Grew up normally thin.
Then in high school sat at a nice curvy weight of 145
Met my husband 2 years later around 175-180, still wore fly away skirts and thigh high garters. I was feeling really sexy still.
Got married at 198 lbs in March of 1998.
October 17th 98 - 221 lbs (started weight waters)
April 17th 99 - 190.5 lbs (last weight watchers weigh-in)
July 31st 2001- 229.5 (started nutritionist)
November 20th 2001 - 236.5 (didn't do well huh?)
March 12 2002 - 232 lbs (hmm, is this plan really working? Though I almost got into a size 16 on the plan from a size 20) Maybe I built muscle?
January 13th 2004 - 271 (started Curves, did lose maybe 5-10 lbs)
August 6th 2006 - 257 - Son was born and I had actually lost 20 lbs during the pregnancy.
August 16th 2009 - 283.3 (started HCG)
November 14th 2009 - 226.6 (current)
I am lower now then when I started the food doctor! And I KNOW I will be doing better very soon. I should hit 200 in around January 2010. :D
Love the milestones on the way down! :D
Saturday, November 14, 2009
R1P2: Day 95
Weight: 226.2 lbs
Loss of: .4
Total Loss: 57.6 lbs
Do Do Do... Well. I always feel a bit bummed on a smaller loss after a big loss. But I feel too sexy to keep a bummed feeling though. I am going to a family thing today and see my brother in law and his husband after a long time of no seeing. I'm a bit giddy about showing off my hot bod to them! :) My BIL's husband wants to do this diet as he has seen the results for himself. This diet is wild fire.
(OMG- My 3 yr old son is still working on his language loves Elmo and will ask for stuff. He just asked for "Elmo ???" But the ??? Sounded like F#$@. LOL! I had to get him to repeat it on camera. LOL!!! I'm aweful. OH, we just found out- it's TALK. :P )
So I had a yummy onion soup w/ chicken, vitamins and then for lunch I had chicken with fresh tomatoes. I shredded the chicken and mixed it w/ the tomatoes. Mmmmmmmmm.
My husband just informed me after I complained that my shirt came up in back that 'Oh everyone knew what underware you were wearing, even when you were bigger" :P Dork. hehe.
Today I have on a normal XL. Not a big woman's XL. They concider it a size 14/16 shirt. It fits just fine. I think it's a tiny bit too tight but it looks nice. :) I do need to take more pictures.
My husband is done. He is finished w/ his hcg. He is going 48 hours since he is on the Hhcg. He wants almond flour cookies. :) Cookies and MIlk. That is his favorite, and cola, but he won't drink cola... at least not right now. He was down .8 this morning but LWW is 170.0 and that is what he should focus on.
I had a nice long bath last night. I love taking a bath. I have a little bathroom heater that makes the area toasty. mmmmmm.
I hope everyone has a great day! :) No matter what the weather!!
btw: Do you all have your plan for Thanksgiving? Eating plan? HOsting plan?
Loss of: .4
Total Loss: 57.6 lbs
Do Do Do... Well. I always feel a bit bummed on a smaller loss after a big loss. But I feel too sexy to keep a bummed feeling though. I am going to a family thing today and see my brother in law and his husband after a long time of no seeing. I'm a bit giddy about showing off my hot bod to them! :) My BIL's husband wants to do this diet as he has seen the results for himself. This diet is wild fire.
(OMG- My 3 yr old son is still working on his language loves Elmo and will ask for stuff. He just asked for "Elmo ???" But the ??? Sounded like F#$@. LOL! I had to get him to repeat it on camera. LOL!!! I'm aweful. OH, we just found out- it's TALK. :P )
So I had a yummy onion soup w/ chicken, vitamins and then for lunch I had chicken with fresh tomatoes. I shredded the chicken and mixed it w/ the tomatoes. Mmmmmmmmm.
My husband just informed me after I complained that my shirt came up in back that 'Oh everyone knew what underware you were wearing, even when you were bigger" :P Dork. hehe.
Today I have on a normal XL. Not a big woman's XL. They concider it a size 14/16 shirt. It fits just fine. I think it's a tiny bit too tight but it looks nice. :) I do need to take more pictures.
My husband is done. He is finished w/ his hcg. He is going 48 hours since he is on the Hhcg. He wants almond flour cookies. :) Cookies and MIlk. That is his favorite, and cola, but he won't drink cola... at least not right now. He was down .8 this morning but LWW is 170.0 and that is what he should focus on.
I had a nice long bath last night. I love taking a bath. I have a little bathroom heater that makes the area toasty. mmmmmm.
I hope everyone has a great day! :) No matter what the weather!!
btw: Do you all have your plan for Thanksgiving? Eating plan? HOsting plan?
Friday, November 13, 2009
R1P2: Day 94
Weight: 226.6 lbs
Loss of: 1.4
Total Loss: 57.2 lbs
Well. I lost 1.4 lbs. I wonder... hmmm. We took new vitamins yesterday. Really the 'only' change we really did. When we had great losses we had taken vitamins, but then we had to throw them out, went several days w/o them and got bad losses. We might be coming up with stuff but I won't complain too loudly! No gift horse mouth looking here!
I'm tired today. We woke up early yesterday, went to bed sort of late, the window curtains were open enough that we woke up a little earlier then I would have liked. heh.
I've switched it up to 2 chickens right now. I'm tired of fish for the moment. I just can't seem to make anything intersting. I need to get my juices flowing. When I was at the doctors office I had 2 ladies tell me I should write a cookbook. I would like to take the recipes we have come up with and put them together. I made a p2 mustard in my kitchen from a 'regular recipe' out there. Nothing p2 about wine. heh.
I sprinkled some rosemary and chipole seasoning on top of my chicken. Boy was it heat but wonderful! On a bed of freshly cut tomatoes. Mmmmmmm. Refreshing. I baked the chicken in my toaster oven a little too long so it was a little dry, but you know, it worked for me. I don't mind a little dry when I have another 'wet' ingredient.
I hope all you folks out there successful losses, maintenance and happy day!
Loss of: 1.4
Total Loss: 57.2 lbs
Well. I lost 1.4 lbs. I wonder... hmmm. We took new vitamins yesterday. Really the 'only' change we really did. When we had great losses we had taken vitamins, but then we had to throw them out, went several days w/o them and got bad losses. We might be coming up with stuff but I won't complain too loudly! No gift horse mouth looking here!
I'm tired today. We woke up early yesterday, went to bed sort of late, the window curtains were open enough that we woke up a little earlier then I would have liked. heh.
I've switched it up to 2 chickens right now. I'm tired of fish for the moment. I just can't seem to make anything intersting. I need to get my juices flowing. When I was at the doctors office I had 2 ladies tell me I should write a cookbook. I would like to take the recipes we have come up with and put them together. I made a p2 mustard in my kitchen from a 'regular recipe' out there. Nothing p2 about wine. heh.
I sprinkled some rosemary and chipole seasoning on top of my chicken. Boy was it heat but wonderful! On a bed of freshly cut tomatoes. Mmmmmmm. Refreshing. I baked the chicken in my toaster oven a little too long so it was a little dry, but you know, it worked for me. I don't mind a little dry when I have another 'wet' ingredient.
I hope all you folks out there successful losses, maintenance and happy day!
Thursday, November 12, 2009
update- doctor visit and clothes shopping
So, I went to the doctor. We made a Thanksgiving plan.
She said if I skip the turkey (she had one client gain 2 lbs on turkey) and eat some cheats I should be good to go. I'm cheating on a table spoon of cranberry p3 sauce and some p3 bean casserole. :) Small but effective cheats! :) She said it might even kick start my loss again. We will see! I would DIE if I saw a whole 2 lb gain. :P Chicken w/ rosemarry is yummier anyways. I'm not a Turkey person. I'll eat it if it's there, and will pick at it like any other bird. So it's not like I'm losing out at all. I wonder if we could get away with making several little chicken birds and calling it Thanksgiving! Save a Turkey! ;)
I made an appointment for a week before my cruise to talk Cruise plan! There will be daily weighing. She even suggests multi-daily weighing. :P BAH!
Went afterwards to get a bra, got seduced by the size '14' LARGE- xLarge shirts. hehe.
I bought some shirts that honestly are a bit too tight for me, but you know, I will 'grow' into them. But they SO flatter my tummy. Some cuts are NOT good for me like empress waist. I need something that says "Yes, I have boobs, but look at my tiny waist' (relative to the rest of me of course. ;) hehe, Sigh, in high school I had a size 28 waist. One day... One day)
So, I am wearing some of the clothes and it feels good. I bought 4 shirts and a 'house' coat. Its cute, something to lounge. I will take some pictures when not so tired and made model show! :)
She said if I skip the turkey (she had one client gain 2 lbs on turkey) and eat some cheats I should be good to go. I'm cheating on a table spoon of cranberry p3 sauce and some p3 bean casserole. :) Small but effective cheats! :) She said it might even kick start my loss again. We will see! I would DIE if I saw a whole 2 lb gain. :P Chicken w/ rosemarry is yummier anyways. I'm not a Turkey person. I'll eat it if it's there, and will pick at it like any other bird. So it's not like I'm losing out at all. I wonder if we could get away with making several little chicken birds and calling it Thanksgiving! Save a Turkey! ;)
I made an appointment for a week before my cruise to talk Cruise plan! There will be daily weighing. She even suggests multi-daily weighing. :P BAH!
