while at Costco, but thought I could make it home. heh.

THough I bet I wouldn't have lost even if I did eat that. I didn't get all my water in and no losses are bound to happen.

I've been so focused on moving forward and adding to my total weight, that I forget to look at how I am really doing this time. Wow. 20 lbs so far. That is pretty impressive over all to me and I am totally seeing my body become thinner. It's nice.

I don't feel so ROUND anymore. I'm short so I become more round. heh.

We watched a movie, my husband and I. I ate before hand this time, I also brought in a grape fruit, but I wasn't going to bring in my water bottle nor was I going to pay 3 dollars for water. I was thirsty but had a good dose of water before I went in. All in all we saved ourselves 100 bucks ;) LOL. We didn't buy soda or popcorn. We had been getting use to buying water for 2.50 and the kids popcorn and candy box. I get the popcorn and the hubby gets the candy. I don't really enjoy candy as I do popcorn. I LOVE popcorn. Sigh. No popcorn for me. We even moved to an air popper because I started eating micro-popcorn every night. Expensive after a while in both wallet and health. There is crap in the popcorn stuff, and you can control butter/salt ratio yourself on air popped. I miss it. Sigh. My favorite nightly snack. HUGE bowl of popping corn w/ a little butter on top. Maybe some salt.

It's funny, I never know what I will write in these blogs, and I amuse myself where they end up. It's like, wow. I wrote a lot about popcorn.

Wish our household a little luck that my husband will be able to go on vacation!

I am hoping to reach 180 before that vacation! My stupid arbitrary goal. It will just keep me on the strait and narrow though. I will totally take whatever comes. I just want to fit better in the size 14 swimsuit and all.

Well, off to my mother's for dinner of roasted cauliflower and chicken. OH I will share my REAL asparagus and chicken soup. Mmmmm

R2P2: Day 26

Weight: 203.6 lbs
Loss of: 1 lb today
Total Loss: 20.2 lb
Total over all 80.2

Hello All,

So I bought a size 14 swimsuit at Costco. :D I can fit into it!! I am too big for it, but in 30 lbs I should be good. They won't have the suits in a couple months so I thought i would.

I have lost 80 lbs so far! YEAY!

I'm tired and grouchy and I stood up for myself a bit too much at the store today. We were in the self check out. A lady cut in line, I got a bit loud on it, and she and her husband gave us a look. I was like, um your rude to cut in line, please get back into your line. She said it was too slow. Then I told her that she choose to cut in front of us on the slow line and needs to not cut in front of me again!

One of those self check out lanes at Walmart, 2 on one side, and 2 on the other side. You stand in the middle and wait. She and her husband just cut on the right side. We made slightly elevated "I can't believe that" remarks to each other (me and the 2 other people she cut in front) then when that line was too slow she moved over to the left side. We were agast. I said something, I got nasty looks from her. :P I had people behind me actually talk loudly about 'Oh my god, what is that lady doing' and when I turned around and apologized they were like "No, good for you, we are talking about the line cutter" heh. I was so upset that i had to walk out and let my husband finish the purchase. The lady wouldn't even leave after the clerk asked her to get back on her side.

I realized, I am tired of being taken advantage of, or have people do the 'wrong thing' and then get upset when I call it out. Like my friend saying things about my son and if I tell him to be more reserved, he would get upset at me standing up for myself. WHY WHY WHY do people get upset when others stand up for themsevles? What is wrong witht he world?

Ya, maybe I should have kept my mouth shut, but it was so infurating. I'm not having a good week am I? hehe.

But my losses make up for it!

I did stay up till 3am watching movies though. It was fun. I started Bleak HOuse. WOW that is a cool show. realized it was long at around 2:30, I would have stayed up later if it wasn't for my son waking up. I went up there to check on him, and I fell asleep. heh. anywho.

