R1P2: Day 87

Weight: 231 lbs
Loss of: 1.4
Total Loss: 52.8 lbs
Body Fat: 46.1%

Today starts out well because I lost 1.4 lbs and personally, that makes me very happy. I have lost 5 lbs this month so far. More at this point then other months.

I want to lose 10.4 more lbs before Dec 5th (the cruise). We do have Thanksgiving in the way.

I played on the Wii for 45 minutes yesterday. I played Tennis (my arm HURTS right now), 3 holes of golf and bowling. I kick ass at bowling! My husband kicks my ass at Tennis. It's nice we both have our games. I think if I do a lower body workout the next day that I can let my arm rest, and get a full body work out over all. Though I know I will play Tennis today because it was SO much fun!

So, A little bit about me. I am a 35 yr old woman who is married, have 1 kid, no plans for a 2nd. We enjoy our small family. I enjoy gaming - Table top like DnD and Shadowrun - and computer games- Sims, World of Warcraft, Lord of the Rings. I love walking, I love sewing. I have made some quilts and have several I want to do. I do some web design. I quit a big corporate company to go back to school to do my first love- Film. I have made some short films for school. I have one about my pregnancy named "Made from Scratch" that I'm very proud of. I sew dice bags (or really to hold any smaller items) to make some money. I live in the same town I grew up since I was 3. My parents live less than a mile away. I was born in Germany and we all immigrated to America. Except for my parents/brothers and my Aunt in California all family lives in Germany still and I don't nearly go over there as often as I would like. I have not seen under 200lbs since 1998. I have the 'thin girl in a fat body' image. I do realize now I'm fat, and have for the last several years. It doesn't bother me as much as it should have. I was told by the doctor that my pancreas was going to stop working if I didn't change my lifestyle. That was my wake up call to thin down.
I have a lot of interests that I can't be nailed down in one stereotype. Very multi-dimensional. I love Sci-fi, action, and chick flicks. In fact I love critiquing movies. I do have fun at a stupid movie saying what problems they have. I love yelling at the tv on a live show and telling the camera men to adjust their camera angles. That does bring me joy. Not the 'being mean part' but finding little glitches. Sort of like a puzzle to figure out. "Where is waldo" thing. I love puzzles. I love finding problems and fixing them. I love making things better. My husband doesn't think I should love that as much when I focus it on him. ;) heh.

I'm an emotional person. I love to talk and be around be just as much as I like to stay home. I love going to Mexico in the Spring. I would move down there in a second! I took a couple classes to speak Spanish, but I do so much better when submerged. I love talking Spanish with the guys at the Mexican Restaurants. So far most don't mind. I'm sure they shake their heads and say "Gringo" under their breath, though I got the BEST compliment when I walked into a Mexican Market nearby. The woman who owns the little Tienda only talked Spanish, so I stumbled through it for the most part. She asked if I was married to a Spanish man. :) Felt good. I love feeling good. I don't seem to give myself enough props that I go looking for it outside of myself.
A day can be made or broken just by the comments I get. If the scale treats me nice, I feel good. If someone says 'hello' I feel good. If I get a negative comment, I feel bad. Even getting a hug or a shrug from my 3yr old can pull my day.

I'm complex like I feel all of us are. We love various things that can't go into a box that people can say "oh, she is this type of person" and I won't fit myself into a box. I've always been a bit 'different' as my mom puts it. heh. She is very traditional, but when you start digging into her mind, you realize a complex person is in there, yet sometimes scared to come out and be zany. She once, in order to show us that she can have a 'good time', pushed all the buttons at a hotel. We told her you had to do that AFTER you got out of the elevator. I got so sick by the time we got to our floor. :P She tries. Her maturing age, I think, is helping her relax. I love my parents. I am VERY protective over my mom though. I never was a 'maternal' person, but for some reason I become a pitbull if I feel my mom is getting bullied by someone. It's who I am.

So, I rambled on about who I am. I'm all over the board w/ who I am. And I know I left out bits. For god sake, I'm 35 years old and have done things in my life! I've traveled many roads to be where I am today. For the most part, I think I am content. Yes I am losing weight and I deal with occational or daily struggles, but that is life. I really think, no, I know I really enjoy where I am today over all.

As in the words of Nikki- Have a wonderful day losing or maintaining! :)