Went afterwards to get a bra, got seduced by the size '14' LARGE- xLarge shirts. hehe.
I bought some shirts that honestly are a bit too tight for me, but you know, I will 'grow' into them. But they SO flatter my tummy. Some cuts are NOT good for me like empress waist. I need something that says "Yes, I have boobs, but look at my tiny waist' (relative to the rest of me of course. ;) hehe, Sigh, in high school I had a size 28 waist. One day... One day)
So, I am wearing some of the clothes and it feels good. I bought 4 shirts and a 'house' coat. Its cute, something to lounge. I will take some pictures when not so tired and made model show! :)
R1P2: Day 93
Weight: 228 lbs
Loss of: Nothing
Total Loss: 55.8 lbs
The scale is toying with me. I can't make goals. I think we are pretty silly to make goals of 'x lbs to this day' because
1. HCG DOES work. So we will eventually lose the weight if we are on protocol.
2. We will get to our weight at some point, maybe 3 days afterwards.
Because when we put ridged goals on ourselves that are honestly out of our control we set ourselves up for failure.
We can say 'we will work out 3 times a week' and if that is a realistic goal we can do it. We need to learn to set up realistic goals. Things that are workable in our control. We should push ourselves, try for 1 non-cheat day if that is your thing. Take it one day at a time. Challenge yourself to drink a little more water if you need to, or just get to your water. Those things we can ultimately control.
I'm scared now that I won't make it to my goal weight. So I put a goal I looked forward to, but now, I know that I am losing inches like there is no tomorrow, but I put an arbitrary weight goal into effect. Ya, I can fit into clothes I haven't in a long time, yet I'm still bummed by the numbers? Silly.
GOod news- Yesterday was an awesome day. It didn't stop in the afternoon either. So I went and got aligned, the chiropractor told me he knew I was drinking my water because my muscles were all hydrated and that made it easier to adjust me w/ little grunts. Then I tried on a size 3 at Chico's and found the shirt a bit big so I tried on a size 2. This is what my skinny mother wears. I got it on. No way any bottoms would fit. So I went to Lane Bryant. COOL new sizing. I said "I was a size 26 but should be a size 22. She gave me a 'new size 7 and 5' and we would most likely have to hunt for a 6. Well. I found out I fit into a 4. :D These are their new sizes. I wish I could convert it, haven't found an online chart of conversion. But they are also color coded. I am a blue, because my waist is much smaller then my thighs- hence always a wrong fit in pants. Well not this time. I decided to order the slightly pricy pants, but they were on sale!!! So I got away cheap on both items because both was like 50% off.!!!
Then I wore the shirt and went over to my parents to show off. My mom was a bit surprised that her daughter wore the same size shirts as her. We talked about formal wear for the cruise. I fit into several of my mother's things, but if it was button up, it would take losing 2-4 inches in the bust area. Yo, helderheid, I would be happy to give you some of my junk in the front!
So yesterday was a pretty good day, It really was an excellent day. I am bummed that today is no loss, but I'm dealing with TOM. I should hopefully have another great week after my TOM, then deal with ovulation week. Seems I might get 2 good weeks out of this stuff. heh. Normally TOM always produces good losses. But oh well.
Loss of: Nothing
Total Loss: 55.8 lbs
The scale is toying with me. I can't make goals. I think we are pretty silly to make goals of 'x lbs to this day' because
1. HCG DOES work. So we will eventually lose the weight if we are on protocol.
2. We will get to our weight at some point, maybe 3 days afterwards.
Because when we put ridged goals on ourselves that are honestly out of our control we set ourselves up for failure.
We can say 'we will work out 3 times a week' and if that is a realistic goal we can do it. We need to learn to set up realistic goals. Things that are workable in our control. We should push ourselves, try for 1 non-cheat day if that is your thing. Take it one day at a time. Challenge yourself to drink a little more water if you need to, or just get to your water. Those things we can ultimately control.
I'm scared now that I won't make it to my goal weight. So I put a goal I looked forward to, but now, I know that I am losing inches like there is no tomorrow, but I put an arbitrary weight goal into effect. Ya, I can fit into clothes I haven't in a long time, yet I'm still bummed by the numbers? Silly.
GOod news- Yesterday was an awesome day. It didn't stop in the afternoon either. So I went and got aligned, the chiropractor told me he knew I was drinking my water because my muscles were all hydrated and that made it easier to adjust me w/ little grunts. Then I tried on a size 3 at Chico's and found the shirt a bit big so I tried on a size 2. This is what my skinny mother wears. I got it on. No way any bottoms would fit. So I went to Lane Bryant. COOL new sizing. I said "I was a size 26 but should be a size 22. She gave me a 'new size 7 and 5' and we would most likely have to hunt for a 6. Well. I found out I fit into a 4. :D These are their new sizes. I wish I could convert it, haven't found an online chart of conversion. But they are also color coded. I am a blue, because my waist is much smaller then my thighs- hence always a wrong fit in pants. Well not this time. I decided to order the slightly pricy pants, but they were on sale!!! So I got away cheap on both items because both was like 50% off.!!!
Then I wore the shirt and went over to my parents to show off. My mom was a bit surprised that her daughter wore the same size shirts as her. We talked about formal wear for the cruise. I fit into several of my mother's things, but if it was button up, it would take losing 2-4 inches in the bust area. Yo, helderheid, I would be happy to give you some of my junk in the front!
So yesterday was a pretty good day, It really was an excellent day. I am bummed that today is no loss, but I'm dealing with TOM. I should hopefully have another great week after my TOM, then deal with ovulation week. Seems I might get 2 good weeks out of this stuff. heh. Normally TOM always produces good losses. But oh well.
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
R1P2: Day 92
Weight: 228 lbs
Loss of: .8
Total Loss: 55.8 lbs
Hello All, I hope your all doing good and well in your journey/adventure/goals!
I'm a tiny bit bummed. Okay- A bit worried. IF I lose an average of .2 every day till the cruise I WON'T hit my goal. :( The likely hood of that happening, now that I mention it, greatly. Honestly- in a 'normal' world it would be achievable. Now the stress sets in. I have a goal. I want to meet that goal. I don't want to kill myself eating chicken, fish and onion and tomatoes. Actually I did a double chicken day yesterday because the fish in my meals tasted like poo. There is not much flavor I can right now do with Onion and Fish when you eat it pretty much every day. It gets boring. My husband's chicken and tomato soup is awesome so I eat that every day. Yesterday he made me chicken with cabbage. YUM! Cabbage has never tasted so good.
I don't want to mess up this diet, I don't want to eat the 'wrong' thing, because it seems that if I eat even on protocol things that makes me feel like I stall, but you can stall for 100's of reasons and food not being one of them. :P
Okay- something really funny- apples are 'suppose to make you stall' I hear about people lowering their apples. Yesterday I said screw it to the lowering of apples, and I actually had a decent loss today. heh. :P The two times I lowered my apple intake I got a .2 and a 0 loss. go figure.
anyways. I go get my back adjusted, try on a Chico's Jacket. My mom loves Chico's and I tried one on last night. Her size 2, it ALMOST fit. Top of course. I can fit in their size 3. (THeir personal sizes, not real 'size 2') I'm a XL right now in the top. A 14/16 in Plus sizes. But I'm getting there.
Sometimes I wonder if my bones are plus size so I will never get into anything below a 14. :P But I should be able to. It's my thighs that will determine when. heh.
I love my mom, very protective of her, I felt horrible last night when I told her that I find her personally too thin at 145, she looks so SKINNY!!!! But she recently hit 150, and I was like, " You could lose 5 lbs" to be more comfortable. Okay. The 5 lbs really made her look a lot larger. I think her boobs got bigger and makes her shirts look tighter. It's all about the boobs!! Because her pants look like normal. I love her, and I wouldn't like to say mean things to her. She has done so good watching her wait, to the point of obsession. I think I want her to go on hcg because I hear so many things about lessing the pain in things like arthritis. She has R. arthritis and it's hurting her a lot. She is always in pain. I want that to go away. She is one of the most amazing people I know. She pushes through the pain and does 100's of things per day. Not sure if that feeds her problems, but she manages.
anywho.
Loss of: .8
Total Loss: 55.8 lbs
Hello All, I hope your all doing good and well in your journey/adventure/goals!
I'm a tiny bit bummed. Okay- A bit worried. IF I lose an average of .2 every day till the cruise I WON'T hit my goal. :( The likely hood of that happening, now that I mention it, greatly. Honestly- in a 'normal' world it would be achievable. Now the stress sets in. I have a goal. I want to meet that goal. I don't want to kill myself eating chicken, fish and onion and tomatoes. Actually I did a double chicken day yesterday because the fish in my meals tasted like poo. There is not much flavor I can right now do with Onion and Fish when you eat it pretty much every day. It gets boring. My husband's chicken and tomato soup is awesome so I eat that every day. Yesterday he made me chicken with cabbage. YUM! Cabbage has never tasted so good.