Sorry I have been posting such bitchy posts lately. I'm doing okay over all. Like any sane person I need sleep and food. (Oh, it was 3:30 at the time and I hadn't eaten all day except for 3 slices of grapefruit and a bite of chicken at home around 11am. :P Not good on this diet to go out on errands when you haven't had lunch. :P

But I'm totally stoked for the swimsuit AND my husband is going to try to get the time off if possible. I told him It wouldn't be a family vacation with out him. I would miss him too much. I want him to be a part of this whole adventure! Also a wife in a sexy swimsuit! hehe.

R2P2: Day 25

Weight: 204.6 lbs
Loss of: 1.4 lb today
Total Loss: 19.2 lb
Total over all 79.2


Morning,
I've been bored of eating. I would love a pill that just makes me satisfied. heh. My husband has gone back to work and is gone a good portion of the day (12 hours) and our son isn't dealing well over all with that. He won't go to bed easily. Serious Seperation Anxiety. I don't know what is the best gentle way to dealing with this. Do we just give him a lot of daddy time when he is home or try to limit it even further to get him to calm out? Should daddy put him to bed or should I?

This morning was really good, last night putting little guy to bed was not. It didn't help that I had a friend over that was all "He's three right..." and sort of tried to imply a lot. He has called my son a brat in the past and it really gets my blood boiling. I try to explain but it doesn't get through. Our son has some bratty attitudes, but I'm sorry, our kid won't turn off like some robot nor does our child get put into a box like a yappy dog. He is a freaking kid. I know my friend is upset in a way that we had a kid because it disrupts his way of life with us. :S Oh well. He is though, complicated enough that it's not just cut and dry. He has moments where he really interacts well with our son and for the most part, our son gets sad when he leaves.
It's just a stress for me because everyone has a strong opinion (read into that- a serious 'you better do this for me' ) of what we should be doing with our son. Dont give him that, do give him that, oh, he should have this skill already, oh he should be doing that. Leave me and my son alone, and let my family - daddy, mommy and child - deal with how we are going to deal with this. If you don't like what we are doing, your more then welcome not to come over, your more then welcome to not have him at your home. I respect that. But he is such a good kid. He is polite, he says thank you, and please. He is very curious and detailed. He is already a bit OC, granted. He plays SO amazing with stranger kids in play areas. He is very gentle with kids he see's as younger than him. If reminded to share he will gladly give his toy to the younger kids, though he does get a bit defensive about older kids. I don't blame him, every time we are in the children's museum the older kids try to grab all the trains from him. No one really plays with him at the playground, but he tries. God that breaks my heart. To have two older kids ignore my son, yet this little guy chases them and tries to partake. He is NOT a bad kid and I wish people would just BACK OFF! Yes, he gets a LOT of love from us, and that sometimes means he gets a little more from us. he gets to stay up later because it works for all of us in the family. No he is not poddy trained because I haven't figured it out. Yes he uses the poddy when asked, he actually can sit on the big poddy by himself.

I guess I am protective of me and my family and I get grumpy when people want something for my son that I really don't think he needs. He has so many amazing qualities and it's my right to mess him up! I don't need help! heh.

I'm doing okay over all. The pms has worn off. I just have been tired. We are dealing with some MAJOR seperation anxiety by my son and husband. He wants 100% of my husband attention and that is wearing us all a bit thin because it's right now so extreme. We have never had this. He is good when we drop him off at grandparents. Though Today has been good. he hasn't woken up in the middle of the night screaming for daddy.(Okay he did at 10pm ) but not after we all went to bed. He even said, as we both came downstairs "Daddy's at work" and moved on to his computer. Lets hope this works! :) Lets hope whatever happened stays this way!

Ya, I know I posted a lot about my kid, but I guess I always get this way after a night that doesn't go perfect smooth for my friend and he has to start degrading my child. I tried to explain and I said "forget it" and ignored him. But unfortunately I still carry around the upset.

anywho. I'm proud of my progress with weight loss. I had some smaller losses and then BAM! :) I like these big losses. With such progress as I am doing right now I can be to 180 by the time I step onto the airplane at the end of Feb.

Wishing everyone a good day!

