R3P2: Day 2

Weight: 198 lbs
Loss of: 2.2 lbs
Total Loss: 2.2
Total over all: 85.8 (Sucks since I lost 90, then gained from loading a lot)

So, yesterday night I got really hungry. It was ALL about the food again. :( I hope to get over that. I am going to get the lifecaps that were recommended! Thanks for pointing that out.

I got a HORRID headache as I went to bed, I took a B-12 and it helped a TINY bit, or it could have been that I was falling asleep that helped. :) Detoxing feels like butt! I know it's detoxing because I ate some really naughty things. I knew better, but hey, it was loading. :) I needed to have a chocolate coma since I was doing good not eating the chocolate even during p4. It's hard sometimes. There were a lot of good foods in p4 to eat, but at the same time now that I want to maintain my weight, I have flushed a lot of food ideas down the toilet. I can't have a lot of what I used to, and that is okay. They are BAD foods. But it's still hard from time to time.

I started the hcg during my period. I'm on b-control so I don't actually GET a period w/ my product, but I can feel the hormones of 'eat everything in sight...NOW!'

I'm happy with my 2 lb loss today. Though, honestly, I was hoping for a bit more. Though if I could keep up a couple 2 lb losses for a couple days I will take it! :)

I am doing a LOT of math. I was thinking I would like to be done by June, won't happen. I won't get there reasonably by June. I will be in the 140's by then. I want to be at 130. (yes 10 lbs, but still)
Then that would mean a LONG round of 76 days. I was hoping to lose 30 lbs this round, then do a 4th round RIGHT after a week or two of p3. Actually more of a 'take a week break to re-introduce high fat foods' and then continue. So more of a small interruption. I might still do it for 3 or 4 days when I lose 30 lbs, and then continue for the last 30 lbs? I just want to be DONE!!!!!!!!!!

I am sort of DONE with the diet in some respects. I want to eat normal. I just want to eat when I am hungry, even an apple w/ peanut butter. I am not asking to eat a whole cow or something. Keep up a healthy eating habit, but I enjoyed, after doing 2 LONG rounds of hcg just eating normal. Not thinking about how I am going to eat today, how much and when to maximize hunger control. I know this is only 2nd day diet whoas. :P I did get pretty good later on in the diet. But I find that I think more about food ON the diet now a days, then when I am off the diet.

anywho. I will figure it out. I have 60 more lbs to lose and then I am done. I got the majority of my weight off. I am under 200 and I really do feel and look great. Yes, plump, but I somehow feel so comfortable at this weight. (more like 190) I think it is because anything past 180 will be new for me since 12 years ago. I sat at 180 for such a long time, hovered 10/20 lbs higher for a while, but came back down. So this is my 'adult size' that I am used to. I am excited to see what is in store for me. I hope to lose 20 lbs in the next 4 weeks, which should put me well into size 16, maybe start to venture tightly into a 14. :D So that will really make life nice. Though I can't borrow jeans until I am size 12 though. :) hehe. I can fit into my mom's tops though!! :)

Have a wonderful day everyone. Thanks for such encouragement! Wish you all luck on whatever phase you are in right now!! :)