I don't want to mess up this diet, I don't want to eat the 'wrong' thing, because it seems that if I eat even on protocol things that makes me feel like I stall, but you can stall for 100's of reasons and food not being one of them. :P
Okay- something really funny- apples are 'suppose to make you stall' I hear about people lowering their apples. Yesterday I said screw it to the lowering of apples, and I actually had a decent loss today. heh. :P The two times I lowered my apple intake I got a .2 and a 0 loss. go figure.
anyways. I go get my back adjusted, try on a Chico's Jacket. My mom loves Chico's and I tried one on last night. Her size 2, it ALMOST fit. Top of course. I can fit in their size 3. (THeir personal sizes, not real 'size 2') I'm a XL right now in the top. A 14/16 in Plus sizes. But I'm getting there.
Sometimes I wonder if my bones are plus size so I will never get into anything below a 14. :P But I should be able to. It's my thighs that will determine when. heh.
I love my mom, very protective of her, I felt horrible last night when I told her that I find her personally too thin at 145, she looks so SKINNY!!!! But she recently hit 150, and I was like, " You could lose 5 lbs" to be more comfortable. Okay. The 5 lbs really made her look a lot larger. I think her boobs got bigger and makes her shirts look tighter. It's all about the boobs!! Because her pants look like normal. I love her, and I wouldn't like to say mean things to her. She has done so good watching her wait, to the point of obsession. I think I want her to go on hcg because I hear so many things about lessing the pain in things like arthritis. She has R. arthritis and it's hurting her a lot. She is always in pain. I want that to go away. She is one of the most amazing people I know. She pushes through the pain and does 100's of things per day. Not sure if that feeds her problems, but she manages.
anywho.
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
R1P2: Day 91
Weight: 228.8 lbs
Loss of: NOTHING
Total Loss: 55 lbs
Gaw! I hate slowing down. I had my TOM yesterday, but it's suspiciously gone today. Hmmm. We will see, I know that I am spotty now that I am on HCG.
I'm taking a HCG day off. I want to see if I can 'jump start' those losses again. I'm sticking to my same ol same ol foods. I didn't eat an apple yesterday because it was late when I got home. I forgot to take one with me as i picked up my parents.
It seemed they noticed a loss. But they were really tired, so I was happy that they noticed something. :)
Apples do not seem to bother me in the weight loss.It seems the last two days I've slowed down on apples are also the days I slowed down on weight. Maybe just a parallel that doesn't go hand in had. No clue now a days.
I hope everyone is having a good day! Take a picture of your Fall in your area and share it on your blog please! I Want to see Fall in your neighborhood. I will do the same. It's so pretty here!!
Loss of: NOTHING
Total Loss: 55 lbs
Gaw! I hate slowing down. I had my TOM yesterday, but it's suspiciously gone today. Hmmm. We will see, I know that I am spotty now that I am on HCG.
I'm taking a HCG day off. I want to see if I can 'jump start' those losses again. I'm sticking to my same ol same ol foods. I didn't eat an apple yesterday because it was late when I got home. I forgot to take one with me as i picked up my parents.
It seemed they noticed a loss. But they were really tired, so I was happy that they noticed something. :)
Apples do not seem to bother me in the weight loss.It seems the last two days I've slowed down on apples are also the days I slowed down on weight. Maybe just a parallel that doesn't go hand in had. No clue now a days.
I hope everyone is having a good day! Take a picture of your Fall in your area and share it on your blog please! I Want to see Fall in your neighborhood. I will do the same. It's so pretty here!!
Monday, November 9, 2009
R1P2: Day 90
Weight: 228.8 lbs
Loss of: 0.2
Total Loss: 55 lbs
Morning,
Some steam has been let of of my sails. Sigh. .2 loss. Still a loss,yes but not large and big and wonderful. Don't I look a gift horse in the mouth. The only thing I really changed was: I ate onions during the day, and tomatoes at night. I drank most of my water during the evening. I didn't eat much of my apple. Maybe an once? Sigh. I thought I would get more loss if I didn't eat my apple. I should have eaten it, but then I could have gained. Sigh. NO clue.
I have my TOM coming on, but I traditionally lose pretty well during TOM and slow severely down during ovulation.
I'm tired this morning but didn't go to bed too late. Nothing abnormal. I did listen to a guided meditation utube video that is totally awesome. I did this in the bathtub and it was nice, totally relaxed in the tub. Then I decided to do this right at bed time, then switched it over to a nature sound after it was done to finish me off. Did a pretty good job, though my nose got stuffed and I couldn't seem to get in a comfy position. But I feel asleep pretty fast anyways. I normally can take up to 1-2 hours to fall asleep on a good night.
Enjoy: Don't listen to while driving. Though you shouldn't be reading while your driving either.
Loss of: 0.2
Total Loss: 55 lbs
Morning,
Some steam has been let of of my sails. Sigh. .2 loss. Still a loss,yes but not large and big and wonderful. Don't I look a gift horse in the mouth. The only thing I really changed was: I ate onions during the day, and tomatoes at night. I drank most of my water during the evening. I didn't eat much of my apple. Maybe an once? Sigh. I thought I would get more loss if I didn't eat my apple. I should have eaten it, but then I could have gained. Sigh. NO clue.
I have my TOM coming on, but I traditionally lose pretty well during TOM and slow severely down during ovulation.
I'm tired this morning but didn't go to bed too late. Nothing abnormal. I did listen to a guided meditation utube video that is totally awesome. I did this in the bathtub and it was nice, totally relaxed in the tub. Then I decided to do this right at bed time, then switched it over to a nature sound after it was done to finish me off. Did a pretty good job, though my nose got stuffed and I couldn't seem to get in a comfy position. But I feel asleep pretty fast anyways. I normally can take up to 1-2 hours to fall asleep on a good night.
Enjoy: Don't listen to while driving. Though you shouldn't be reading while your driving either.
Sunday, November 8, 2009
R1P2: Day 89
Weight: 229 lbs
Loss of: 1.2
Total Loss: 54.8 lbs
Morning Folks!
I am feeling pretty good right now. I can't help but wonder when the 'bad day' will happen to take a little energy out of my step, but I have to ride the high right now. I can't let a possible bad day ruin my good days. :)
I didn't get a chance to eat my apple last night, though I did use 2 slices in my dinner. I had a lot of onions and then choppped up 2 slices of apple into it and cooked it. Mmmmmm. All over a piece of cod w/ some mustard.
Yesterday was a LOT of fun. Mystery upon Mystery for the game. My friends were happy too. It's nice when everything is just set for fun, and that fun was had. I had a friend that we see only every 2 weeks try my soup. He enjoyed it, but was surprised that a secret ingredient was mustard.
I had to get vitamins yesterday, but got the wrong kind. They had soybean oil in them. :( But I strutted around the store in my boots! :) I can't get over how awesome those boots are.
I am trying to take nightly baths, and so far so good. I read blogs but then I turn on some meditation music and stretch and breath and meditate a little bit. I think I did the whole thing too quickly. I imaged I was washing weight off of me. I realize when I get some good momentum I get superstitious. If X worked, then X will work all the time, and it's responsible for my success. I did do only 10 minutes of exercise yesterday. I didn't want to do any more really. I realized something, when I feel like I "HAVE" to exercise, I start to hate it. I love walking for the sake of walking around, I love playing Wii games because they are fun and oh, I have some exercise.. but the moment my body realizes I "HAVE" to do it or I feel 'forced' to do it, all bets are off. My body drudges through games I used to love. I told the hubby I would rather do tennis w/ him again. But my upper arm did need a break.
I was thinking of Simeones manual and the foods he allows. I wonder why only 3.5, though we do seem to do okay on 4oz. Also- size of fruit. He doesn't have a size alotment for fruit. What were apples sizes in his day? I know it seems we go for a larger fruit if we see it. I feel really good about our current bought apples. They are much smaller and seem more reasonably in line w/ what the Dr. S ordered.
Loss of: 1.2
Total Loss: 54.8 lbs
Morning Folks!
I am feeling pretty good right now. I can't help but wonder when the 'bad day' will happen to take a little energy out of my step, but I have to ride the high right now. I can't let a possible bad day ruin my good days. :)
I didn't get a chance to eat my apple last night, though I did use 2 slices in my dinner. I had a lot of onions and then choppped up 2 slices of apple into it and cooked it. Mmmmmm. All over a piece of cod w/ some mustard.
Yesterday was a LOT of fun. Mystery upon Mystery for the game. My friends were happy too. It's nice when everything is just set for fun, and that fun was had. I had a friend that we see only every 2 weeks try my soup. He enjoyed it, but was surprised that a secret ingredient was mustard.
I had to get vitamins yesterday, but got the wrong kind. They had soybean oil in them. :( But I strutted around the store in my boots! :) I can't get over how awesome those boots are.
I am trying to take nightly baths, and so far so good. I read blogs but then I turn on some meditation music and stretch and breath and meditate a little bit. I think I did the whole thing too quickly. I imaged I was washing weight off of me. I realize when I get some good momentum I get superstitious. If X worked, then X will work all the time, and it's responsible for my success. I did do only 10 minutes of exercise yesterday. I didn't want to do any more really. I realized something, when I feel like I "HAVE" to exercise, I start to hate it. I love walking for the sake of walking around, I love playing Wii games because they are fun and oh, I have some exercise.. but the moment my body realizes I "HAVE" to do it or I feel 'forced' to do it, all bets are off. My body drudges through games I used to love. I told the hubby I would rather do tennis w/ him again. But my upper arm did need a break.