R2P2: Day 24

Weight: 206 lbs
Loss of: .4 lb today
Total Loss: 17.8 lb
Total over all 77.8

Morning Folks!
I'm catching up on many of your blogs! I just need to respond to several of them. I read them in the tub, then email certain entries I want to comment on. I can't comment to them on the ipod. :(

I'm a tiny, tiny bit disappointed on the recent slow down. But at the same time I told myself I wouldn't so by the time I finish writing this I will be okay! :) heh. I have thinner thighs. OH I forgot to mention I didn't have to walk sideways through the plane when I went to San Diego for the cruise. I didn't bump into people and have to say "excuse me... pardon me" (THUNDER THIGHS COMING THROUGH)

I find little things I am grateful for. It's fun to see how many little things come into our lives to make us grateful to be alive, even when a big piece of turd gets dropped into our laps. Regardless of what it is.
Is'nt life, in the end, about the little things? So many little things. There are more tiny bugs in this world than there are large creatures. ya. Think about that.

I see Christy In Seattle is GOING RED! and making a statement about many things in her life she wants to change or bring HUGE awareness of. I so agree. I am willing to promote her GOING RED but I think it really has motivated me to go Pink for breast cancer (both my aunt and grandmother dealt with it, my grandmother twice) and something that is near and dear to me is my mom's Rheumatoid arthritis. This horrible disease does not allow her to do all the things she used to love. She loved to Run and be very mobile. She is doing her best now, but she does medicate. She is in pain.

I do hate that there are so many things out there that hurt people. So many diseases that have causes behind them to help find a cure, bring awareness and get rid of it. Sometimes I wonder if we look at what causes these things, it seem it's enviroment, what we put in our body, yet there are so many people out there that are apathetic to what they put into their bodies. where they choose to live that if they thought about it for 2 seconds they would realize it's killing them.

I think, us on hcg, are learning the food aspect of the 'it's killing me' syndrome. That these industries allow for such things. They are killing off their user base? But "We'll make more" mentality is out there. We are in the fast lane! We are speed! We need it today or it's too late! Who cares if it kills us! Oh, the big companies take our health into consideration, why would they want to hurt us? Because it's cheaper, someone elses lively hood is at stake. It's about the MOney! Not the health. That's why our health care sucks in the USA. More doctors go to specific fields because it pays off the loans and makes them money. We have a shortage of general practitioners. We need more doctors in our area, yet when two clinics opened up in the same area, there was a squabble of 'this is my turf' F@(#& OFF people! It's about the people, not about your bottom line. Okay, to stay open it's about the bottom line but come on. There is enough sick people in need of general doctors!

Wow I am rambling all over the place. I'm just opening up and letting it out. And of course I need to leave in 15 minutes for a doctors appointment. LOL. I've done nothing. gaw. hehe. I see the 'crack your bones' doctor. I love him. He is so awesome. One of the only doctors office that doesn't look like one, more like a meditation facility. My son doesn't mind either. he is afraid of doc offices.
anywho. I better go and get something to eat. :P

The tickets are bought

I'm going to Mexico!

My father misunderstood the buying process online and I found out from a rep that they save 30% of seating for people like me with young kids. So they will make sure that we get a seat next to each other!! :D :D :D

So Here I come Sunny Mexico! Hopefully 30 lbs lighter. You better believe I am going to use it as a goal to see how much I lose! :D I will do no cheating so I can maximize my loss and enjoy another week of interuption! This won't happen till the start of March. :D

I could be 180 by march! :D I'm feeling very happy about this. Pulled me out of my funk. :) I will stay with my parents, and I am bringing my kid. My husband can't go because of his job situation. Otherwise we would have bought 3 tickets. But he wants this, I told him I wouldn't go, but he wants our son to have a week with out daddy to see if he will start looking to me more and not relying on daddy all the time. My week away from our child did a lot of good for him to understand people being gone yet coming back.

I'm going to the Beach! :D My son LOVES the beach. He cries sometimes when he sees the video of the beach and asks to go. We have to tell him next year. anyways. Enough chatter. Just had to share the good news!