I was thinking of Simeones manual and the foods he allows. I wonder why only 3.5, though we do seem to do okay on 4oz. Also- size of fruit. He doesn't have a size alotment for fruit. What were apples sizes in his day? I know it seems we go for a larger fruit if we see it. I feel really good about our current bought apples. They are much smaller and seem more reasonably in line w/ what the Dr. S ordered.
Saturday, November 7, 2009
R1P2: Day 88
Weight: 230.2 lbs
Loss of: .8
Total Loss: 53.6 lbs
Body Fat: 46.3% <--margin of error perhaps?
MORNING!! :)
Okay. After getting FABulous boots, doing the sexy walk in public, getting hit on in my dreams, this day is doing well. I did tell the guy in my dreams that I was married, but that I thanked him for wanting to hit on me. He was nice. heh. I like to see constant losses above the .6 mark. 5.8 lbs in 7 days. YEAY! Best week ever!!
I'm going more strict protocol. I would eat celery at night, nope not now. I eat about 4 oz of protien though. Not sure if I should. Was reading Melissa's blog and saw how she noticed various things. She is very specific about hitting her 500 calorie mark. Here I feel I want to reduce. How many of you folks feel like you lose more weight when you hit the 500 calories? I will work on upping my veggies a bit. OH and I eat a whole apple, I'm going to try to limit it to 3.5 oz as well. I don't think that the Apple is causing weight slow down. I love Strawberries, but this diet sort of put an end to that. I think what happened was I was making smoothies w/ them, and I perfer a nice fresh strawberry, but fresh go bad in a couple days.
I took a bath yesterday and finished reading blogs. I was like.. What.. no more blogs to read. I got caught up? NOooo, what will I ever do? Oh, I could stretch and meditate. I put my ipod to a meditation sound and sat there. I breathed, and I tried some "ommmmm" and Oh MY! That was amazing. I really felt my body relax saying "ommmmm" It totally surprised me. I loved it. Then I took my hands and imagined to wash off pounds from my skin and point it to the drain saying "pounds and ounces I release you from my body, to the drain with you!" Then I stretched my muscles... and then I realized something I haven't done in a while.. My inner parts of my leg were touching. My ankle was touching, my side calfs where touching. If you were fat enough you will know that this was huge! Very HUGE! I could actually 'put the bottom parts of my legs' next to each other. So when the tiny little fitness instructor says 'put your legs together' I CAN! Normally I wasn't able to do this. HA!
I altered my pants this morning so it shows off the boot more. They look a little altered, I think I need to resew a line w/ that yellow thread they use on the pants. I used a brown to not draw attention down there, maybe it should have. anyways. They look awesome because now they aren't so schlepping on the ground!
Today we get together w/ some friends to play a little table top role-playing. It's a modern day mystery with some elements of suspense thrown in. It's been loads of fun! It's like 5pm roles around and I am not ready for the fun to stop! It's great to 'play pretend' as an adult in moderation. I just haven't grown out of it.
I found out from one of my friends, a wife who married one of the guys I game with, that he had come home saying I looked great. That was a boost. He hasn't told that to me yet, and we will see if he does, maybe he feels awkward but he is such a nice guy he might not want to hurt my feelings? No clue. I'm actually surprised that a couple friends I haven't seen since last year didn't mention anything. His wife got the stomach 'taken out' surgery, and she has sagging skin and I'm not sure if she is continuing to lose weight. She looks much better then before but still has simular weight as last year. Same went for another friend I knew who did lose all the weight w/ the surgery, but she lifted her shirt to show me her sagging stomach. I swear, for the 15k they should thrown in a tuck for free if you actually reach your goal weight. I've been luckly- no real saggy skin, though I have to say, now w/ my arms thinner, my 'droops' look more droopy. That will go away as I lose the last of my fat in the arms. I really wish I could put in an order w/ the hcg - "Yo, Hcg, can we focus on losing weight in the thighs this week? please? Just 1 size. Then go back to regular programing!" Sigh.
Today is a real Fall day. I'm actually enjoying it a bit. Well I am off to go clean up the living room. With the new couch/sectionals everyone has their own comfy 38 inches for their butt! :) Mmmmm comfy.
Loss of: .8
Total Loss: 53.6 lbs
Body Fat: 46.3% <--margin of error perhaps?
MORNING!! :)
Okay. After getting FABulous boots, doing the sexy walk in public, getting hit on in my dreams, this day is doing well. I did tell the guy in my dreams that I was married, but that I thanked him for wanting to hit on me. He was nice. heh. I like to see constant losses above the .6 mark. 5.8 lbs in 7 days. YEAY! Best week ever!!
I'm going more strict protocol. I would eat celery at night, nope not now. I eat about 4 oz of protien though. Not sure if I should. Was reading Melissa's blog and saw how she noticed various things. She is very specific about hitting her 500 calorie mark. Here I feel I want to reduce. How many of you folks feel like you lose more weight when you hit the 500 calories? I will work on upping my veggies a bit. OH and I eat a whole apple, I'm going to try to limit it to 3.5 oz as well. I don't think that the Apple is causing weight slow down. I love Strawberries, but this diet sort of put an end to that. I think what happened was I was making smoothies w/ them, and I perfer a nice fresh strawberry, but fresh go bad in a couple days.
I took a bath yesterday and finished reading blogs. I was like.. What.. no more blogs to read. I got caught up? NOooo, what will I ever do? Oh, I could stretch and meditate. I put my ipod to a meditation sound and sat there. I breathed, and I tried some "ommmmm" and Oh MY! That was amazing. I really felt my body relax saying "ommmmm" It totally surprised me. I loved it. Then I took my hands and imagined to wash off pounds from my skin and point it to the drain saying "pounds and ounces I release you from my body, to the drain with you!" Then I stretched my muscles... and then I realized something I haven't done in a while.. My inner parts of my leg were touching. My ankle was touching, my side calfs where touching. If you were fat enough you will know that this was huge! Very HUGE! I could actually 'put the bottom parts of my legs' next to each other. So when the tiny little fitness instructor says 'put your legs together' I CAN! Normally I wasn't able to do this. HA!
I altered my pants this morning so it shows off the boot more. They look a little altered, I think I need to resew a line w/ that yellow thread they use on the pants. I used a brown to not draw attention down there, maybe it should have. anyways. They look awesome because now they aren't so schlepping on the ground!
Today we get together w/ some friends to play a little table top role-playing. It's a modern day mystery with some elements of suspense thrown in. It's been loads of fun! It's like 5pm roles around and I am not ready for the fun to stop! It's great to 'play pretend' as an adult in moderation. I just haven't grown out of it.
I found out from one of my friends, a wife who married one of the guys I game with, that he had come home saying I looked great. That was a boost. He hasn't told that to me yet, and we will see if he does, maybe he feels awkward but he is such a nice guy he might not want to hurt my feelings? No clue. I'm actually surprised that a couple friends I haven't seen since last year didn't mention anything. His wife got the stomach 'taken out' surgery, and she has sagging skin and I'm not sure if she is continuing to lose weight. She looks much better then before but still has simular weight as last year. Same went for another friend I knew who did lose all the weight w/ the surgery, but she lifted her shirt to show me her sagging stomach. I swear, for the 15k they should thrown in a tuck for free if you actually reach your goal weight. I've been luckly- no real saggy skin, though I have to say, now w/ my arms thinner, my 'droops' look more droopy. That will go away as I lose the last of my fat in the arms. I really wish I could put in an order w/ the hcg - "Yo, Hcg, can we focus on losing weight in the thighs this week? please? Just 1 size. Then go back to regular programing!" Sigh.
Today is a real Fall day. I'm actually enjoying it a bit. Well I am off to go clean up the living room. With the new couch/sectionals everyone has their own comfy 38 inches for their butt! :) Mmmmm comfy.
Friday, November 6, 2009
quick update- front picture
This was taken a while ago on the left, today on the right. I was amazed at the difference that I just wanted to share w/ you all!
I am so into boots right now that I decided to buy another pair BUT with HEELS!!!! (Did I get the spelling right?) I wore them into the grocery store. WHOA. Never had heals in YEARS! But it was awesome. The husband said I had a sexy walk and he was turned on by the 'click, click, click.' sound. He said that it was synonymous w/ sexy. I even would walk in front of the cart to show him my sexy! Boy did that make me feel good. I even have a new coat because the previous ones are just TOO big!
I'm loving today! I want a repeat day! I also did 35 minutes of Tennis on the Wii. It was fun to be a team w/ the husband. Not as much of a work out but still worked my arm. It was sore this morning.
okay maybe not so quick update! heh.
I am so into boots right now that I decided to buy another pair BUT with HEELS!!!! (Did I get the spelling right?) I wore them into the grocery store. WHOA. Never had heals in YEARS! But it was awesome. The husband said I had a sexy walk and he was turned on by the 'click, click, click.' sound. He said that it was synonymous w/ sexy. I even would walk in front of the cart to show him my sexy! Boy did that make me feel good. I even have a new coat because the previous ones are just TOO big!
I'm loving today! I want a repeat day! I also did 35 minutes of Tennis on the Wii. It was fun to be a team w/ the husband. Not as much of a work out but still worked my arm. It was sore this morning.
okay maybe not so quick update! heh.
quick update: Ref. 71
Ref 71 passed
So it seems that Washington Voters have actually passed the bill! YEAY! Let the champagne pour over and every family be together!
I think it's still a ways away from true equality, but it definably is in the right direction!
IN YOUR FACE MAINE!
We are loud, We are proud and we pass laws that make sense!!
So it seems that Washington Voters have actually passed the bill! YEAY! Let the champagne pour over and every family be together!
I think it's still a ways away from true equality, but it definably is in the right direction!
IN YOUR FACE MAINE!
We are loud, We are proud and we pass laws that make sense!!
R1P2: Day 87
Weight: 231 lbs
Loss of: 1.4
Total Loss: 52.8 lbs
Body Fat: 46.1%
Today starts out well because I lost 1.4 lbs and personally, that makes me very happy. I have lost 5 lbs this month so far. More at this point then other months.
I want to lose 10.4 more lbs before Dec 5th (the cruise). We do have Thanksgiving in the way.
I played on the Wii for 45 minutes yesterday. I played Tennis (my arm HURTS right now), 3 holes of golf and bowling. I kick ass at bowling! My husband kicks my ass at Tennis. It's nice we both have our games. I think if I do a lower body workout the next day that I can let my arm rest, and get a full body work out over all. Though I know I will play Tennis today because it was SO much fun!
So, A little bit about me. I am a 35 yr old woman who is married, have 1 kid, no plans for a 2nd. We enjoy our small family. I enjoy gaming - Table top like DnD and Shadowrun - and computer games- Sims, World of Warcraft, Lord of the Rings. I love walking, I love sewing. I have made some quilts and have several I want to do. I do some web design. I quit a big corporate company to go back to school to do my first love- Film. I have made some short films for school. I have one about my pregnancy named "Made from Scratch" that I'm very proud of. I sew dice bags (or really to hold any smaller items) to make some money. I live in the same town I grew up since I was 3. My parents live less than a mile away. I was born in Germany and we all immigrated to America. Except for my parents/brothers and my Aunt in California all family lives in Germany still and I don't nearly go over there as often as I would like. I have not seen under 200lbs since 1998. I have the 'thin girl in a fat body' image. I do realize now I'm fat, and have for the last several years. It doesn't bother me as much as it should have. I was told by the doctor that my pancreas was going to stop working if I didn't change my lifestyle. That was my wake up call to thin down.
I have a lot of interests that I can't be nailed down in one stereotype. Very multi-dimensional. I love Sci-fi, action, and chick flicks. In fact I love critiquing movies. I do have fun at a stupid movie saying what problems they have. I love yelling at the tv on a live show and telling the camera men to adjust their camera angles. That does bring me joy. Not the 'being mean part' but finding little glitches. Sort of like a puzzle to figure out. "Where is waldo" thing. I love puzzles. I love finding problems and fixing them. I love making things better. My husband doesn't think I should love that as much when I focus it on him. ;) heh.
I'm an emotional person. I love to talk and be around be just as much as I like to stay home. I love going to Mexico in the Spring. I would move down there in a second! I took a couple classes to speak Spanish, but I do so much better when submerged. I love talking Spanish with the guys at the Mexican Restaurants. So far most don't mind. I'm sure they shake their heads and say "Gringo" under their breath, though I got the BEST compliment when I walked into a Mexican Market nearby. The woman who owns the little Tienda only talked Spanish, so I stumbled through it for the most part. She asked if I was married to a Spanish man. :) Felt good. I love feeling good. I don't seem to give myself enough props that I go looking for it outside of myself.
A day can be made or broken just by the comments I get. If the scale treats me nice, I feel good. If someone says 'hello' I feel good. If I get a negative comment, I feel bad. Even getting a hug or a shrug from my 3yr old can pull my day.
I'm complex like I feel all of us are. We love various things that can't go into a box that people can say "oh, she is this type of person" and I won't fit myself into a box. I've always been a bit 'different' as my mom puts it. heh. She is very traditional, but when you start digging into her mind, you realize a complex person is in there, yet sometimes scared to come out and be zany. She once, in order to show us that she can have a 'good time', pushed all the buttons at a hotel. We told her you had to do that AFTER you got out of the elevator. I got so sick by the time we got to our floor. :P She tries. Her maturing age, I think, is helping her relax. I love my parents. I am VERY protective over my mom though. I never was a 'maternal' person, but for some reason I become a pitbull if I feel my mom is getting bullied by someone. It's who I am.
So, I rambled on about who I am. I'm all over the board w/ who I am. And I know I left out bits. For god sake, I'm 35 years old and have done things in my life! I've traveled many roads to be where I am today. For the most part, I think I am content. Yes I am losing weight and I deal with occational or daily struggles, but that is life. I really think, no, I know I really enjoy where I am today over all.
As in the words of Nikki- Have a wonderful day losing or maintaining! :)
Loss of: 1.4
Total Loss: 52.8 lbs
Body Fat: 46.1%
Today starts out well because I lost 1.4 lbs and personally, that makes me very happy. I have lost 5 lbs this month so far. More at this point then other months.
I want to lose 10.4 more lbs before Dec 5th (the cruise). We do have Thanksgiving in the way.
I played on the Wii for 45 minutes yesterday. I played Tennis (my arm HURTS right now), 3 holes of golf and bowling. I kick ass at bowling! My husband kicks my ass at Tennis. It's nice we both have our games. I think if I do a lower body workout the next day that I can let my arm rest, and get a full body work out over all. Though I know I will play Tennis today because it was SO much fun!
So, A little bit about me. I am a 35 yr old woman who is married, have 1 kid, no plans for a 2nd. We enjoy our small family. I enjoy gaming - Table top like DnD and Shadowrun - and computer games- Sims, World of Warcraft, Lord of the Rings. I love walking, I love sewing. I have made some quilts and have several I want to do. I do some web design. I quit a big corporate company to go back to school to do my first love- Film. I have made some short films for school. I have one about my pregnancy named "Made from Scratch" that I'm very proud of. I sew dice bags (or really to hold any smaller items) to make some money. I live in the same town I grew up since I was 3. My parents live less than a mile away. I was born in Germany and we all immigrated to America. Except for my parents/brothers and my Aunt in California all family lives in Germany still and I don't nearly go over there as often as I would like. I have not seen under 200lbs since 1998. I have the 'thin girl in a fat body' image. I do realize now I'm fat, and have for the last several years. It doesn't bother me as much as it should have. I was told by the doctor that my pancreas was going to stop working if I didn't change my lifestyle. That was my wake up call to thin down.
I have a lot of interests that I can't be nailed down in one stereotype. Very multi-dimensional. I love Sci-fi, action, and chick flicks. In fact I love critiquing movies. I do have fun at a stupid movie saying what problems they have. I love yelling at the tv on a live show and telling the camera men to adjust their camera angles. That does bring me joy. Not the 'being mean part' but finding little glitches. Sort of like a puzzle to figure out. "Where is waldo" thing. I love puzzles. I love finding problems and fixing them. I love making things better. My husband doesn't think I should love that as much when I focus it on him. ;) heh.
I'm an emotional person. I love to talk and be around be just as much as I like to stay home. I love going to Mexico in the Spring. I would move down there in a second! I took a couple classes to speak Spanish, but I do so much better when submerged. I love talking Spanish with the guys at the Mexican Restaurants. So far most don't mind. I'm sure they shake their heads and say "Gringo" under their breath, though I got the BEST compliment when I walked into a Mexican Market nearby. The woman who owns the little Tienda only talked Spanish, so I stumbled through it for the most part. She asked if I was married to a Spanish man. :) Felt good. I love feeling good. I don't seem to give myself enough props that I go looking for it outside of myself.
A day can be made or broken just by the comments I get. If the scale treats me nice, I feel good. If someone says 'hello' I feel good. If I get a negative comment, I feel bad. Even getting a hug or a shrug from my 3yr old can pull my day.
I'm complex like I feel all of us are. We love various things that can't go into a box that people can say "oh, she is this type of person" and I won't fit myself into a box. I've always been a bit 'different' as my mom puts it. heh. She is very traditional, but when you start digging into her mind, you realize a complex person is in there, yet sometimes scared to come out and be zany. She once, in order to show us that she can have a 'good time', pushed all the buttons at a hotel. We told her you had to do that AFTER you got out of the elevator. I got so sick by the time we got to our floor. :P She tries. Her maturing age, I think, is helping her relax. I love my parents. I am VERY protective over my mom though. I never was a 'maternal' person, but for some reason I become a pitbull if I feel my mom is getting bullied by someone. It's who I am.
So, I rambled on about who I am. I'm all over the board w/ who I am. And I know I left out bits. For god sake, I'm 35 years old and have done things in my life! I've traveled many roads to be where I am today. For the most part, I think I am content. Yes I am losing weight and I deal with occational or daily struggles, but that is life. I really think, no, I know I really enjoy where I am today over all.
As in the words of Nikki- Have a wonderful day losing or maintaining! :)
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Quick update- Foto moment!
I had to share. We did photo's tonight- in undewear. :) But I will show you a non scary pic! :)
1st pic: 283
2nd pic: 232.4
Oh, and I have some pictures of when I was younger. Dork, Geek, Weirdo, Band Geek yes! Fat ... no! Darn, they didn't come out. I tried to 'photo' the pictures. I will figure out, I have 3 I want to share.
1st pic: 283
2nd pic: 232.4
Oh, and I have some pictures of when I was younger. Dork, Geek, Weirdo, Band Geek yes! Fat ... no! Darn, they didn't come out. I tried to 'photo' the pictures. I will figure out, I have 3 I want to share.
R1P2: Day 86
Weight: 232.4 lbs
Loss of: .8
Total Loss: 51.4lbs
Body Fat: 46.1%
I am feeling better. I was up till about 3am talking with the husband about various things that bothered me. We woke up a little earlier then expected, still got a decent loss. But I lost several pounds of stress though. I feel hopeful today.
We have the living room pretty much settled. Now I want to tackle my craftroom/storage/wrapping area. I have shelves that I want to put up, plus take down a bed frame that we thought we were going to have guests on. The room is a mess. I want to put all my stuff like clothes in there. Make it my own space I can retreat to do things. Be more organized.
I also sew dice bags. I need to make more to sell at the local comic store, and I want to put some up on Etsy if possible. I have a site on there, just haven't had the guts to try to sell my stuff. I should. They are really good bags. Fun fabrics I have gotten!
Yesterday was a bad day. Today will be a good day. I did no exercise yesterday. I told the husband I have a real problem doing yoga on the Wii board, but I LOVE the games, but I feel like if I get on there I need to do yoga, so I just have been avoiding it. I feel extremely inspired by christyinseattle to do strength/toning exercises. She said that in a short amount of time she has seen results. I don't want to push myself since I do 500 calories, but come on, I can do 30 minutes on my Wii every day at least!
I think she also mentioned, or was it someone else on a post, said taking a weight behind my head and pumping iron, or a heavy object. That should get my droop that women tend to get smaller!
I've enjoyed catching up on blogs last night in the bathtub. I am going to tape more shows also on my tivo to transfer on my ipod. I would like a show or two as well to veg out to. But honestly- your blogs are so insightful and humorous at times, it trumps a show! :) heh. Miss Mary- those pictures have me laughing so hard. Too funny. And I saw a youtube video in this blog (Brandi) that is worth watching. I watched another video, and yes it's about being fat and proud but still it's great on how we feel when we get heavy. To be more then our fat, and be proud woman. I think it's great we are all losing weight because it is healthier for us and we can move.
Though the most recent post of Caitlin was very moving I still find this post on of my most heart touching stories. Isn't that what all mother's want to be able to do? Play with their children in a very active way!
Last night, as I went to bed, and I couldn't sleep I was thinking of what my 'weight story' was. One particular thing that came to me while I was laying there was how my 2 brothers and my father would make fat jokes about me when I was thin. I don't think I had body images as a kid/tween/teen. I really don't but then it hit me that the guys in my family were mean to me. They were all simply joking about it, and did say 'if it became a problem they would stop the jokes', Personally I think we all got older and stopped joking around. But why? Why hurt like that? So either I don't get the jokes and know they think I am fat, or I get called fat at a ripe old age of 11.
I wish I could post a pic, but all the pictures are glued into my 'childhood/baby book' :P but I was a total geek, never fat, just a real big geek. Dork. Yes, that is a better word. A total dork until highschool. Then I got some fasion sence, barely. heh.
Then if I got hurt or offended at my family they were all 'relax it's just a joke' :P Whatever. It was a moment in my life that never really bothered me as much as I think it should have to a point. I knew I wasn't fat, but then why make fun of me? I don't understand. I'm more perplexed then upset.
Thanks everyone for being there for me! :) I appreciate this blogging circle we have created! :)
Loss of: .8
Total Loss: 51.4lbs
Body Fat: 46.1%
I am feeling better. I was up till about 3am talking with the husband about various things that bothered me. We woke up a little earlier then expected, still got a decent loss. But I lost several pounds of stress though. I feel hopeful today.
We have the living room pretty much settled. Now I want to tackle my craftroom/storage/wrapping area. I have shelves that I want to put up, plus take down a bed frame that we thought we were going to have guests on. The room is a mess. I want to put all my stuff like clothes in there. Make it my own space I can retreat to do things. Be more organized.
I also sew dice bags. I need to make more to sell at the local comic store, and I want to put some up on Etsy if possible. I have a site on there, just haven't had the guts to try to sell my stuff. I should. They are really good bags. Fun fabrics I have gotten!
Yesterday was a bad day. Today will be a good day. I did no exercise yesterday. I told the husband I have a real problem doing yoga on the Wii board, but I LOVE the games, but I feel like if I get on there I need to do yoga, so I just have been avoiding it. I feel extremely inspired by christyinseattle to do strength/toning exercises. She said that in a short amount of time she has seen results. I don't want to push myself since I do 500 calories, but come on, I can do 30 minutes on my Wii every day at least!
I think she also mentioned, or was it someone else on a post, said taking a weight behind my head and pumping iron, or a heavy object. That should get my droop that women tend to get smaller!
I've enjoyed catching up on blogs last night in the bathtub. I am going to tape more shows also on my tivo to transfer on my ipod. I would like a show or two as well to veg out to. But honestly- your blogs are so insightful and humorous at times, it trumps a show! :) heh. Miss Mary- those pictures have me laughing so hard. Too funny. And I saw a youtube video in this blog (Brandi) that is worth watching. I watched another video, and yes it's about being fat and proud but still it's great on how we feel when we get heavy. To be more then our fat, and be proud woman. I think it's great we are all losing weight because it is healthier for us and we can move.
Though the most recent post of Caitlin was very moving I still find this post on of my most heart touching stories. Isn't that what all mother's want to be able to do? Play with their children in a very active way!
Last night, as I went to bed, and I couldn't sleep I was thinking of what my 'weight story' was. One particular thing that came to me while I was laying there was how my 2 brothers and my father would make fat jokes about me when I was thin. I don't think I had body images as a kid/tween/teen. I really don't but then it hit me that the guys in my family were mean to me. They were all simply joking about it, and did say 'if it became a problem they would stop the jokes', Personally I think we all got older and stopped joking around. But why? Why hurt like that? So either I don't get the jokes and know they think I am fat, or I get called fat at a ripe old age of 11.
I wish I could post a pic, but all the pictures are glued into my 'childhood/baby book' :P but I was a total geek, never fat, just a real big geek. Dork. Yes, that is a better word. A total dork until highschool. Then I got some fasion sence, barely. heh.
Then if I got hurt or offended at my family they were all 'relax it's just a joke' :P Whatever. It was a moment in my life that never really bothered me as much as I think it should have to a point. I knew I wasn't fat, but then why make fun of me? I don't understand. I'm more perplexed then upset.
Thanks everyone for being there for me! :) I appreciate this blogging circle we have created! :)
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
quick update - quilting madness
So, after the costume blitz I have decided to take the extra scraps of fabric and make a crazy quilt for the friend who bought all the fabric, who was the originator of the design.
I think I will add a 'jedi' into the quilt somewhere. What do you think? Crazy.. of course.. hence the 'crazy quilt'
I think after this I will go take a bath. It's been a nice ritual lately to go take a bath and read your blogs. I realize I can't post a response but I do keep an eye on what your doing! All of you that have blogs for me to read! :)
I think I will add a 'jedi' into the quilt somewhere. What do you think? Crazy.. of course.. hence the 'crazy quilt'
I think after this I will go take a bath. It's been a nice ritual lately to go take a bath and read your blogs. I realize I can't post a response but I do keep an eye on what your doing! All of you that have blogs for me to read! :)
R1P2: Day 85
Weight: 233.2 lbs
Loss of: .6
Total Loss: 50.6 lbs
Body Fat: 46.5%
One Lovely Blog Award from Hello HCG
To accept the award, post it on your blog, along with the name of the person who has granted the award, and his or her blog link. Pass the award to 15 other blogs that you’ve newly discovered. Be sure to contact the bloggers to let them know they have been chosen for this award.
1. Thank you Caitlin for awarding me this award!! :) I would send it right back at you for being awesome! Glad we were able to become friends! You also have very real and fun blogs to read
2. Nikki is one cool lady! I love the visuals she puts into her blogs, but I think I have found a lot of insight to general healthy eating habits and deep thought from her blog! Keep it up woman! :)
3. AKA Skinny Me was on of my first blogs to read. Your journey has been fun to read and so informative.
4. Shawn was I think my very first blog. She struck me as having a similar body type and gave me serious hope that hcg would work well. I think my initial motivation came from reading her blog and seeing the results from her. Amazing.
5. Christy in Seattle is a great blog to read. Fun, entertaining and even an 'adult warning' before you enter! :)
6. helderheid you are one fabulous woman! You share a lot with us about your personal life and I love it. You give me something to think about in my own life. You are so encouraging!
7. Miss Mary you are one hilarious woman! I come for the pictures, I laugh, and I stay for the postings!
8. KAES was an early blog, with yummy dishes. You showed me to be creative with my own foods and come up with my own recipes. I can totally see you as a heatlh chef is some swanky place, or possibly a personal chef!
I'm sorry if I have forgotten someone! I know some of you women already got the reward, but you deserve the reward again from where I stand.
OKay- So my son flung his arm around and swapped me in the face this morning. Not a happy mommy right now. It's getting better, but I got a big lip. I hate being hit, by accident or not. I have a primal anger in me. Luckily I know how to control myself on the outside, but I did get upset. I had serious adrenalin running through my body as I went to weigh. Then I dropped .6 a respectable weight but I was upset at the scale for not giving me more. I want more! I want to lose more weight faster. Grump!
I had a horrible dinner last night.. Grump.
I went to bed too late,but I didn't give a darn.. Grump.
I'm grumping right now. I don't want to do anything. I just want to be grumpy!!!
I'm going through a hard part of the diet right now. Every food looks good right now. I'm going through withdrawal again. My mother in law told me that there are times through out an addiction you go through these withdrawal symptoms. Like being an alcoholic, but this is with food. I need to get through this week being good. I haven't really cheated over all. I did try some coconut oil chocolate bark. You put 3Tlbsp of coconut oil w/ 1 T of cocoa powder and some stevia. Yes it's a protocol no-no, but a LOT of women say it helps sometimes. Well, I don't think it works on me though. I don't want to try it again but I'm tempted.
I'm not going to eat off protocol right now, because the devistation I will feel from gaining weight is too much to bare, I only have 4 more weeks till the stupid cruise. Yes I'm grumping. And then I can eat more food. I really want chocolate. I am so craving chocolate right now. I want to eat a bar of dark bitter sweet chocolate at the 75%. Any more then it doesn't taste as fabulous as I want it to. I want to sit in a tub full of chocolate, I want to swim in a pool of chocolate. I've been craving food, just filling my face full of food. mmmmm. I would keep it p3. ;)hehe.
My husband is still on hcg. He loves his new body. He feels so much better in it. He looks amazing too! I have to see, I find him a bit more vava vavoom. :)
Wow. I actually feel a little better just releasing the grump. When I would get this way my husband would pull out a 'pretend airosol can' and spray me with 'Grump begone" and 1/2 the time it would actually work. I told him his can was empty when it didn't work. But then we would have a good laugh and it would all fade away.
Wish me luck in keeping it together! I wish all you ladies much success and contentment this week! Find one thing you have wanted to do, even if it 'one day totally on protcol' and plan for which day you will do it, and do it! make the time! We make time for all sorts of other things we really want to do. Just find 10 minutes or something to do 1 thing you would love to do.
Loss of: .6
Total Loss: 50.6 lbs
Body Fat: 46.5%
One Lovely Blog Award from Hello HCG
To accept the award, post it on your blog, along with the name of the person who has granted the award, and his or her blog link. Pass the award to 15 other blogs that you’ve newly discovered. Be sure to contact the bloggers to let them know they have been chosen for this award.
1. Thank you Caitlin for awarding me this award!! :) I would send it right back at you for being awesome! Glad we were able to become friends! You also have very real and fun blogs to read
2. Nikki is one cool lady! I love the visuals she puts into her blogs, but I think I have found a lot of insight to general healthy eating habits and deep thought from her blog! Keep it up woman! :)
3. AKA Skinny Me was on of my first blogs to read. Your journey has been fun to read and so informative.
4. Shawn was I think my very first blog. She struck me as having a similar body type and gave me serious hope that hcg would work well. I think my initial motivation came from reading her blog and seeing the results from her. Amazing.
5. Christy in Seattle is a great blog to read. Fun, entertaining and even an 'adult warning' before you enter! :)
6. helderheid you are one fabulous woman! You share a lot with us about your personal life and I love it. You give me something to think about in my own life. You are so encouraging!
7. Miss Mary you are one hilarious woman! I come for the pictures, I laugh, and I stay for the postings!
8. KAES was an early blog, with yummy dishes. You showed me to be creative with my own foods and come up with my own recipes. I can totally see you as a heatlh chef is some swanky place, or possibly a personal chef!
I'm sorry if I have forgotten someone! I know some of you women already got the reward, but you deserve the reward again from where I stand.
OKay- So my son flung his arm around and swapped me in the face this morning. Not a happy mommy right now. It's getting better, but I got a big lip. I hate being hit, by accident or not. I have a primal anger in me. Luckily I know how to control myself on the outside, but I did get upset. I had serious adrenalin running through my body as I went to weigh. Then I dropped .6 a respectable weight but I was upset at the scale for not giving me more. I want more! I want to lose more weight faster. Grump!
I had a horrible dinner last night.. Grump.
I went to bed too late,but I didn't give a darn.. Grump.
I'm grumping right now. I don't want to do anything. I just want to be grumpy!!!
I'm going through a hard part of the diet right now. Every food looks good right now. I'm going through withdrawal again. My mother in law told me that there are times through out an addiction you go through these withdrawal symptoms. Like being an alcoholic, but this is with food. I need to get through this week being good. I haven't really cheated over all. I did try some coconut oil chocolate bark. You put 3Tlbsp of coconut oil w/ 1 T of cocoa powder and some stevia. Yes it's a protocol no-no, but a LOT of women say it helps sometimes. Well, I don't think it works on me though. I don't want to try it again but I'm tempted.
I'm not going to eat off protocol right now, because the devistation I will feel from gaining weight is too much to bare, I only have 4 more weeks till the stupid cruise. Yes I'm grumping. And then I can eat more food. I really want chocolate. I am so craving chocolate right now. I want to eat a bar of dark bitter sweet chocolate at the 75%. Any more then it doesn't taste as fabulous as I want it to. I want to sit in a tub full of chocolate, I want to swim in a pool of chocolate. I've been craving food, just filling my face full of food. mmmmm. I would keep it p3. ;)hehe.
My husband is still on hcg. He loves his new body. He feels so much better in it. He looks amazing too! I have to see, I find him a bit more vava vavoom. :)
Wow. I actually feel a little better just releasing the grump. When I would get this way my husband would pull out a 'pretend airosol can' and spray me with 'Grump begone" and 1/2 the time it would actually work. I told him his can was empty when it didn't work. But then we would have a good laugh and it would all fade away.
Wish me luck in keeping it together! I wish all you ladies much success and contentment this week! Find one thing you have wanted to do, even if it 'one day totally on protcol' and plan for which day you will do it, and do it! make the time! We make time for all sorts of other things we really want to do. Just find 10 minutes or something to do 1 thing you would love to do.
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
R1P2: Day 84 - 50 lb MARK!!
Weight: 233.8 lbs
Loss of: .8
Total Loss: 50 lbs
Body Fat: 46%
50 lbs GONE FOREVER!!!!!!!!
I'm happy, and to celebrate this occasion I tried on my size 16 dress (though it's a BIG 16 because I am just fitting comfy into my size 18 dresses, and size 22 pants.
I'm so happy to have reached the 50 lb mark. I should get some more boots! heh. We will see what I can get out of the hubby. It's like a b-day. I'm 1/3 to my goal weight. I said I would like to lose 150 lbs total. That should get me in the 133.8 area. We will see what I do decide on when I get closer, but now it's 150.
I am trying to go through all my clothes and pair it down, I'm also putting to the side the clothes I would like to wear on the cruise. I should check my suitcase, but it will only be me for 1 suitcase, so I should have PLENTY of room.
I want to declutter a little if I can, I like that idea to get rid of the old and stuff that just seems to get into the way.
Loss of: .8
Total Loss: 50 lbs
Body Fat: 46%
50 lbs GONE FOREVER!!!!!!!!
I'm happy, and to celebrate this occasion I tried on my size 16 dress (though it's a BIG 16 because I am just fitting comfy into my size 18 dresses, and size 22 pants.
I'm so happy to have reached the 50 lb mark. I should get some more boots! heh. We will see what I can get out of the hubby. It's like a b-day. I'm 1/3 to my goal weight. I said I would like to lose 150 lbs total. That should get me in the 133.8 area. We will see what I do decide on when I get closer, but now it's 150.
I am trying to go through all my clothes and pair it down, I'm also putting to the side the clothes I would like to wear on the cruise. I should check my suitcase, but it will only be me for 1 suitcase, so I should have PLENTY of room.
I want to declutter a little if I can, I like that idea to get rid of the old and stuff that just seems to get into the way.
Monday, November 2, 2009
R1P2: Day 83
Weight: 234.6 lbs
Loss of: 1
Total Loss: 49.2 lb
Ha! I'm .8 away from a true 50 lb loss. heeeeee. :) I lost a lb today. I won't be comfortable feeling I'm on the downward slide till I see more losses this week!
I'm only 14 lbs away from my goal before the trip, Tomorrow I get my Fat % calculator machine and then I hit the toning. I hope in the month I can get some serious toning done if I put my mind on it. I need to go to the gym and have them measure me properly. I'm excited.
I was thinking I could use their machines as well as my Wii Fit Plus game. I'm not sure how their yoga program will help me because it looks hard, but I can go to my fitness gym and do yoga every Wednesday. Maybe I will pick a couple classes to go to.
Pilates helps you w/ posture and toning right? Yoga is a good toning, though I know that the Wii and Gym don't do the spiritual aspect which I am stubornly attached to! I think that a whole body, mind, soul work out is the best.
Halloween comes and goes too quickly for me. Now for Turkey Day and Xmas. I want to do some sewing projects for people. I get to see my family this year. My brother's live on the East Coast and so it's very rare for them to come out to us for Xmas.
My husband and I are working on a cookbook together so I can sell at my doctors office, but I'm going to expand it to selling it online. It will be p2 recipes we have come up with or really modified from tradtional stuff. We really enjoy doing that and we have some amazing soups I want to share with the world. We are more 'a dahs of this and a squirt of that' people, so we will have some time making real recipes for others to follow. heh.
I ordered some cards to share with people when they ask 'how did you lose the weight' and want to know more about HCG, I will give them a card w/ my web site that I will have up to share some positive good information about hcg. Sample menu, manual of simione and various other things so they can see some positive stuff about hcg. I was in Walmart yesterday to get some cheap jeans when I told a woman I had lost about 50 lbs and deserve new jeans! Then the husband comes around the corner and says he lost 20 lbs and needed new jeans. The woman was like "WHAT INTHE WORLD DID YOU GUYS DO!" and I told her. I gave her my email address and to contact me if she wanted more information. I'm going to get that website up asap though so I can direct her there. I already had another woman email about the diet and I gave her the manual, she said she would put the cards at her store when I had them made. I think this diet is like wild fire and everyone should be able to know about it and make it part of their choice.
Thought for the day: Is it about the pounds or about the inches? We know if we lose weight, especially a lot of it, that the pounds will go down on the scale, but what about the inches? This diet has the draw back of focusing every day on a number on the scales. We don't have a great device that lets us know about inches lost. I have stopped really working out in fear of gaining weight due to muscle or water gain. The numbers won't be as impressive. Honestly. I love seeing 30 lbs from someone, but I think I get more impressed by the inches they announce. Or the pant size they have finally gotten into.
That is why I have decided to pay 26 dollars for a little machine that lets me know, even though I work out, what my fat % is. I hope w/ the scale, and this little machine I can feel like I can work out and still lose the fat.
Don't forget that the inches 'weight just as much if not more' then the lbs we lose. Numbers are nice but a smaller digit dress size seems a little more telling.
Loss of: 1
Total Loss: 49.2 lb
Ha! I'm .8 away from a true 50 lb loss. heeeeee. :) I lost a lb today. I won't be comfortable feeling I'm on the downward slide till I see more losses this week!
I'm only 14 lbs away from my goal before the trip, Tomorrow I get my Fat % calculator machine and then I hit the toning. I hope in the month I can get some serious toning done if I put my mind on it. I need to go to the gym and have them measure me properly. I'm excited.
I was thinking I could use their machines as well as my Wii Fit Plus game. I'm not sure how their yoga program will help me because it looks hard, but I can go to my fitness gym and do yoga every Wednesday. Maybe I will pick a couple classes to go to.
Pilates helps you w/ posture and toning right? Yoga is a good toning, though I know that the Wii and Gym don't do the spiritual aspect which I am stubornly attached to! I think that a whole body, mind, soul work out is the best.
Halloween comes and goes too quickly for me. Now for Turkey Day and Xmas. I want to do some sewing projects for people. I get to see my family this year. My brother's live on the East Coast and so it's very rare for them to come out to us for Xmas.
My husband and I are working on a cookbook together so I can sell at my doctors office, but I'm going to expand it to selling it online. It will be p2 recipes we have come up with or really modified from tradtional stuff. We really enjoy doing that and we have some amazing soups I want to share with the world. We are more 'a dahs of this and a squirt of that' people, so we will have some time making real recipes for others to follow. heh.
I ordered some cards to share with people when they ask 'how did you lose the weight' and want to know more about HCG, I will give them a card w/ my web site that I will have up to share some positive good information about hcg. Sample menu, manual of simione and various other things so they can see some positive stuff about hcg. I was in Walmart yesterday to get some cheap jeans when I told a woman I had lost about 50 lbs and deserve new jeans! Then the husband comes around the corner and says he lost 20 lbs and needed new jeans. The woman was like "WHAT INTHE WORLD DID YOU GUYS DO!" and I told her. I gave her my email address and to contact me if she wanted more information. I'm going to get that website up asap though so I can direct her there. I already had another woman email about the diet and I gave her the manual, she said she would put the cards at her store when I had them made. I think this diet is like wild fire and everyone should be able to know about it and make it part of their choice.
Thought for the day: Is it about the pounds or about the inches? We know if we lose weight, especially a lot of it, that the pounds will go down on the scale, but what about the inches? This diet has the draw back of focusing every day on a number on the scales. We don't have a great device that lets us know about inches lost. I have stopped really working out in fear of gaining weight due to muscle or water gain. The numbers won't be as impressive. Honestly. I love seeing 30 lbs from someone, but I think I get more impressed by the inches they announce. Or the pant size they have finally gotten into.
That is why I have decided to pay 26 dollars for a little machine that lets me know, even though I work out, what my fat % is. I hope w/ the scale, and this little machine I can feel like I can work out and still lose the fat.
Don't forget that the inches 'weight just as much if not more' then the lbs we lose. Numbers are nice but a smaller digit dress size seems a little more telling.
Sunday, November 1, 2009
R1P2: Day 82
Weight: 235.6 lbs
Loss of: .4
Total Loss: 48.2 lb
So I hit my 15 mark the DAY AFTER I wanted the 15 lbs. Sigh. That is my jinx'ing nature.
That means 15 more lbs to hit before the cruise.
I have noticed a significant loss of size in various areas and it's sort of weird. I feel more blubbery fat because so much fast is being lost and the stuff that remains is more jello. :P But I will get a slimmer for the cruise so it doesn't jiggle. heh.
Wow. To think I am 15.4 lbs away from what I was on November 18th 2000. Just amazing. I will be at what I thought was 'slightly over weight' in my body type. I was in the 16/18 range in pants, size 14 in shirt.
Once I hit 180 it will be pre-marriage territory for me, and we will be celebrating our 12th year anni this March. heh.
I hope everyone had a Fab Halloween! I was 1 of 4 Jedi at the party, and it was a hit. Everyone admired my hard work, the guys got credit for helping me too. It wasn't a one pony show. We got pictures taken in various poses as a group. It was fun. The party was a lot of fun. No drinking and I stayed on protocol the whole way through.
Two issues though:
1. For dinner we had our foods, but we didn't have a scale, so we had to chicken wing it. ;0) heh.
2. We had snacks at the party but didn't weigh. I didn't worry since I did weigh the apples (they had a scale and apples are very iffy for me) but didn't bother w/ the celery. Those were the only snacks I had, I did have a little dip. MY FIRST NON-PROTOCAL CHEAT! It was a p2 thing my friend made, but tech it wasn't allowed, but some people do it.
It was a non fat cottage cheese, some non fat milk, and spices. I took about 1 teaspoon of it and I just smeared it on tips of celery. So I had maybe a 1/2 teaspoon of it. They put in black food coloring so it looked odd, but tasted awesome!
Our kid stayed over night at grandparents so we came home to an empty home and we were able to cuddle and be close all night.
Well, I'm off to be lazy today! :)
Loss of: .4
Total Loss: 48.2 lb
So I hit my 15 mark the DAY AFTER I wanted the 15 lbs. Sigh. That is my jinx'ing nature.
That means 15 more lbs to hit before the cruise.
I have noticed a significant loss of size in various areas and it's sort of weird. I feel more blubbery fat because so much fast is being lost and the stuff that remains is more jello. :P But I will get a slimmer for the cruise so it doesn't jiggle. heh.
Wow. To think I am 15.4 lbs away from what I was on November 18th 2000. Just amazing. I will be at what I thought was 'slightly over weight' in my body type. I was in the 16/18 range in pants, size 14 in shirt.
Once I hit 180 it will be pre-marriage territory for me, and we will be celebrating our 12th year anni this March. heh.
I hope everyone had a Fab Halloween! I was 1 of 4 Jedi at the party, and it was a hit. Everyone admired my hard work, the guys got credit for helping me too. It wasn't a one pony show. We got pictures taken in various poses as a group. It was fun. The party was a lot of fun. No drinking and I stayed on protocol the whole way through.
Two issues though:
1. For dinner we had our foods, but we didn't have a scale, so we had to chicken wing it. ;0) heh.
2. We had snacks at the party but didn't weigh. I didn't worry since I did weigh the apples (they had a scale and apples are very iffy for me) but didn't bother w/ the celery. Those were the only snacks I had, I did have a little dip. MY FIRST NON-PROTOCAL CHEAT! It was a p2 thing my friend made, but tech it wasn't allowed, but some people do it.
It was a non fat cottage cheese, some non fat milk, and spices. I took about 1 teaspoon of it and I just smeared it on tips of celery. So I had maybe a 1/2 teaspoon of it. They put in black food coloring so it looked odd, but tasted awesome!
Our kid stayed over night at grandparents so we came home to an empty home and we were able to cuddle and be close all night.
Well, I'm off to be lazy today! :)
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